Afternoon

Sigh. I'm tired and not feeling too hot at all. Keep getting dizzy, have been alot lately. It really makes me angry and I will be glad to get to a point in my life where I don't have to be dizzy anymore.
Anthony hasn't moved out of bed all day. I went in and poked him with a broom a few times to make sure he was okay. Just kidding on the broom thing, I did go in but very carefully. He has the actual flu and I don't want it. Says his legs hurt and he just lays there. I already know I'll be sick on moving day. Which makes me even happier that I hired movers. I will be glad when winter is over, school is out and people keep their germs to their selves.
Packed up a ton of stuff. Im now officially out of boxes and to be honest a lil sad. Everything looks so bare around here. Just nothingness.
I'm so drained... Kyle left a bunch of stuff here, and Im trying to keep my cool about it, was just stacking it out back. My dad came and got the table and savannahs toys I dont want to put on that back porch. I have them stacked by the door and asked him if he could come pick them up. Simple request.... He will be less than a block from my house and just has to poke his head in the door and get them. Why in God's name does he have to make everything so hard and stressful.... I can pack them up and take them to my new house gladly.... Here is our email exchange... It could've been made simple by yes I will. Now, I'm stressed over a simple flipping question.... UGH

ME
there any way u can stop by and pick up a afew of her things that i keep having to work around that go to your house? everyone keeps trying to pack them up. they will fit in your car its the hannah montana box and the play doh and a couple other stuffed animals from your sister and stuff

HIM
I can, but I would prefer to wait until you guys are better.

ME
kyle come on u will be inside 5 minutes....but whatever i understand its hard to walk inside a door and take 5 min to pick something up and i realize that's hard for you.

HIM
No it’s not, is it on the porch or where. I can come by when I pick up Savannah from the bus. But I have to be somewhere around 5 to make a delivery for work.

ME
its right by the door

HIM
Ok. I will come and get it. I wasn’t trying to be lazy, but you were saying you guys were really sick and I don’t want it.

ME
i know but its right by the door its not like you have to lick anthony. i had something different i had the stomach flu the other night which is now gone

HIM
Oh I thought all 3 of you were sick

ME
juan just had a sore throat and a temp. , mine was stomach virus i ran a fever yesterday and feel a liil better today fever is gone for the most part. Anthony is the one with the actual flu

HIM
I thought all 3 had the flu Anthony has.

ME
Nooooooooo not yet, juan may have had it... Im not sure. No one has been as sick as anthony. He may have taken it harder. we are all sick yes and why the hell are we going back and forth with this? It's pcking up freaking boxes for God sake, we didn't breathe on them . If you want technicalities we are sick. We aren't dead, not close to death but sick. what the more do you want, blood counts? throat cultures?

UGH

We are all sick. Even Anthony is home today with a fever of 100. Savannahs not sick, thank God. She called me last night crying for about 30 minutes wanting to come home. It broke my heart. We had a really good weekend together and it's hard to spend so much time with one of us then go back to the other. That's what I was trying to tell Kyle.... it's hard on her to get used to one place, then have to go to another so in both of our best interests we need to go back to the original agreement. I missed her too horribly.
Happy Day and stay away from our house. We are germy.

Movers will be here Friday

YAY
Love
Di

It's almost Friday

Today I didn't do anything. I started feeling bad last night and today have felt weak, sluggish, achy. Tonight I was cold and just took my temp 99.4. So, I guess I have a touch of something. Still packing to move. Sigh. Just seems there aren't enough boxes and I need a ton. I'm bored. Savannah is at Kyles and I miss her horribly. I keep telling him I want to go back to the custody schedule we agreed upon and only altered it for dance... dance is over and I want to go back. He gets her for 5 days in a row and that's totally unfair, but of course when I brought it up this week nothing. So, like with everything, I have to just tell him I'm doing it and do it. No reason to ask him, he will procrastinate, it's in the divorce papers, if he doesn't like it then oh freaking well.
I guess tonight Im gonna hop in bed early. Im tired and bored, so .... bed I guess is a good thing.

Happy Friday.
Love,
Dianna

Things that go bump in the day....

Okay, so I have started cleaning houses again and today I had to do Karens. Now at your own house, you know what things are where and what things do what etc. etc...... When you go into someone elses house and no one is home and it's quiet...it's weird so to speak. Karen asked today that I do her window sills...Okay, not a big deal... or so I thought. I did her living room window sill and there was this Furby and he went off, not only scaring the crap out of me, but the thing would NOT shut up..... OMG I was like wtf? How you turn this thing off, it needed a screw driver to get the batteries out and I couldnt see real well if there was an off on switch. So I listen to him for 15 min, just when I thought he was finally shut off, he would come on again. I found a Darth Vader Mask on the couch and put it on my head and took on the Furby, I found this black and blue thing on the floor that made a noise and I knocked old Furby around for a few.... I'm 100% serious that this thing was getting on my ever loving nerves. Like I need a xanax nerves....I kept the mask on for a bit and then found the rest of the costume... I actually tried it on... it fit =) So there I was walking around karens in full Darth Costume, even boots on it, helmet on taking on this stupid Furby.. I said "Furby, I am your Father" then said Young padawan what is your fate....Scooped him up by his lil grubby ear and locked him in the refrigerator.... I COULD STILL HEAR HIM!~ How is that possible for 15 min he was in that fridge saying "Ohhhhhh HIDE" I had my drink in the fridge and really wanted it and knew what lurked for a drink. I tried to softly pry the fridge open to get my drink and as soon as the door open that SOB Furby started with his chants again... ring RING RINGGGGGGGGG I shut the fridge and for 15 min heard him in the fridge zzzzzzzzzzzz ing and then ringing. Karen the next time Im scheduled for your house if that thing is there, I'm charging double. I did take the costume off and laid it on his bed ... It was a very cool costume =P I left her house and sadly forgot to take Furby out of the fridge... Sorry... (not really) I'm finally home, I went to qdoba and got some eats. I was so hungry... I have about 10 min to eat get a shower then go get Juan.
Last night I took, Savannah, Maddie May, Alissa, Aleah, Patrick and Juan to the YMCA. Im trying to keep Savannah extremely busy to get her mind off things. All the girls wanted to rock climb so we did that, then they did crafts and played in Y world.... Then at 8 after I worked out I got them all out of the Y world and took them all swimming. They had a blast and all konked out in the car on the way home. I rolled home at 10:30 last night. I was only home for 1 hr yesterday from 930 til 1030 at night.
I'm plum exhausted.

Happy Wednesday.
Love,
Di

The day was LONG

So today was horribly long. Savannah had her appt with the psychologists. From what I understand after this next appt, then she meets with the forensics people. I'm confused as to how that works. I thought this appt was with forensics, but it wasn't. She did however say she will meet with them in time.
It was a very long draining day for us. Savannah crashed and burned in the car.

I think tonight we are going to the YMCA to go swimming. I called her friends and they are going to come with us. That was she can hang out and do normal kids stuff after a tough day.

Happy Tuesday.
Her next appt is the beginning of March, so keep praying for her.

Love,
Di

Evening

I made it through the day. I sanded and painted Savannahs dresser that my aunt sue gave her. Still needs another coat, but that's all I can do for today. I also packed quite a bit. Im running out of places to put things.
Kyle and I are slowly working out the bill issues. I need more movers to give me quotes and no one wants to call or email me back with an itemized list.
I had what looked to be skin floating in my hot chocolate and I'm freaked out. I dunno what it is. So if I die tell them to check the skin on the kleenex. I didn't drink it after I found that but still took a drink. Gag and Gag.
Savannahs appt is in the morning, I pray I have strength to not panic down there. I wish the anxiety would go away. Maybe after I get moved and then things calm down some it will get better. If not, I need to go get on some anti depressants.
My dad came over and gave me a whole set of cordless phones for the new house YAY!! Oh and some bubble wrap YAY!!
That's about all I can think of this evening. I just wanna sleep, but everything is so weird with the walls empty and so on and so on.

Have a good evening
Love,
Di

Grrrr

You know, I wish to God above that I would never have to talk to Kyle ever again in my life. I think on my long list of top stress he's my number one. Whether it be him trying to put Savannah in a bad situation..... to saying he paid off bills that he did NOT pay off and then trying to get out of it.
I can't take him. Not on any sort of level. I hate lying, I hate being told somethings been done then calling only to find out that it hasn't been done. It's frustrating esp when I have a week to get this taken care of.
I had about 20 panic attacks yesterday and somehow managed to get to church and was so relaxed there I almost fell asleep.
I have free floating anxiety today and the more I get on the phone trying to do stuff figuring out what he has done or not done I start shaking yet again.

I will be glad when all ties are cut with him and I only have to see him picking up Savannah or dropping her off.

God, I need strength to deal with that man.

Grumble, grumble on a Monday
Love,
di

Sunday Stressin

Sigh. I'm sleepy. Yesterday we stayed busy the whole day. I took Savannah to see the movie Coraline. It was one of the best movies I have seen in quite some time. It was in 3d and Savannah would jump when things would come out. The girls loved it. Absolutely loved it. As did I. We then journeyed over to moms where I cleaned and accidentally fell asleep for a few on her couch. I was so worn out. Then we went to eat lunch at Burger King. After that, we went to the YMCA I worked out a bit and Savannah and Alyssa played in the Y world. Then we all went swimming for awhile. They had a really good time. After that we had Valentines Day Dinner at Steak n Shake.... Then off to walgreens and we finally got home at 10 PM. We were gone from 10 til 10. Long day.
Today, I'm stressed. Mom is encouraging me to hire movers to move me, but I can't justify hiring movers when I don't have a couch, a stove or microwave..... I don't have money to do all these things. But, when all is said and done I can't get any definites on helping me move, so looks like I am forced into hiring movers and just will have to get a microwave and cook out of there for awhile. Couch, I guess isn't something I "need" I have been without one since Kyle left and we all just watch TV in our rooms. I have been trying to pack... Kyle never did get all his stuff, i guess he just figured I would pack his stuff with mine and have him come get it... gee Suprise there....him not do something? So not only am i packing my stuff, packing his stuff up and just ugh. Im out of boxes. I don't know where to put everything.
Just totally overwhelmed.
I need some peace.
Happy Sunday
Love,
di

Friday

Hi everyone... Happy Friday. Things are going a lil better here. The initial shock is worn off and now my brain is trying to process everything.

