Monday, January 05, 2009

its just

one of those days where nothing is right. i'm tired.
i'm angry. i have such a mess to clean up in my life and i dont know where to start.
i am doing it, but it's still hard.
i have so much anger towards kyle for the stuff he has done over the past few weeks and even beyond.
i think i need to go to the dr for meds.
im tired of head games men, not men, um boys play.
i don't have the time nor energy for head games.
i refuse to play, i just walk away quietly and let it go.
so watch carefully how you play them.
you may not always win.
life is good


Mindy said...

Meds may definitely be an option. When I was living with my mom, I would pop a xanax in the morning, and found I could tolerate her a lot more patiently than I could when I didn't have a pill. Without the pill, I wanted to tear her head off most of the time...

Playground In My Mind said...

Your post really touched my heart. I have lived this post before. Take care of Y O U. Self nuturing is so important. Once I moved on from a destructive relationship, it got easier to control my panic and anxiety. I still struggle with it, but I have a really good man at my side now. It is out there; you just have to believe that you DESERVE it. you do. You really, really do. I am near if you need to talk. I made it okay. You will too. Promise. xo Renee