Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Haven't bloggedy Blogged in awhile

Thought I would pop in to blog!
Not much going on. The boys were gone Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday.
You know, the more time goes on, I see that things truly work out the way they are supposed too.
It made me sad that Anthonys Grandma didn't see him, but once or twice a year. This bugged me for years, but today, when they got home, I realized.... That it's for the best.
My son Anthony realized this today too, just took him getting older. He sat at the table and looked sadly disappointed. To me almost in tears. He said he tried to talk to papaw D. and everything he would bring up, papaw would say he hated it and that it was stupid. Papaw D, hated every person that came into their store, got into a fight with Budget, flicked a cigarette butt onto someone. I also learned he carries a gun in his pocket in case he needs it.
My kids came home and I had no idea how bad things were. I had no clue he was that Sick for lack of a better word.
Anthony loves movies and loves to talk about them and everything he said was shot down by someone when he was little he looked up to him.
Anthony was promised some money, which is long gone, Grandma buck said "brett wanted them to have it more than him" To tell a teenager this, bad move.
They told him all these lies, Oh Gosh, unspeakable lies about people he loves. They both know they are lies, but to try to tell my son otherwise. Sigh.
He's very sad, Juan seems kinda scared. They were going to pay them to work. They had my littlest son mow a huge field and part of a ditch on monday, then tuesday they worked hard again and then today they had them out in the sun spray painting 150 chairs. They did all that work, hard hard work and they were gonna give them 40 bucks a piece. Papaw D said oh they at least deserve 50 a piece.
I think they shouldve at least given them 100 bucks a piece. They worked their butts off doing everything the other people didn't want to do for squat.
The boys saw 2 things that really scared them this week 2 plus the gun @@
they saw Papaw D take a big thing of Gatorade and throw it to hit their puppy cause he was barking and then they saw him pick up a hammer and throw it so hard he cracked the concrete.
What a nice guy. not to mention all the yelling he did at customers. Talk about someone needing anger management. My boys will no longer be allowed over there.
It's too bad cause Grandma S really isn't that bad. I feel bad for her.
The Good Lord took Brett for a reason, I believe that wholeheartedly.
He's better off where he is :(

Saturday, June 24, 2006


It's saturday and we are still watching Matilda. It's the 5th or 6th time now. I guess since so much rain, theres nothing else to do LOL
But ohhhhhhhhhh My!!
Had a very rough evening with Juan. ACK
it's like my kids take turns.
I felt bad for Juan last night, nothing was working and noting made him feel any better.
He told me inside his chest hurt and I said like pain hurt and he said no it hurts. I asked him "do you miss your dad" and he start sobbing uncontrollably.
I don't know how to rectify that situation. I can't make his dad talk to him.
I let him send letters to where ever i thought he was, there are never any replies and he knows this. Just one phone call. Just one. Juans whole fit wasn't over his dad, he was in a mood all day. But I'm sure that the rejection of that, when he feels so bad already amplifies it.
It lasted about 2 hrs and then after a good hearty cry was over.
Thats the first fit in over 2 years. I don't know if it seemed so bad cause it was bad or if its because it had been so long since one.
He's better this morning, like nothing ever happened.
Praise God. I'm gonna go take my mother to Kohl's then to pool school i go.
Have a happy Saturday

Friday, June 23, 2006


Me and My daughter today, watched this movie.
She loved it.
After the movie, she was trying to do weird stuff with her eyes and I asked her what the heck she was doing.
She said "using my powers to move stuff"
She also has a red ribbon tied in her hair :)
So sweet!

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Monday, June 19, 2006


I updated my photo blog just now. They are some flowers from our pond
Dianna's Photo Blog

Dragging days

I don't know what is going on, but the days have been dragging on, ever so slowly. Last night i wanted to go to bed so badly, but it was like 7 oclock. Today, slow, slow, slow. Im tired and i Just want to go to sleep and its only 4 oclock.

The kids are hyped up today for some reason. My leg hurts badly still. I didn't even do anything to it.

I walked about a mile today trying to work the kink out but nope still hurts.

Nothing positive to write today LOL
So I am gonna be off! have a terrific Monday!

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Tap, Tap, Tap

As you guys know I feed the birds, squirrels, ducks, chipmunks etc. Well sometimes if the feeder is empty the squirrel will come to the front door and tap on it a lil. I will go out and then fill it up LOL Well, This morning we were all sleeping and I didn't fill up the feeder last night and it was empty this morning. I hear this tap tap tap on my window and I was like what is that, then I hear Tap tap tap again and i was like ????? I open up the blinds and low and behold a squirrel is on his back feet looking at me. He looked at me, looked at the feeder then back at me. I laugh and get kyle up to see and LOL He taps on the window again LOL So i filled up the feeder! How funny is that? He wants food NOW!
Glorified Rats!

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Happy Wednesday Evening!

Feeling alot better than when I last wrote. I talked to my dad. He told me it was because of something kyle supposedly said, I didn't do anything, but breathe. But she can't talk to me cause she views me as a threat. That's okay. She can stay holed up in her house and rot and leave me be :)
I am having residual anxiety from the stress, but oh well.
Live and learn. I Have anxiety on a daily basis. So much so, that I am really considering medication. I have made so many giant steps on my own, but I am stuck now at a plateau, not getting better, not getting worse, just comfortable.
I don't want to be comfortable.
If they could bottle up anxiety and use it on prisoners, it would work like gold.
I was outside all day today with the girls, I have a bad headache from all the sunlight.
I put up a tent in my back yard for them to play in. I packed them a picnic basket and they ate out there and made it their house. They had a really good time.
Savannah is filthy, kyle is giving her a bath. Juan is outside. He stays outside all day long, sun up to sun down. He is getting so tan, i gotta snap some pics of him! Anthony is bored out of his mind. The kids in the neighborhood play too much kid stuff for highschoolers he says LOL
Okay this is long so I'm gonna run and get ready to watch LOST
try to get wrapped up in figuring out what the heck is going on on there!

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Saturday, June 03, 2006

I need a picture or something

The blog is looking boring LOL

Kyle and Mark worked on the yard again today. It's looking so good!!!! I promise to have some pics up soon. I usually take pics of everything, but lately have been slacking.

Kyle took the boys to an arena football game. Took my van without telling me and left me no keys. I wanted to do something with Savannah, but nope. She said "Memaw said we have to do girl stuff" I said "What kind of girl stuff" and she said "cleaning bedrooms and cleaning kitchens, thats girl stuff"

That got a LOL from me!

I have my migraine again :o(

Ready for this one to be over, I want my 3 month stretch of no migraine!

Okay, Have a great evening all! It's almost Christmas in July time!

Thursday, June 01, 2006

It's June 1st

Happy June!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!