Savannah had a friend over for dinner, they are down stairs eating. Pork chops, mashed potatoes, corn, mac n cheese and for desert smores.
They are doing after dinner songs now, it's cute.

Trying to pack and get ready to move. Packing is such a hard job and ugh I don't enjoy it.

Okay, have a great weekend everyone.

Love,
Di

Tired

I'm so tired. Feels like I have been running marathons. Emotionally drained. I went and did a lil bit of shopping this morning to just get out of the house. Came home and slept.

Prayers still welcomed.

Love,
di

I'm about to pull my hair out

Seriously. I'm so angry, I feel like I need to go to the Y and just punch those baggies they have set up. We have alot going on here, I can't go into any detail what so ever for a whole lot of reasons. Things could be so much easier than they are in the difficult time, yet people are hell bent on making them harder.
I'm trying to understand logic behind what people think, what more than one person thinks. There is no logic to their way of thinking.
Kyle basically said I was a bad mom...... Because of yet again that year i was sick and he says " A year?" Like it was longer. I took her everywhere and did everythign with her. I have taken her to every dr appt she has had, I have taken her to every hospital visit she has had. I have been to all her school functions, every play, every thing. Other than last year when I played computer or slept ... when was i ever bad? I missed lunch one day, but she says he missed dinner more than once.... so does that mean he's bad too? When she had all those ear infections and was sick last year too more than normal, who took her to the dr? I think it was me every single time. I never NOT took her. Even when I had to borrow the money from my mom to take her cause he "Didn't have it" So if he thinks he can prove at any time I was a bad mom, bring it on. So i didn't go to dance practice, big flipping deal.... I registered her for school, he didn't. I went to her orientation with her just as much as he did........Maybe I didn't give her attention 24 hrs a day or who knows what else, but if he wants to say im a bad mom..... I dont recall ever holding her against a wall by her throat a few times, or almost punching her leading to the cops being called, nor dumping milk on top of her head at 4 years old. I don't recall me doing any of those things....... Oh nor not giving her lunch money and making her starve all day......... Hmm My check list is empty on all those things and more.... so as you said to me BRING IT ON........ I've done nothing wrong.
In the middle of a crisis, I guess I can see what cards he plays other than denial or stupidity. Im completely blown away.
Like any of us need anymore stress, just pile it on.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
God, Im angry.
Love
di

Feel a little

back more into real life. Like I'm not watching my life in a movie. So that helps. I just hope the anxiety stays away. Juan has a bad stomach flu and now for extra fun was pooping blood. Gotta call the dr this morning.
Waiting on the phone to ring for todays agenda. After I get Savannah off the bus today I'm taking her to the YMCA and we are gonna float in the pool all evening. Just relax and swim.
Losing alot of weight. Down 15 more lbs from January. Almost to my 60 lb mark =) Hooray!! My clothes when I walk fall off, so that's a nice feeling...well it is at first, now Im getting tired of always stopping to pull my pants up. When I took my before pics, my orange tye dye shirt was an ordinary shirt, now i can wear it as a nightgown so YAY!
My new shower curtain came today so that's another positive in what's going to be a very long day.

Hope everyone has a good one and keep prayers coming. They help more than you know. Appreciated more than you know.

Love,
Di

It's Monday Evening

I am not functioning well. I still haven't gotten my head to a right frame of mind. I can't eat. I can't sleep. In between places I'm supposed to go and phone calls, I'm numb. I feel like a zombie just walking around.

God gave me the strength to cope during crisis, but I'm not sure how long I can hold up.

I'm tired.

Prayers please.

Love,
di

Need Prayers

As many as my family can get. Please, please and Please, say as many as you can.

I won't even write happy day, because nothing is happy.

Prayers is all I ask in abundance.

Love,
Di

Missin Van...

Crying this morning. I miss Savannah so much =(. Seems like with this stupid dance, she's always with Kyle. You take someone you have seen every day of her life and then go to not seeing her for days at a time........ It's hard. Kyle and I talked for awhile yesterday, no arguing, just talking and it was nice... Then this morning when I miss her so much I get so angry again at him.
She can't go to church today because of again yet another dance activity and I don't even wanna go because I will probably sit there and cry. I really enjoy my Sundays with her.
You know when she's here, she always wants to call him over and over and over... she rarely calls me. I know it's harder cause he doesn't have a land line and he only has a work cell with limited calls. I just don't feel she misses me much at all.
I would like to say partially that's my fault. Last year when I was so sick, I wasn't worth a crap to anyone. I don't even remember anything I did last year at all. Again that just makes me mad. I hate that mold. I feel like it robbed me of a whole year of my life. She grew closer with Kyle that year.
We used to go to the zoo all the time, plan big parties, go shopping. We were always busy and doing stuff together.
I wish we would've never moved to this house. My dr said I'm lucky it wasn't worse cause that mold has killed people, for the most part it did. I have to undo everything that was done in that year.
On a brighter note and to keep from crying, I put my goal pants on again and they are loose, so where as in Dec, I couldn't fit them til the end, I can now fit them and prob take them off without unbuttoning them.
So that's a happy note.

It's Saturday and I've lost my Dustpan!

I can't find the dern thing. I literally have cleaned and packed since I woke up this morning. I'm starting to get a bit tired. But =) It looks really good in my house despite the lack of furniture and knick knacks. I polished everything and dusted things as I packed them away. Im looking so forward to a fresh start =)

YAY! Okay, that's about it. Gotta go back to cleaning. I just ate and seems anymore anytime I eat I feel sick to my stomach. Probably that nice ulcer I have. It's a gnawing burning pain. So probably.


Happy Saturday....
Elmers still driving, keep him in your prayers =)
Love,
Di

Shish kabob Anyone?

This is soooooooooooooooo not funny, in any way shape or form, but yet I can't help but laugh. As a matter of fact I joked with Curl, Jay and Linney about this on Sunday at dinner..... My pond thawed out today and sure enough is a dead fish with a tree limb going through him.......... I lifted the branch and the fish was perfectly on there like he had been skewered...... It's not funny, by any means... but I giggled and still am giggling. Juan walks in and says mom, there's a fish on a stick outside...oof and oof.

Today has been so busy, I had to clean 2 houses today, then went to Big lots for some knick knacks..Rushed home to let the kids in and got a shower. I forgot to get milk so I have to go back out. My feet are killing me. I started my exercise routine back up. I went from every day to 3 times a week, but now going to every other day.... I figured all the work I did today was enough.

I need to wash my van, from landing in the ditch sideways last week it isn't too clean.

Lisa left a comment about Savannah always being with Kyle... Yes seems that way and it's hardly fair. He's the one that wants her to dance...And can't see past his own nose.... it's very unfair especially this early in the joint custody. She will get used to being over there and it's very unfair to me, but then again that's Kyle and that's how Kyle works.

So........I told him next year absolutely no dance on my days. If she wanted to go I would say sure, but she doesn't want to, its for him.

Happy Friday!
Keep Elmer in your prayers him and his nephew are driving from CA to MD and that's a long, long haul. So pray they have a safe trip.

=)
He's my sunshine.

Love,
Dianna

Thursday

Well, yesterday was kinda boring. I went and cleaned karens and then went to the YMCA then went to pick up some dishes and canister thingies. When I was washing them up, I started crying... They symbolized to me a new start. A moment set in where I thought to myself WHOA! this is MINE =). Back when I met Kyle I was terrified of staying alone. I guess I was young and scared or what have you... So even with all the yelling he was there. I no longer am afraid to be alone and OMG The peace I feel. I don't have to worry about hiding things from him that the boys did or something I did. I don't have to worry about him coming home and starting off the afternoon with a yelling match with Anthony. I don't have to worry about the stinky washrags he would let get nasty in the sink, don't have to worry about the dishes getting done, or the laundry getting done..... I have got myself into a pattern and it's just done. All that worry gone, all that anger daily I had at him for being a slug gone........... The peace I feel is so overwhelming. I'm not shaky anymore, I want to get out and get up! It's just amazing the difference. The only time all week I have had any stress is when i have to talk to him.
I won't have Savannah for about 3 full weeks cept a few days here and there because of this dance crap that she does not want to do. She's tired. She cries not to go, but Kyle enjoys it, so therefore forces her to go. I told him all along she wants to quit tap and ballet, but he had the teacher talk to her and you know how kids are with teachers.... she still cries. Last night was my night with her and she had an unscheduled practice. she got confused and thought she was staying with him and was tired and cranky and he had to drag her in kicking and screaming. I was quite angry. She doesn't need all this confusion this early into all this. She told me he never cooks dinner and she goes to bed hungry... kyle said that's bull crap. Funny how one day I didn't cook lunch cause i was sick and Im made out to look like the worst person in the world, but she said on multiple occassions she doesn't eat... oh she's telling tales.... Hmmm my, my, my how it feels when the shoe is on the other foot.

Enough about that, I bought a shower curtain for my new house =) First time I Have bought anything in a LONGGGGGGGGGGGG time and I can't wait to hang it =)

It's awful having a new place and no money to decorate it!

