Wednesday, November 28, 2012

My Mind

Yesterday I went to the Dr. Sinus infection, possible strep, congested lungs......I didn't feel good then, I didn't feel good today.

I'm tired and I slept til noon and even had a hard time getting out of bed then. My throat feels like I swallowed razor blades and my mind won't let me sit...

A typical day in my mind and the actions that follow.......

Oh crap I slept late, I have to take my ulcer medicine 1 hour before I eat, 4 hours before my iron, 2 hours before my antibiotics.........I need to write this crap down.

I have a headache, did I take Tylenol when taking my arsenal of meds?

Crap, my head still hurts did I take it? Crap. Crap. Crap.

Savannah's coming over tonight I need to change her sheets and clean her room.

God my throat hurts.

If I don't get this laundry done, it will pile up and there's no where to put it.

Crap, did I put the wrong things in the recycle bin, it's cold out, I need to go check the recycle bin.

It's Wednesday, did I remember to put the trash out last night?

I need to go in the living room and look at the floor for things Opie can trip over and things Troy can put in his mouth.

Crap, I hope I picked everything up.

Damn, dogs need to go out. Okay.......You forgot to close the dryer door, hurry and get the dogs out and finish.....

Frick Opie fell down the stairs, I knew I shouldn't of been rushing the dogs.

Is he okay? Will he be okay? Crap.

Crap, I forgot to turn the washer on when I closed the dryer door.

I want a smoothie, but that means I'll have to wash the dishes. Well, maybe I can leave the dishes just this once.

This smoothie is helping me throat, but I can't sit here and enjoy it because I left the blender in my sink.

Ugh, that blender is in my sink and I'm about to cry because I don't want to wash it.

Phew I feel better now that the blender is washed, but now my smoothie has melted and needs to go in the freezer.

Crap, the dogs are out of food and water again, I need to fill their bowl .

My throat hurts, I wonder if I took Tylenol already?

Okay, dogs are fed, what was I doing?

Oh yea the Christmas tree needs to be watered.

Crap, I never put my smoothie in the freezer.


I need to dust Savannahs room so her allergies don't act up.

Can someone help me rearrange Savannahs room because I can't lift this stuff?

Okay let me do it my self.

Crap, my back hurts. Did I take tylenol?

It's time to eat, I need to count my points and take my iron, but wait........I can't take it with my antibiotics and I have to wait 2 hours before and after.......Screw it, I'm taking it anyways.

I'm taking Tylenol too, if I'm gonna die from taking iron and antibiotics might as well take the Tylenol and go down with a sore throat.

Did I eat lunch?

My mouth still tastes like smoothie, so maybe I didn't eat.

Did I feed the dogs?




I need a shower.


My mind wears me out.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012


This is a video going around Facebook and I tell you what, it made me bawl like a baby.

My heart filled up with an absolute love for my Savior. I can't even put into words how much I love Jesus.

I love the fact that I now understand what Christmas carols mean, it brings tears to my eyes to think of Jesus coming to this earth.

I love Christmas.

I love Jesus.

I love God.



Thursday, November 22, 2012

I am thankful for God

I am thankful so much to God. No matter how badly I behave, He gives me gifts all the time.

I am blown away at times at His kindness towards me, no matter how badly I behave. I am far off my path from where I was in my walk with Him, but He never ceases to amaze me with His amazing love for me.

I am so very thankful that He chose me, I am very thankful that He had endless amounts of love for me and shows me grace that goes above and beyond what I could ever ask for.

I'm thankful for everything in my life, but none of that would be possible without Him.

Gives me strength I never knew I had, leads me in the right way, nudges me to look deeper into myself and see my worth.

Shows me I deserve everything and it is attainable through Him.

He makes my heart full, He makes my mouth smile..........

He is awesome.

He is my Father.

Have a great Thanksgiving.



Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Well, it's been awhile

My friend Melzie made the kindest post on my wall about missing my blogs and has been giving me a gentle nudge to post.

I have sat down a few times to post, but I just can't bring myself to do it. I'm trying today and on a day when my heart is so broken all I can write is .....

Love rejoices with the truth.

She'd trade Colorado if he'd take her with him
Closes the door before the winter lets the cold in,
And wonders if her love is strong enough to make him stay,
She's answered by the tail lights
Shining through the window pane

He said I wanna see you again
But I'm stuck in colder weather
Maybe tomorrow will be better

Can I call you then

She said you're ramblin' man
You ain't ever gonna change
You gotta gypsy soul to blame
And you were born for leavin'

Happy Thanksgiving.