Happy Thursday

Love
Di

My sun is shining =)

Mondayyyy

Well, we are back into our house. I had taken Savannah to the movies Saturday to see, Hotel for dogs and we decided to drive by our house and what do we see....... POWER and a mess. More branches down in my yard. It looks like a lumberjack smoked a bunch of hash and plowed through my yard.
I have alot of stuff damaged. My computer is fried from all the zaps in power. The one yesterday zapped it even more. It's doing what Karens is doing, which is not turning on. The fan comes on, the CD light comes on, but it won't power up. I get a ton of flickers and it sounds like it's sizzling.
Hmm What else. Bird boys dad came took the tree off my fence.
Dogs are worn out, Kids are worn out, I'm worn out. I really have slacked off on exercising and I really need to get it back up there. I think my iron has fallen, very, very drastically. I can tell. I have no energy and I haven't been taking it. One of these days I promise I will learn.
Other than that, nothing to report cept I hate ice.
Love
Di

It's Friday

Went to my house, no power still. A big huge branch fell off. Broke part of the window in Juans room. UGH.... I updated my photo blog with some pics of the ice in a nice way LOL Click here for pics of that
Here are some pics of my new branches down in the front.

Did I mention I HATE ICE????????

Last night I tried to go to sleep.... Anyone who lives near a wooded area.. Carol Im sure living near the park you know the sound that filled the night.. Crack crack WOOSH.... Wood cracking, wood breaking falling to the ground the ice breaking. I literally heard that all night long. On my roof over and over. I had 2 trees fall on my fence, one on the neighbors fence. I had a tree fall on my shed. One almost went through Anthonys window, I have some in my pond, a bunch on my roof. I was so scared last night I shook the whole night. At 5 am i heard 3 explosions that could've woke the dead and it was my transformer going. Power GONE... Soooooooo.... I get my stuff to go to moms, tree falling etc long story short, I ended up in a ditch. AAA comes rescues my sorry butt and I'm at my dads.
Here are some pics of my house and the pear trees. Across the road from my house are these beautiful pear trees, I have blogged about them before, I love their beauty.. I was sadly disappointed that most of them did not weather the storm. So here are some pics of the mess that is my house. I can't tell how bad the roof stuff is, I wouldn't stand under those trees for all the money in the world

My shed is under that tree somewhere

My fish are under this huge branch (es)

My fence or lack there of is under this tree

My neighbors fence is under this tree which is also in my yard

The one that made me about have a heart attack almost crashing through anthonys window

The beautiful pear trees

The tree that caused me to go in the ditch, this is after the firemen hacked it up to let the road be passable

Friday

It's Friday. I'm tired, angry and tired. I'm so angry at Kyle..Lots of reasons. This morning the anger flared up again. For years I would say Kyle clean out the fish pond, Kyle clean out the fish pond. Over and over and over like a broken record. They have to be taken care of just like any other animal..... Well, sometimes he would do it after I nagged for awhile. This year I nagged all summer, then all fall..... Asked him again and again before he moved..... Nada. So we had the big freeze. The pond shouldve have the filter running to keep oxygen to the fish. The fish pond hasn't ever been cleaned since Kris and Dave sold us the house. Poop and Leaves are on the bottom, which creates gas in the water...... Long story short, it froze, they lacked oxygen, it got warm and thawed and I have a bunch of dead and dying fish. Why people can't be responsible is beyond me. I can't clean it, I don't know how. It has to be drained, scrubbed, refilled. The filter under the water has to be dug out and cleaned.... Stuff I can't do because lack of know how....... Some of the fish are laying side ways can't breathe. I'm just sad and I'm so mad at him for always being so irresponsible. Not just with the fish, with everything. Asking over and over and over and over til I'm blue in the face for stuff to be done and NADA.... The chair and the desk on the back porch i have been asking for mos to get rid of... The basement i asked for 7 mos to get cleaned up..... Grrrrrrr just plum pisses me off.
=( and my fish. I'm just sad and angry. I feel like taking the dead ones putting them in a bucket and putting them on his porch and leaving a note saying " Will you please clean out the fish pond?" It would only be the 5000th time I have said it since we lived here. I think they all will die so I guess it no longer has to be dealt with.
Sigh sigh sigh.
My poor fish.
On a lighter note, I'm feeling much better. My house is spotless, I haven't been exercising every day like i did. Every other day. I'm just tired. Exhausted. Stressed. I need to get back on the wagon. I haven't been splurging on food. Esp yesterday oof.
Kids are good. Im enjoying living alone. Everything seems less stressed and peaceful.
Happy Friday
The sun is shining only its melting my poor fishes into death... Don't go into the light fishies, just keep swimming, just keep swimming....
Love
di

O.o

What i thought was my cold ended up being a stomach virus..... ugh i was up all night. Still feel awful today. In and out of bed. My stomach hurts so bad =(
Happy Thursday
Love
di

ugh

my cold has progressed into a sinus infection i think. My head hurts so bad i can barely move. =( its irritating the holy heck out of me. Happy wednesday everyone.
Love
di

Happy Monday

Hi everyone =) Happy Monday. Was a long weekend. I have had a cold sort of sniffling sneezing what nots. Saturday I was a sloth. No exercise nada. Oof. I didn't do anything all day. Kyle moved out Friday, I was left with a pretty huge mess. I got it all cleaned up and moved Juan down to the basement.
For those of you who don't know, my mom and Mark are in the process of buying a new house, which I am going to rent from them for awhile. When I move out, it will just be investment property for them. It's soooooooo stinking cute =) It's small but perfect for me and the kids and my puppies. So once I get moved, be sure to drop in and see me =).
Yesterday I had a busy day. Sundays are becoming mine and Savannahs day. We got up, got ready, went to my moms. We went and looked at the house again, did a bunch of drive bys LOL! Then we went out to lunch and to the YMCA, she played in Y world while I worked out and then we went swimming for awhile.
After swimming we went and got showers and did our hair and stuff in front of the big vanities. She loved it.
Then off to church with Auntie Curl. I love their church. It is probably one of the best churches I have ever been to. I love going and so does Savannah. She askes when we can go back all the time. She wants to go every day, not just on sunday.
She wrote on my board today Each new day is a god from God, so remember whether its a good day or a bad day.... then she didn't finish. I will share the pic tomorrow, i just snapped it in case it gets erased.
Then we went to McDonalds got some coffee and icecream and went back to Curls to eat with Linny, Jay and baby E and curl. It was really a good time, I love sitting around talking.
We left Carols and it was snowing, I still had to go to the grocery store. It was very hard getting home from the store, they werent' expecting the snow and the roads were covered.
It was a great day. I came home spent some time fishing on WoW with Elmer and then talked to him on the phone for awhile Was nice.
Please keep Elmer and his family in your prayers, his dad is ill, just found out he has lung cancer =( and Elmer dealing with that is having some work issues. So just keep them in your prayers.
Thanks all
The sun is shining
love
di

Ohhhhhhhh Boy!

Okay, so my daughter has 2 friends over from school... I must go a lil further back.... One day the girls asked me if I could take them all to where their mommy works to eat.... I say what does she do? They say she serves food and other stuff... Okay great sure I'll take you out to eat..... where does she work ?? The twins reply in unison "the foxy lady" Which basically is an adult club, a booby bar if you will........ OKay, i tell them maybe some other time.... So today I hear them upstairs playing, they are choosing names... Brittany, Christina and Fi fi...... I hear them talk about who does food and who does dancing.... I decide to work my way upstairs to find out what they are doing........ They reply we are playing cocktail waitress like our mom.... So Savannah and her friends are dressed like strippers...What ever happened to playing dolls?? Now, its playing cocktail waitress??? Here is their lil ensemble .....they are only 7.. Sigh sigh sigh

Happy Thursday!

Juan's home today, has had a tooth ache for a couple weeks..... it was in a baby tooth that didn't have a permanent tooth underneath it.... they were going to pull it anyways, so this morning I took him and had it pulled. He has to go to the orthodonist to have spacers and braces put in. Thank God he only had one tooth like that.
I wrote his dad today to pay some of his dental bills, even with insurance paying for some, I can't afford all of his dental work. I have been very fair never asking him for a penny of his medical bills til now, but with the situation the way it is..... I can't pay it all.
I went to the gym yesterday and did my workouts, it's soooooooo cold!!!! I couldnt get warm til midway through my workout.
Since Juan is home today, Im thinking I may not go to the gym but workout here. Not sure really. I need to clean some more.
Hmmmmmmm =) I dunno.
Anyways, Happy Thursday and hope everyone is having a great day!
The sun is shining
Love,
Di

Achoooooooo

I picked up a cold somewheres. Achooooo, snifflin, sneezing, eyes waterin. oof. Yesterday I was so freaking busy. I had anthonys health ins etc appt waited for 4 hoursssssss then the appt took 1. I was so beat. I left there and called and talked to Dr. Lewis about Juans contacts. Drove all the way back into my end of town, to let the boys in. Toured the YMCA made an appt. Ate a quick lunch ran all the way back to the other end of town, picked up Juans new contacts, went to the Y to meet the trainer guy and worked out for about an hour and 45 min. We mostly toned up and stuff, I got home and I wasn't tired so I did 35 more min of aerobics. You can bet your sweet butt i was tired after that. I was literally only home 30 min from 830 am til 8 pm at night. Im plum wore out today and this cold. Im trying to clean. Kyles moving out this weekend and Im trying to pack up some things he's taking and clean out stuff he's taking iwth my stuff in it. I officially will have no living room once he leaves. No couch, no TV, nuttin. Some tables. But Oh well... Life continues on with or without a couch or TV. I spent some time with Elmer last night playin scrabble and I almost fell asleep at my desk. My stupid phone has an issue and tries to synch all night. I called ATT and they reset it and if it doesnt work they are going to replace it. It's annoying as fire.
Im still happy.
Life is good
Very Good
Love,
Di

Happy Sunday =)

It was a totally wonderful day. I was extremely tired from being such a night owl last night but it was wonderful. All weekend was great. Yesterday, Karen and I went and saw Marley and Me..... WoW! Super duper sad!! her and i and the whole theater were blubbering and in hysterics. Dogs are so wonderful. Just loyal, loveable furry babies.
I have enjoyed spending time with Karen and hope that once a week we get together to just spend time together.
Today, I was with mom all morning we went to look at houses. I fell in love with one........ it just seemed right for me. The boys aren't too thrilled about moving to that area away from their friends, but if it works out, we all have to do what we have to do.
I came home, got a bath and got ready for church.
Savannah got all dressed up in her lil skirt and put a tiny bit of lipstick on... was too cute.
I kinda sorta got lost and I ended up at my aunt Carols and we just followed her.
Church was soooooooooooo nice. It was so relaxing and the music was wonderful. Usually Im all hurried with everything and I just sat there and relaxed and listened.
It was such a nice area with so many things to do, i was really impressed and with great company it was a very nice evening.
I totally loved it and Savannah asked if we could go back next week and I absolutely am looking forward to going back.
After church we all went out to eat at qdoba...... it was soooooooo good!! I didn't exercise at all today. I did alot of walking and cleaning, but I didn't do any exercise........... Oof!!
I didn't eat to bad tho for both lunch and dinner i had the tortilla soup from qdoba its only 2.5 points..
After that Savannah and I went grocery shopping, we just took our time and looked at everything..... then we went to the bank and got home just now.
she's in the bed and Im going to play some scrabble with Elmer and hit the hay.
Life truly is wonderful
Love
di

=)

hi =) good morning! I'm in such a goooooooooooooooooood mood!! I was telling my family about Christmas how i hit a plateau on my weight loss, it was going very slow... well I nixed some things cut a couple more things out of my diet, increased exercise and added some toning..... since the 29th the last time I weighed, I'm down 10 more lbs =) thursday I did 2 hrs of aerobics through the day, not all at once and toned for 15 min. I was sooooooo sore so I went mall walking last night. I sure wish it would warm up so I can walk at home. Im up to being able to walk 4 miles without being tired. I'm doing sooooooo good =)
A few days ago I had a really hard time being depressed, I mean as low as it gets. I was tired with worrying about being homeless, I was worried about finances. Just worrying about everything combined with my SAD i get really bad in January, I was a mess. I just gave it all over to God and I tell you what it was like a load was lifted. Yesterday I had a wonderful day. Karen and I went to breakfast and talked for awhile. Then we went back to her house and I helped her straighten up and we listened to music and talked. I had a really, really good time. I almost dozed off driving home, I think I may have.. oof came home slept, woke up, ate a light dinner, went mall walking....... Then came home and spent some puter time with Elmer playing WoW and scrabble. Was just a really nice day. =) Tomorrow Im goin to my moms in the morning and we are going to look at a couple houses and then Im goin to church with Jay and Linney and then a comin home.
Last weekend I took Savannah on a date to see bedtime stories and out to eat... It was really cute!
Tonight instead of dancing Karen and I decided to go see Marley and Me =) Im gonna cry Im sure but that's okay!
Hope everyone is having a happy Saturday.
Life truly is wonderful
and the sun is shining
=)
Love,
di

Happy Thursday =)

Not much goin on at all, just updating to say Howdy!! Me n Karen going out to bfast tomorrow, im excited to get out, then Saturday we are actually going out dancing =) I can't wait, I haven't been out dancing or out in general for 12 years, I can NOT wait =) Sunday I'm goin to see mom and then going to church with Linney and Jay.. So, I actually am looking forward to the weekend YAY!!!
Have a wonderful weekend everyone and hope you are well!!
life is good
Love,
Di

its just

one of those days where nothing is right. i'm tired.
i'm angry. i have such a mess to clean up in my life and i dont know where to start.
i am doing it, but it's still hard.
i have so much anger towards kyle for the stuff he has done over the past few weeks and even beyond.
i think i need to go to the dr for meds.
im tired of head games men, not men, um boys play.
i don't have the time nor energy for head games.
i refuse to play, i just walk away quietly and let it go.
so watch carefully how you play them.
you may not always win.
life is good
love,
di

Did Ya'll Miss Me =)

Wowsers, been a long, long time since I updated.
I'm so sleepy it probably won't be a good one tonight.
Elmer came in town for 5 days and I have been with him.
We had a very, very nice time.
I was sad it was over and sad it went by so fast.
I'll tell you guys more about our meeting this week.
I got home to a complete and utter mess, so have been cleaning
non stop since i got home. I spent 52 min exactly on the bathroom and then 2 hrs in my room, walked almost 3 miles and about to fall over from exhaustion.
Everything was perfect this week.
Happy Friday Eve
Life is good
Love,
dianna

Sigh

Was sitting at my desk doing absolutely nothing, Kyle decides to start insulting me...... huge blow up ... cops were called and came to calm us down. He needs to leave me alone. He just plain and simple needs to leave me alone. I wasn't even doing anything just sitting here and the insults start coming. I need to move. I hate it here. I smiled at something and he said "oh well you seem to be awful happy" God knows i cry myself to sleep every night almost. I was like what Kyle I smiled will you not be happy til i kill myself? I don't understand.
I was up all night with my tooth, clenching my jaws i broke it.
It hurts bad =(
im sad, and stressed and just want him to leave me alone.
He also needs to stop shouting my business in front of the kids.
Also needs to stop insulting me in front of the kids.
Pisses Juan off and Savannah said she was glad he left.
He's doing his own self in.
Im stressed. Heading to moms to sit in my stupor with my tooth ache til i figure out exactly what it is Im supposed to be doing.
Happy day
Love
di

Happy Christmas Eve Eve!

Hi and Happy Christmas Eve Eve!! Savannah and I for the past 3 hrs have been baking cookies. We had a really good time and it was nice doing that with her. She really knows her way around a kitchen!

Okay, off to scrabble

Happy day.
Love
di

Monday!

It's Monday! Been a busy day. Woke up kinda late which put a rush on the day to begin with. I took Juan and his friends shopping. They cracked me up. The one kid Kojo is probably one of the funniest kids I Have ever met. He had me laughing the whole entire time. It was nice taking him and his friends around.

Over the weekend Kyle and Savannah were supposed to go to Nashville to see his aunt, but Savannah got so sick. Oh my Lord was she ever sick. She threw up for 24hrs straight. Kyle went on and went and I took care of Vannah. It was a very rough day. She would just lay on the bathroom floor and cry asking me why did she have to be sick. I sat on the edge of the tub and cried because there was absolutely nothing I could do. Was a long day.

When she would sleep I moved her toys out of my room and scrubbed the extra room in the basement and made her a playroom. It looks fantastic.

Yesterday I was soooo sore from all the furniture moving.

Im not ready for Christmas. Have no motivation. Nothing.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm...... that's about it. I took a long nap did Richard simmons and now just gonna maybe play scrabble or write letters til bed.

Have a happy Monday
The sun is shining
life is terrific =)
Love,
Di

90 minus 3

I have to share this, for 90 straight days I have exercised and ate extremely well. I gave up sugar, chocolate etc. I have pushed myself and pushed myself and PUSHED myself. I have only missed 3 days of exercise in 90. I have wanted to give up over and over and over, There have been days where I Have wanted to CRY because I'm so tired. A lil persistence pays off cause I bought a pair of jeans I couldn't button, I couldn't even really get over my hips and I said those are my goal jeans!!

Guess whos wearing the jeans today ?? 4 sizes down from where I started. The scale hasn't moved very much but the inches have melted off. I think I'm building alot of muscle.

=) YAY Jeans!!!

IT is a happy day indeed!

What the heck day is it?

I think it's Thursday! hmmm! Not much going on here, allergies are acting up this morning. Atchoooooooooo.
kinda been cleaning on and off, contemplating a nap.
That's about it. I have contemplated the nap and now off to take it.
Woots!
happy day the sun NEEDSSSSSSSS to come out
Life is good
di

Its wednesday

I have cried most of the day. I think I've got the winter time blues. Honest question for people in KY, when is the last time the sun came out? I haven't seen it in ages, but haven't kept track. I know it's been at least 10 days. I was out walking every day getting sunshine, now its drab rainy cold day one after the other. It's affecting my psyche. I forgot to eat this morning. It was almost noon before i realized I hadn't eaten. Not that it's gonna hurt me, but when my blood sugar drops I get cranky. I ate a banana and that's all i have had today. Getting ready to go get Savannah off the bus and exercise I guess. I really really need to.
Okay happy day to all
life is good
love
di

Today is better

and its my mommas birthday so Happy Birthday Momma!! =)
I am feeling mentally better. I spent the day yesterday having panic attacks. That is something I hadn't done in awhile, for the most part those are gone. I guess it's all the stress.
I cleaned and just moped all day pretty much and in the evening I got on WoW and Christmas had come!!!!!!!!!!! Every area and every world was decorated all up. Elmer and I spent all evening in Iron Forge... He had a lil char he made into an elf to give out cookies and milk.. You have to give santa cookies and milk and he gives you presents. Since my char Genovie is a tailor I made christmas clothes for a bunch and just over all we had a blast. The people in that game are so funny. I know alot find it hard to understand but it's a blast. Nancy has asked a few times what its like and what do you do on there, so I'm gonna share a few pics.
First is my char Geno she usually has alot more clothes on, well armor LOL but this is her christmas outfit she made.

Here is Santa Claus and he does gift presents YAY!

Here is Elmers Girlie Char LOL!! He has all boy real chars but that's his Christmas Elf. He got hit on all yesterday LOL!

This is my good friend Dan.. The boys get full christmas clothes LOL!!! He went to the barber shop and got his hair lightened and a beard to look like sannie claus

Below is my very, very, very good friend David that's on my face book page. I have known him for a few years. He's dancing with Elmer trying to get some milk and cookies for free ha ha!!

And last but not least is Genovie on her Rudolph Mount =)

Anyways so Christmas in WoW got me out of my funk and today I am better. Having ulcer problems but with all the stress Im lucky its just an ulcer. Happy day to all
Love
the sun is shining
di

Just not my day

Today, I'm having such a struggle with everything. Especially anger. Alot happened over the weekend. A huge huge degrading fest at 4:30 am. I won't go into details because it's extremely embarrassing and of course were just verbal attacks on me. Today I'm so angry. I'm so tired of being put down. I'm tired of everything.
When the verbal stuff happened the other night Juan and his friend Patrick were here and his room is right across from mine and it was so loud, I'm sure they heard every word cause Juan said they didn't go to sleep til 6.
I try and try to pull myself up and I keep getting knocked down because obviously Kyle doesn't think I feel bad enough about myself. Believe you me I hate myself enough for 20 people, I really don't need any help in that department. Anymore when he is around I get so anxious and just start sweating and shaking because I just wait for more verbal assaults. I wanna pull my hair out so bad and just scream because all I want is to be left alone.
The boys have picked up on this disrespect and are treating me awful. Anthony is so mean to me. Every day for 3 years he has to be told to let the dogs out after school. If I do not tell him he says he doesn't have to do it because I should have to ask him. Yesterday I decided to let them out since I was out that way. Today I say anthony let the dogs out. He didn't, I said Anthony let the dogs out... He says.. I don't do that anymore you did that yesterday I never let the dogs out thats your job.... Im like wtf????? every day for years you have had to let the dogs out in the afternoon. He goes on and on and on with me, back talking me and i said you need to watch how you speak to me. In which he responds, I dont need to watch anything to you because what i say is fine, no one else has a problem with me blah blah..... I just decide to walk away and I Had asked him to take out the trash... Did he do it.......nooooooooo so I say Anthony trash.... You didn't tell me which trash to take out, I took out what piece of trash i wanted too , you didn't specify which location of the trash I had to take out going on and on... So i said fine no computer for 3 days... What he says??? you are grounding me because YOU didn't specify which trash I needed to take out. I say its the way you talk to me.... again I talk fine to you you are the one who has the problem.... I took his cell phone from him to ... he went on and on arguing with me , insulting me telling me that he doesn't have to talk to me any way, he is fine. He needs to get a job and see how things are done in the real world. Hes almost 18 and has no clue at all how the real world works. He says no one ever takes him to get jobs, oh we have he just shoves the applications in his entertainment center. Im done, he's going to go get a job so he can see when someone asks you to do something, you don't do what you want to do, you do what you are told. They ate Savannahs Christmas cookies she made for her teacher, she was in tears this morning when they went to go get them and they were gone. Juan drink all my teas, my egg nog anything I buy for myself after they eat or drink theirs they feel obligated to go take everyone elses things. Lets face it, if it's there, they are going to take it. I was saving a whole bag of M and Ms I just went to go get them and they were completely eaten a 1 lb unopened bag and the bag shoved back in.
Anthony said he was hungry made 2 peanut butter sandwiches, then I go back a few min later he's got the stove on for a pizza, I say, wheres the peanut butter sandwiches, he says "Oh i fed them to the dog because i want something different" they know I Have no money for groceries and we have to save yet the dogs can have the sandwiches cause he wants something else.
No one in this house respects me. Probably because they continually learn the disrespect from others. Not only do i have to get the verbal stuff from kyle, i gotta get it from my own kids.
Im tired. Wipe the floor with me and add it on to every other thing I Have got on my plate.
Not to mention I was draining boiling water, it splashed up off a plate in the sink I know have 3 half dollar size blisters on my stomach.
I tried to cry, but I can't. After Saturday night/ sun morning I emotionally numb. A person has limits to how much stuff they can handle. I was past my limit mos ago.
I dunno what to do.
I don't care.
I give up.
Happy day.
love,
di

oof

what i thought was the stomach flu yesterday..... was only the beginning. oh my lord have mercy, I feel like death. Stomach stuff, weak, achey, fever. I go from bed to computer. I crawled to macs to get me a diet sprite. I can't even eat. I need to shower, but I don't know if i have the energy. I wish i had a dvd player so i could watch christmas movies. I have got the weepies now, which mom knows im famous for when i get sick.
stomach viruses suck.
Life is good
love
di

Been Awhile

Howdy folks! Been awhile.
Weekend was long. Saturday we had a bfast with santa to go to at Savannahs school. I thought it was going okay, til Kyle made some comments to me which really set my tone for the weekend.

I know he's angry at me etc. etc. but I was really embarrassed and sad. The first one really got me... We were standing in line at the Santa shop the line was very, very long. People and kids all over. He was coughing and said he needed to get something to drink. I had a bottle of green tea and being nice said "Here, you wanna drink of my tea" instead of no thanks etc in front of all these people I get "I don't know where your mouth has been" I thought I was going to DIE, not to mention Anthony, Savannah and everyone around heard that. It made me sad.
The second one, we were in line for Santa and the line was long. He had his foot out and I almost tripped on it. I was sitting there talking to my friend Wendy and looked at him and said "oof you tryin to trip me" He said "What's it matter if I do, you aren't on my insurance anymore and aren't my problem if you get hurt" Wendy and I exchanged looks and I just looked at him and told him that wasn't nice.
I stewed all day of course. The comments are unnecessary no matter how angry someone is and they are completely uncalled for. The kids are already showing a ton of disrespect for me... Now I see why. He basically called me a slut at a childrens function when I still haven't gone on a date, nor even gone out to eat or anything. I don't understand.

Debbie was at the bfast with Santa and I talked to her for the first time in years and got to see Madison and Ken Ken. That was nice.

Been exercising every single day. Still having to do the Dancing with the oldies thing cause it's been to cold. It's not too too bad.

Juan threw up yesterday and is home sick, Savannah was sick to her stomach and coughing she has another cold. Tis the season. I'm sure since I Just got over being sick, it will come to me again.
I dislike winter so bad. I hate it.

I Have journals and journals full of I Hate summer, I wish winter would come. What was I thinking. Oof. Oof.

So that's about all the updates for now. Nothing else going on as of late. Just sickness and blah.

Happy Holidays
Love to all
The sun is shining
Di

Me n Mom took on the stores today...

Me n mom went out and spent the day shopping today. We had a very, very good time and I couldn't help but chuckle at my mother. We got to the Mall early before the stores opened and she got to see first hand a few mall walkers.... We come up to one of these center booths and it says something about a facial and mom goes over with great curiosity and starts stroking this big black thing and looks as if she's going to put her face in it... She's like "How does this work" I'm like "Mom that's a stool, your butt goes in it, not your face" LOL they had put them up on the counter while they were closed. She wasn't so impressed once she found out its a stool LOL!!
Then off to Bath and Body works where she sniffed a bottle of lotion and shot it up on her nose... I can't take my mother anywheres.
All through the mall it was like Harry Krishnas (sp?) handing out flowers and asking for money all along the way... My mom was like a football player on steroids, they would holler to her... No, No thank you... and just take off running. I couldn't keep her with her... She would fully fit in to the mall walker world, she was FAST, those sales men didn't stand a chance with her.
We then went to Steak n Shake for lunch then off to Target.
I was soooo tired, felt as if we walked forever.
I dropped her off came home and ate a bit of noodles. Then played WoW for a bit.
I was going to take a nap and instead decided to do Richard again. It's so flipping cold out. I was so sore from all the walking and carrying the packages and blah... But, I mustered up some strength did it and now sitting my butt down. I'm plum pooped.
Hope everyone has a wonderful and blessed weekend.
life is wonderful
love
di

Hi

It's Thursday, yet I went through the whole day thinking that it was Friday. Today for the most part is a blur, I don't like this getting dark early stuff. I took Savannah to school, cleaned for a few and went to bed and slept for a long, long time.
Tonight I was trying to decide between WoW and a date with Richard since it got freezing overnight... Wasn't even much of a debate, Richard won out. Wasn't too bad and actually I like the burn of the muscles I dont get to exercise when walking.
My stomach has hurt all day so I have eaten noodles with veggie bullion a few times tonight. That's all I have eaten all day and yet my stomach still hurts. Ah the joys of ulcers. Okay, my boring life!
Happy Thursday
Life is good
love,
di

Wednesday

I can't believe it's already Wednesday. Yesterdays post disappeared. I have another private blog I write in and when you are signed in to which ever blog and I accidentally thought I was in one blog and wasn't was in this blog and the post is gone gone goneeeeeeeee Whoa, basically it said I'm hungry I hate cocoa pebbles, Kyle needs to get food we can all eat.
Today has been so busy, I am just now finding time to sit down at the puter and write. This morning I had to go for my yearly girly check up.. Oh boy! Went well, lost weight Blood pressure was 115/70 which he said was excellent, Iron is at a presentable level.
Then after that I went to Fashion Bug to look around and get myself a couple of need things as I have lost weight a few things are falling off. So I got a couple of items.
Then off to Hancocks for some Fabric...
Then to Mcdonalds for a hamburger patty and an apple.... yum
It was a warm day, well warm for December so I knew I was going to get to walk outside today.
I decided first to go to Walmart and get some groceries which I did, then came home lugged them all in and WENT WALKING!! YAY
Outside. I walked and walked and walked 2.5 miles today. I know tomorrow is supposed to be cold and I'm tired of trying to find solutions to the exercise dilemma so I soaked it up. I feel sooooooooo good.
I'm getting ready to take a breather for a few and then go cook some dinner and then maybe watch a movie or something.
Happy day
Life is good
Love
di

My first date with Richard

Oh boy!! All I can say is we went to the Prom.......
Let me first start by saying, it's super cold outside, I cannot go for a walk out there. The treadmill gave me a stress fracture in my ankle and the mall is for farty bossy women with strange objects growing out of their ass... What's a girl to do?
I open up my cabinet and out falls a Richard Simmons DVD Sweatin to the Oldies... I was really debating on what to do, looking up indoor walking tracks online. Either way I had to exercise.
I open it up, see a song list... think to myself, this can't be so bad there's 11 songs, lets try it.

I have never felt an urge of geekiness in my whole life.. I went into Anthonys room, patted my dogs and pushed them out of the room and shut and locked the doors.

Not sure if the neighbors could see the outline of my body and hear what I was doing in there but I didn't care. By goodness I was goin on a date with Richard.

We started out by watching his mom get hauled off in a police car.. Okay, he uses humor that was funny... This may not be so bad.

Dancin in the street was the first dance of our prom.. Not bad.. I felt a lil like Steve Martin the jerk.. Couldn't quite get the rhythm down, really focused on just exercising..

Beyond the Sea comes on and my eyes and mind start wandering... "what the hell kind of clothes are these people wearing?" Okay, I get that it was filmed in the 80s. Did we really dress THAT BAD? hideous

On Broadway comes, I am noticing that the movements and songs are getting progressively faster.. he's no Jane Fonda and doesn't explain what he's doing, you just better hope like hell you can keep up and learn the steps..He incorporates this move that I found oddly fun "Sizzle Fingers" yes you heard that right "Sizzle Fingers" It's sick itself that I enjoyed them.

It's my party comes on, I am really just busting my butt getting into it, when all of the sudden what appears? This woman wearing bright orange whos boobs were totally out of control. Someone needed to stop those suckers. Man they were wild. I have never seen a pair of boobs that out of control in my life. Did they not have sports bras back then? Those boobs were a menace to a decent society.

Peggy Sue comes on, they moved swirvy boobs to the back and in her place comes a smiley boy. He's just happy. We start doing some leg moves and I notice that Richards legs are so nice. He wears those really, really short pants and my brain wanders to "Where's his wing wing at" I mean normal people it would flop out, how does he keep his under control and he really needs to share his tips with Wild Boob Hancock.

Okay, Great Balls of Fire comes on and I am ponying to the left and hit my hip on Anthonys bed... Instead of yelping in pain I start doing sizzle fingers!! Ahhhhh they work!! Anthony knocks on the door, "Mom, what are you doing in there" I reply "Sizzle fingers boy, let me be" Then the dogs start scratching and sniffing under the door. They must sense the fun in the sizzle fingers!

Wipe out comes on and I start feeling an odd tingling sensation in my rear. I can barely keep up, although I am at this point sweating... I have gotten over Jiggly boobs and quit wondering where his weenie is and focusing on exercising and sizzle fingers. I put them into places in the songs they dont belong. They are FUN!

Just when things can't get any worse, He's a Rebel comes on and I hear a motorcycle, a guy who looks exactly like the dead guy on Weekend at Bernies pulls up and drops a chick off to sing. Even sizzle fingers don't make sense of that weirdness in an exercise video.

Personality comes on and I notice we are getting slower, I look around for Wild boob lady and she has disappeared.. Im thinking she must've hit herself in the eye with her breast and had to be carried off by the dead Weekend at Bernies guy... Hmm where did she go? Looking for her was like looking for Waldo, I looked all over but never saw her through that whole song.

Aint no mountain high enough wraps up our "date" Richard on the floor stretching his legs... I slowly start to realize that I need to "Sizzle Finger" My way into a straight jacket quickly and get help.

I opened up the door to exit the room, both dogs laying on floor at door ears perked up and both head cocked looking at me! Hmph!

I sure wish warm weather would come back because nothing beats walking.

Sigh, skinny people don't know how lucky they are.

Happy Monday!
The sun is shining!!
Life is good
Orange boobies wildly swinging are bad!
Love
Di

Sunday

I am so glad everyone goes back to school and work tomorrow and I get some peace and quiet. Woot! Been a long holiday!
Today was okay I guess. Got a ton of cleaning done, got the tree up and decorated. I didn't even get out a fourth of my Christmas decorations this year.... Not excited about it, don't care about it this year, just want it GONE.
Yes, I am a grinch.
My migraine still there a bit.... Along with it my stomach is hurting.
I have been going to bed really early, getting lots of sleep. Just haven't full recovered from that stupid cold I guess. I'm gonna live in a bubble I think. Safer that way.
Hmm, nothing else really going on. Just a quiet rainy Sunday evening. I didn't get to walk today... I didn't really want to my ankle is bothering me. Although I got the cleaning done and quite a bit so I guess that counts!
Happy Sunday
Life is good
Love
Dianna

I know it's been awhile

Been busy, been hectic. I think I wrote about my ankle swelling... went to the Immediate Care Center Wed. Night, had a stress fracture in it. Told me to stay off of it, but I haven't have been walking anyways. Not on the treadmill but around the neighborhood.

I'm very tired and very, very stressed. I have had kids non stop at my house since Wednesday night. We aren't talking one kid... This is what my house has looked like since Wednesday, take out tyler and Juans girlfriend who come in and out


Add my 2 dogs who off the excitement do this play fighting thing non stop... today I have a migraine UGH

I have no door on my bedroom. Juan is mad cause I said no on Jordan coming over. He gives me 20 kinds of grief... I think I have been more than kind to allow these boys over every day and they have also stayed all night. It's been 4 days... why aren't the other parents having them all over?

I haven't felt real well today, I Have a migraine. The noise.. the boys were constantly nagging me for haircuts, so I went and walked 2 miles then came back and cut their hair.....

I had a hard day yesterday. I spent alot of the day crying, just feeling like I am burden to everyone and that I'm not worth anything. The side effect of words. So, I go to moms, spend some time over there, clear my head.....

Today, Kyle and I were sitting down talking. The subject of Elmer comes up. Some of you may know of Elmer, some of you may not know of Elmer... Anyways... I had been talking on the phone with Elmer or something I dunno and Kyle said something about "I'm not stupid I have eyes and ears that still work" Okay.... So your eyes and ears still work... I haven't hidden anything. Elmer does not live in KY and I have never met him... So, I dunno what the deal was but Kyle said something to the effect of "Poor Elmer has to put up with you and doesn't even get any"
I was crushed. Absolutely crushed. Talk about insensitive comments... Then something was said about hunting and Elmer is away hunting and then Kyle said "Aw you gonna make him give up his hobbies too" I didn't realize I ever made Kyle give up any of his hobbies...That baffles the living crap out of me. So then he said "Poor Elmer, tell him to call me and we will compare notes"

I put my Ipod on and went out to cry.
I already feel awful about myself... I have been trying to pick myself up. I already feel like a lousy piece of crap and I haven't even done anything wrong. I don't think not loving someone justifies the hurtful comments. I was with kyle for 12 years and only Kyle. It's not like I was some lot lizard traveling around and around...comments that were so unwarranted and certainly not deserved.

I asked him what he wanted to know about Elmer, instead of just taking wild guesses about what he thought was going on...People always think they know everything. I didn't even know Elmer 2 years ago when all the divorce talk started.. I didn't even know Elmer a year ago when things got really bad... I didn't even know Elmer 6 mos ago when our house was hell on earth...

I absolutely am hating having to explain my actions and things I do to a man I am no longer married too. We should not even be living in the same house but for circumstances which are out of both our control we have to for awhile longer. It makes it tougher all around. Im tired of explaining myself period, seems people already have it in their head what they want to believe or what they think they know... so why bother. Like I said, I always feel like I am a burden to everyone all the time. Words hurt people.

So, on the way to moms yesterday, some trucker was driving like a maniac and I had to swerve from being hit .... Then out of no where, the thought pops into my head that "well, if i got killed that would probably be a big relief for alot of people" Why would I even think such a thought? I don't know where it came from at all, but it bugged me.

Then today.... I realize where it comes from. Words have beaten me down.

It's tiring trying to climb up after being knocked down repeatedly and repeatedly.... Good thing now I have help up that mountain, because I would've just fallen.

Onto a brighter note, I took some pics of Savannah at Thanksgiving and thought I would share



Happy Saturday
The sun is shining....still
love
Dianna

Wednesday

Hi, happy Wednesday. =) prayers still for Melody of Melzies Monologue.. her son Jordan is very sick, but today was moved out of ICU. He's having some memory loss, but is improving. So YAY!! Keep saying prayers for him. Melody is the most amazing woman I have ever in my life met. Caring, compassionate and whatever comes her way, she triumphs. I wish she lived closer. I still remember the first time I met her, we had such a great time and as her and Danny were getting in the van, we were all waving. I started crying and looked at her and she was in the van crying too. I love her. She will be in my life for ever. When I or her win the lottery we are going to go invade Amish country get our quilts and a winnebago and travel the US...
One day Melody Little, we will go on our trip. One day.

Hmm... Well, last night, my ankle started swelling up.. I did nothing to it other than switch from the street walking to the treadmill.. this morning it was still swollen. I got up and cleaned the house from top to bottom through a horrendous stomach ache. GAG. Then still swollen. Hung curtains in Juans room, mopped floors. Took a puter break, went out and walked a mile on the street. Still swollen. Hmmm..

Kids are all home for Thanksgiving break. Juans at Chriss. His friends have been staying more here. Since there's not anymore tension between Kyle and I, it's an easier time to have people over. God, I remember one day Anthony had his friend Joey over and we were going at it and UGH i bet Anthony was so embarrassed. So, it's nice now all that tension is gone. All his friends call me mom and say Love ya!! so it's cute!

Umm.......... today got my divorce dissolution.. So we are no longer married. That's really all there is to report.
Life is really, really good.
I can't complain.
The sun is shining.
Happy Wednesday and Enjoy your Thanksgiving.
Remember to say prayers for Jordan
Love,
Dianna

Happy Monday

Owoooooo! Happy Monday!! It's raining out... Yesterday was a nice day so I walked around my hood! YAY! This morning I woke up to rain and cold and thought mall/treadmill.. Treadmill won! I usually avoid the treadmill because after I get off of it and my dizziness problems... usually throws me into a tail spin of anxiety. But got on... Alternated jogging for 5 min, walking for 5 min... did it on an incline. Man, I feel pull and tightness in muscles I didn't when walking around the blocks or in the mall. I feel good. Did it for an hour! So YAY!! I did have some anxiety after I got off, but once I got the feeling off, Im settling down. It feels so good to work out, If I don't do it, I find myself not being able to get it out of my head. My clothes are falling off. =) I'm loving it and its coming off slowly, but I didn't put it on overnight, so it's not gonna come off overnight.
Even though it's raining. The sun is shining.
Life is good
Very good.
Happy Monday!
Love,
Di

Confessions of a first time mall walker

Okay, I tried to walk the hood yesterday afternoon, but it was freezing and snow. It didn't work out. I devised a plan... I'll wake up in the morning, get Savannah off to school and go......... MALL WALKING insert flashing lights and cool sound effects in there when saying that.

.... I get to the mall.... I had no flipping clue mall walking was a cult of sorts for senior citizens. It was worse than Krogers on Wednesdays. I felt so out of place. Had my purse, my green tea, my ipod....

I merge into the oncomming traffic... there were so many people in matching pants and jackets, I started checking them all for sponsor patches. I expected to see Metamucil sponsors or oat bran... but nothing. I didn't know how the mall walking worked. The confusion on my face must've been obvious because a lil lady walked past me, very quickly I might add, then turned and came back to me...

"Are you new here" she says... "Aye!" I say... So she gives me the low down on how many times is a mile and every nook, every cranny. Told me I was going to burn up in my clothing, my shoes were the wrong kind for that floor and that she had a cherry tomato hemorrhoid on her rear end, so she's doing all the walking she can before the removal of her bodily fruit. "Alma" seems to have a ton of friends around here, they are all talking to her in some 'wall malking' code LOL and she's fast......after she fills me in she takes off.

Was like a Derby.. This lil man on a walker leaves me in his dust and catches up to Alma and her cronies... I wish I had my camera.. It was so packed... I get behind this one lady and her hubby I guess, I couldn't pass them at my pace, but OMG she kept passing SBD farts... I was in her wind and omg I don't know what was wrong with her, but omg.... I would pass her and then she would pass me and pass gas at the same time... I have a very easy gag reflex and started gagging and trying not to throw up... So they all turn to go down a corridor, I don't go down the corridor to avoid the stink bombs... Alma pokes her head out behind a Trout of Northern America Calendar and tells me that I need to do the corridors... How do I say.. Um Alma.. the lady keeps passing gas... So the lady catches back up.. Alma pats her on the back and says "Petunia, good to see you" ..... Okay is it a joke that fart lady is named petunia or is her name really Petunia? I break away from Alma and Petunia and move a lil faster....

2nd time around, Alma was right my feet are killing me... I open my phone to check the time... Here comes Alma... "You need one of these " She says pointing to the gadget on her arm with a clock, radio, blood pressure and who knows pill dispenser... I was not amused...
On the 2nd time around I slowly started feeling the urge to go to the bathroom... OMG I was following these people developing their habits... I saw the food court up ahead.. All the men gathered at a table, one chair empty.. All of them right in front of Victoria Secrets probably oogling over the panties in the window. All of us walkers are heading the same direction ... to the bathroom. My Gosh, I have old people bladder... Wait in line, toilets flush.. round 3 begins.

I was burning up hot, Alma was right... She comes past me again, "you need to leave your purse in the car" Under my breath I whisper "Shut up Alma, you have a mater' growing on your ass " My feet were killing me... Alma mater' ass was right. Then low and behold behind the same trout of Northern America Calendar comes Petunia... She is in front of me... this time lets loose an audible fart... I thought I was going to vomit on myself. I eventually make it past and then get closer to the food court and OMG I have to pee again.... The same group of ladies and mens all head for the restroom again. It is for certain, I now have old people bladder.

So I come out of the bathroom, the mens all still oogling at the VS pannies... one chair still open... All this place lacks is bingo balls and a caller... I head out for another lap, no petunia, no alma... Ahhh.. Quiet walk. I spot Santa off in the distance...I say good morning to him as he is preparing to sit in his chair for the day. He says "Ya mall walking?" I say "indeed" He says "I never mess with em" Evidentally he's met Alma and Petunia..

So I enjoy my last lap, come to the food court to close out my mall walking trip... the same group of men... In the empty spot ALMA... She is the mall walking cult leader. Kinda like the Hale bop of the mall.. I did not want any of their kool aid. My bladder full again.. I run to the restroom again..... then decide to leave before I develop menopause....

I hate cold weather... I miss my hood walking. Not sure if I will go back for more mall walking. May have to go at a different time.

Happy Friday.
Good luck having the mater' cut off your rear Alma...
Petunia... See a Dr about whatever died in your rear.
Life is good..
The Sun is Shining
Love,
Di

Wednesday

Howdy!! not much happening. Been colllllld out. Couldn't walk yesterday with the chest cold and all so I did dancing with the stars DvD.. Hmm is all i can say about that. My treadmill is down in Kyles room and won't fit in mine so argh!!! Today was warm enough to walk, so I donned my walking shoes once again and off I went. Did almost 2 miles, but got to where I was coughing so bad I called it quits. It's totally amazing how after that becomes a habit you really feel guilt and stuff when you don't do it. Yesterday it was on my mind all day over and over like I gotta do it I gotta do it. 21 days i think they say to form a habit! Argh!
Um.... getting ready to shower I suppose and the kids will be home from school soon. Savannah wanted her hair curly again. Boy thats rough business getting a formal hair do at 7 am every morning. I think I'm going to buy her some cool new barettes or something. Um... lets see..... Puffs with lotion ROCK.
Life is good
The sun is shining indeed
Love,
Di

An addition to Tuesday

Have to share something with you guys that I LOVE LOVEEEEEE. As you guys know Melzie, I have talked about Melzie a ton, I met her on line when we were pregnant with our babies and have actually met in person a few times.
We both members of a Yahoo group called Freecycle, basically its area based and people give away stuff they don't need and stuff stays out of the landfills. I have given so much stuff away on there, that I would otherwise thrown in the trash.... Anywhoo... Well, me and Mel have kinda "bonded" over peoples spelling and grammer errors. Us being the Scrabble champions we are... well... Some of it is hysterical. So now its just a game to us and we fwd the bad spelling ones and make stories up about them. It started with a lady offering up some Ciggrate (cigarette) coupons and some Goonites (good nites) then gosh it turned into so much stuff and we always incorporate our ciggrates and goonites into it... Like a couple days ago someone was in need of a Waher (washer) she did not know it was spelled with an S because she mispelled it through the whole email. today it was some Free Dented can Reed kidney beans. So I send her an email telling her I will need a waher to wash my goonites cause Im gonna eets me some reed kidney beans... There have been Overhauls left on the front porshe... Anyways, I stay subscribed to Freecycle now just for the spelling....
Had to share because I look forward every day to people misspelling so me n mel have something to email about.
Off to smoke some more Ciggrates, put my goonites on and eet my reed beans. Then I'll have some more dirty goonites for my waher. It will be okay cause I got some overhauls off a front porshe.
Happy Day.
Watch your spelling, you could end up on our list.
Love
di

Tuesday =)

Feeling a weensy bit better. Gonna clean today I suppose. Got up and Savannah decided she wanted curly curls... Well... lets just say I spent an hour this morning curling each lil curly curl. She wore her Little House on the Prarie dress as she called it. She usually likes to be Mary, but today she wanted to be evil Nelly... So Nelly it is. She looked adorable.
I have already been to the grocery and starting on my/Savannahs bedroom. It was already clean, but Im tidying up more.
Juan got suspended from school. A boy started a food fight with him, threw chili all down his back... Juan got very mad, threw broccoli cheest at the boy, the the boy hit him in the face with something. If you know Juan, you don't throw or touch the kids face... Well, Juan pushed him... The one boy got suspended for 5 days, Juan for 3. I'm not too happy about it and going to make him a very long chore list to keep his school hours busy.
Happy Day.
Life is good
Dianna Lynne

Sunday....

Still sick. Yes, that's right. Yesterday I reached my frustration point with this flu. I can't quit coughing, my voice is GONE GONE GONE. Grrrrr. Over a week I have had it, anytime it can leave now and it will NOT hurt my feelings. Just moved my puter up to my room. The boys puter desk was about to crash to the floor, so I gave them my desk so now they can sit in the living room and watch TV and compute.
Yesterday was my baby boys birthday 14 years old. YAY! =) We went to moms for a very small party. Him and his friend Patrick stayed all night there. I came home laid in bed and was out ouf it. I don't even remember much of yesterday. Coughing, I remember that.
Happy Sunday.
Love to all.
If any of you want this flu, I will share.
Di =)

We Wed Wednesday

Still sick, grumble grumble. This morning every time I swallowed felt like golf balls were in my throat.... Had to go back downtown to court. Circled downtown for 30 min having to pee, looking for parking. Parked illegally walked 6 city blocks to go to the court house and ran to the restroom. I liked to never of made it. That was rough, I tell you what.
Finished all my papers, turned in my certification for the classes.... Was about to put them in the F 8 box when the clerk was coming to pick up that box and take them to the judge and they took my lil papers with them.
So, I'm officially done doing stuff. Karen said she did hers in same time frame and hers was finalized on Dec. 11, so we shall see. Either way it's done.
WoW has been down for 2 days. I have been so bored. Walked a lot, cleaned alot and been sick alot. Guess Ill go find something to do.... not many options with the rainy yuck weather. May be a movie day.
Happy Wednesday.
Life is good.
Love,
Di

Howdy on a Tuesday

Hmm not much goin on today high lighted my hair, well had someone do it for me I should say. Man it's amazing a lift you get from doing something small. That took a couple few hours, came home ate lunch then went on a LOONG LOONG walk in the freezing cold drizzle. Brrrr. Only did 2 miles abouts today. With my cold, I didn't really feel like being out in the muck.
Tried to go to the court house to finish up my divorce stuffs..... Well, it's veterans day.. They are closed.
Happy Veterans day
Happy Tuesday
Life is wonderful.
The sun is indeed shining
love,
Di

Tis Monday

Im sleepy...zzz this cold doesnt seem to be improving, just moving to different areas. My throat is wicked sore and my voice is going. Sigh.
The divorce class went great. Got my stuffs, turning it into the courts tomorrow.
Yesterday went to moms, then to my aunt sues, then Savannah wanted to go to the mall. Juan wanted to meet his girlie friend there and his friend Patrick had stayed all night.... So me and Savannah covered the whole mall, she's a true blue shopper. Ooof!! Juan, Patrick and his girlfriend I guess walked around and did their teen thing. Anthony didn't want to go.. I can't get him out of his PJs lately. He pretty much does nothing but guitar hero. I recognize it, depression. Been there, done that. So gotta work on trying to get him out of his funk.
After the mall, I came home, Kyle took Savannah out and I played WoW and then crashed. Was a long day.
Today I woke up, have cleaned some, went and walked for over an hour. Getting ready to shower. The kids will be home soon and need to plan some supper.
life is good.
Happy Day
di

Have had

Savannahs cold/flu..whatever it was. started with stomach stuff, then nose, throat, fever... yesterday I laid in bed alot. Have to go to that class this morning. I don't want to. It being court ordered, I have no choice. My head is killing me. I'm tired. Wahh.
I just want this cold gone gone gone. Whoa, whoa, whoa.
Happy Day
Love
di

Thursday

This week has flown by. Went to post office this morning and shopped at Walmart for awhile. Washing all my bed covers. Mopped the floors. Ate lunch. Going to go out walking. It's a nice day and fixin to turn very cold. Enjoying it while it lasts. I'm over yesterday. I can't deal with everything I have on plate and then worry about what people are saying about me or thinking about me. I know what happened, Kyle knows what happened. I don't really care anymore.
Happy Thursday
Life is Good
Di

How do rumors get started?

Okay, I wasn't going to blog about this at all, because frankly it's no ones business but my own and Kyles... But seems rumors are getting out of control. I'm not sure who started them, but I am putting them to an end right now.

I NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER EVER had an affair on Kyle, I was extremely loyal to him for the 12 years we have been together. Even in the last 2 when we have had the worst ride of our lives, I never talked to, nor slept with anyone. Not even Kyle...

If you hear something.... Think of the source... Think of what context things are heard in.. Think would Dianna really do that? I went without intimacy,kissing.. you name it... for almost 2 years and NEVER EVER EVER even considered an affair.

I wll not go on a date, actual date like going out and doing whatever it is you do on dates, until my divorce is final.

Our marriage was always filled with alot of stress and alot of arguing. On both ends it got to where too many bridges had been burned and our children were being severely affected by the arguing.

If I am talking to someone now.... that is totally within my rights to do so. I will not meet, nor be with anyone intimately or otherwise.... ANYONE..... until my divorce is final and have prided myself on doing so and really worked hard at maintaining my reputation. Seems its always assumed that someone just had an affair, but sometimes things just dont work out. Its not always the womans fault... in this case things just didn't work and too much aruging. No adultry.. No affairs. I have heard it from more than one source (a few actually) and I am absolutely disgusted that anyone would think such a thing.

Grumble Grumble......

I haven't left the house in over a year, and it burns me up that anyone would think that. I Have laid in bed and cried night and day for over a year at my unhappiness and again for anyone to even think such a thing. Makes me ill.

Grumble Grumble......

Happy Wednesday

Been busy this morning. zzzzzzzz. I have Savannahs cold and it's messin with my nose. Achoo. O.o
Savannah went back to school today as did the boys. She's feeling alot better, but still got a wicked bad cough.
Went to a lil Dollar store this morning... then to Kroger for some groceries. Then to best buy to pre order WoW.. they were out, then went to Game stop, then to Target.. I'm home, trying to decide whether or not to clean again and do laundry or sit on my butt.... I could always shower.
Happy Day.
Life is good.
Di

Been busy today

Putting away summer clothes, packing up stuff I know won't be used until after I move. I got up at 8:15 and haven't stopped since. Cleaning out Savannahs dresser and closet, getting her winter clothes out. She's feeling better today, but anytime she gets up and moves around, she gets a horrendous cough. Yesterday, since Daylight savings time, it got dark early. I couldn't walk early because I was with Savannah and the boys were gone, so when Kyle got home I went out to walk. Johnny came by and I came in and talked to him for a bit then went back out walking in the dark. It was kinda nice walking at night. Gave everything a bit more interest. Seeing the houses I pass routinely at night, seeing the moon instead of the sun. I think I'll go back again at night. Was a very nice switch.
Life is good.
Love,
Di

Melzie tagged me

Top 7 websites I go to... Hmmm

One is my email Nannabird@aol.com....... Im always checking me mail.
www.worldsofwarcraft.com Of course i gotta play my WoW
Melodys Blogger
Google
Itunes
This Blogger
Um... 1 900 spank ME LOL jk... i dunno I guess hmmm my photo blog

Not sure if I like

this Daylight Savings Time business. It's almost 5 and about dark. Savannah was sick all last night and sick today. I took her to the Dr. Ears infected, sinus infection, respiratory infection.... She has ran a fever all last night all this morning and all this afternoon. We came home from Dr. and crashed and burned. She woke up for a bit then crawled in bed with me and we slept some more. I hate when she's sick. :( Nothing else going on.
Happy Day
Love,
di

Saturday

The totally cutest witch ever


This is Savannah on Halloween. I told her to make a real scary face LOL. She's too cute to be scary. Getting ready to go to those divorce classes. 3 hrs this saturday and 3 hrs next saturday... then Kyle has to go 3 different nights with Savannah. Poor Savannah gonna get 12 hrs of classes. Then that goes to the judge and divorce can be granted.
Not much else happening. Just hanging out, walking, sleeping, dogs barking.
Have a Happy Saturday.
Love,
Di

Toofs (or lack thereof)

She is soooooooooooo stinking cute with no teeth. I almost wish she could stay like that. Makes my heart skip a beat everytime she smiles at me.

Happy Sunday

Hi. Happy Sunday. Today has been okay I guess. Very long. I'm very tired. Yesterday the tooth I went to the dentist for broke. Imagine that.... So I call them, they tell me they can fix it tomorrow. Oookk..
Anyways.
Happy Sunday
Love,
Di

Happy Thursday

Awww Tooth relief. Went to the dentist. I had too...... I had very bad infection and had to have a root canal blah blah blah. This one went so easy, I dont know if it was because i was in so much pain or other reasons. I wasn't even scared. Went to bed very early, got all rested. Taking enough antibiotics to kill a small horse, but hey!! I feel better. Things are going okay lately. Yesterday first day in over a month I did not exercise, I feel so much guilt gonna double time it today. Gonna do 2 miles this morning then try for 3 this evening.
Happy Tuesday
Sarah I sent you an email darlin but not sure if i Had the right addy. I wanna talk to you. Love you much.

Happy Day
Love
dianna

If I live to be 101

I will never forget what was done for me this morning. Ranks up there pretty close with the nicest. Definitley ranks top as the sweetest. Simply amazing.
Thank you.
Love =)
Di
And Yonkerbelle


Why are there so many songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,
And rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some choose to believe it
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers and me.


Who said that every wish would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that, and someone believed it,
And look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us stargazing
And what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.


All of us under its spell,
We know that it's probably magic...


... Have you been half asleep? And have you heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name.
... Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors?
The voice might be one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
It's something that I'm s'posed to be...
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.


Laa, da daa dee da daa daa,
La laa la la laa dee daa doo...

Been

Up all night with a toothache. It hurts so bad I can't even focus.
I'm sad.
Love
di

Tuesday!

Sleepy this morning. Savannahs back to school. YAY! No more fever or sicks. I kinda got a bit of her cold, but not too bad. Just enough to be annoying at times. Going to clean all morning. I need to get some boxes to start packing up some of my belongings. As much as I have moved in my life, I should be used to it. I am very tired of moving. Lets see if I can recount all my addys....
Tallow Lane
E. Washington street the 808 one
E. Washington street the 1401 one
Rochester Drive
McKinley Drive
Taylor Blvd
E. Kentucky Street
Ft. Knox
San Antonio, Thousand Oaks
E. Kentucky Street again LOL I see a pattern developing
Ft. Belvoir VA Meeres Road
Back to Ky I think this time on Emil Ave.
Center for Women and Families
S. 6th street
Washington park the first one
Washington park the second one
Mackie Lane
Sam Drive
Invicta Ave
Current.

I think that may be all of them. Now one more to add to the list.
Okay, I gotta go clean. Just trying to update more frequently because I get alot of emails wondering if I'm okay. Good days and bad days as so it goes with anger.
Today is a good day.
Happy tuesday.
Love,
Nanners