Monday, July 17, 2006

Savannahs Prayer

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Since attending Bible school, Savannah has talked about God alot. Today, she wanted to say prayers. We were sitting down to dinner and I said my prayer. I said "Dear God, thank you for this food, Amen"

She said "It's my turn to say prayers now"
I told her to go ahead, her prayer is below :*) she melts my heart

She closed her little eyes and bowed her little head and said...

"Dear God
Thank you for this food
I want to come and visit you, but I want to go to Disneyworld first.
So maybe after I meet Mickey Mouse, then I can come to your house.
That is, if it's not too far away.
Eight men"

That for sure was a video camera moment.

So precious!!!!

:)

Have a wonderful day!

Friday, July 14, 2006

It's Friday

I have been in bed almost the whole day. I never ever do that.
I need the sleep though, I gotta get up early tomorrow for a Jaime-James photo shoot dealio :o) I can't wait!

I just keep thinking all these steps are one step closer to starting my business next year. I need a couple more families for portfolios, so any families in Louisville, want a free photo shoot, gotta buy your own prints, but the shoot is free let me know!!!

I wish i could take pics of my own family! In august I am doing Loiss family and Melodys family so thats a plus!!! YAY!

I'll be sure to share the photos I take tomorrow on my photo blogger. I think it will be later in the day though because I am going swimming at my mommas tomorrow. Get out and get some fresh air and sunshine. Me N Kyle need a break from remodeling this house. Badly. So hubby hub and I will be gone tomorrow!!

Have a great Happy Friday to all and to all a good evening!

Monday, July 10, 2006

This is so funny!

I am still LOLing over it 2 days later LOL
what a goofball
Host makes a fool of himself

Fourth of July is over

and I need new wallpaper for my puter
help me decide

Steve Gonsalves, the Ghost Hunter Hottie, swooooooon
Josh Holloway the Lost Hottie, Swooooooooon
Zach Braff the Scrubs Hottie

So many decisions so little time.
Steve needs more pics, he only has a few so my wallpapers of him are small
Josh oh man, theres pics of him all over.
Zach has a ton of pics too

Or i could just put the next best thing
Dove chocolates :P

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Wild hairs

every once in a while i get a wild hair. This weekend was to change Savannahs room to ladybugs and paint a mural on her wall. The mural looks okay, but I couldn't get a good pic of it, it looks shaky or funky or something. Here is a pic below and the writing is the ladybug Ladybug, fly away home nursery rhyme. I still have to get the curtains put up, finish taking down all the princess stuff and do a few other things, but you can get the general idea
Vannahs room
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Friday, July 07, 2006

I'm home again home again Jiggety Jig

I missed my home and especially missed my bed. I can't wait to crawl in it and curl up and snoooooooooooooooze!

We are painting yet again. Ill be sure to update as soon as we get it finished!!!!

Hope everyone had a safe and happy holiday

I am migrainey this week @@
fun fun

Monday, July 03, 2006

Stayin at my mommas

My mom is on vacation and we are staying at her house. As much as i like my mommas, im home sick. Especially for my bed. we just have grown accustomed to a king sized mattress and moms bed is very very small. I also miss the freezing cold of my house. We are having alot of trouble adjusting.
I went to bed last night at 2 am, i just couldnt sleep, it was hot, opie was crowding me and kyle was snoring. I had to get up at 7 to babysit my cousins baby for today and I was beat.
He wasn't used to us here, so he cried and fussed quite a bit, unless we held him. So i am worn out.
I need to clean up from supper and everything but I just can't. I physically can't move. Im beat.
Kyle got me that brain age game and I play that ALLLLLL the time and play Sodouku ?? on the spelling, but i love it. My brain age is 40 and optimal is 20. I got 20 years to shave off.
Well i guess Im gonna run, have a great 4th of July!

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Haven't bloggedy Blogged in awhile

Thought I would pop in to blog!
Not much going on. The boys were gone Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday.
You know, the more time goes on, I see that things truly work out the way they are supposed too.
It made me sad that Anthonys Grandma didn't see him, but once or twice a year. This bugged me for years, but today, when they got home, I realized.... That it's for the best.
My son Anthony realized this today too, just took him getting older. He sat at the table and looked sadly disappointed. To me almost in tears. He said he tried to talk to papaw D. and everything he would bring up, papaw would say he hated it and that it was stupid. Papaw D, hated every person that came into their store, got into a fight with Budget, flicked a cigarette butt onto someone. I also learned he carries a gun in his pocket in case he needs it.
My kids came home and I had no idea how bad things were. I had no clue he was that Sick for lack of a better word.
Anthony loves movies and loves to talk about them and everything he said was shot down by someone when he was little he looked up to him.
Anthony was promised some money, which is long gone, Grandma buck said "brett wanted them to have it more than him" To tell a teenager this, bad move.
They told him all these lies, Oh Gosh, unspeakable lies about people he loves. They both know they are lies, but to try to tell my son otherwise. Sigh.
He's very sad, Juan seems kinda scared. They were going to pay them to work. They had my littlest son mow a huge field and part of a ditch on monday, then tuesday they worked hard again and then today they had them out in the sun spray painting 150 chairs. They did all that work, hard hard work and they were gonna give them 40 bucks a piece. Papaw D said oh they at least deserve 50 a piece.
I think they shouldve at least given them 100 bucks a piece. They worked their butts off doing everything the other people didn't want to do for squat.
The boys saw 2 things that really scared them this week 2 plus the gun @@
they saw Papaw D take a big thing of Gatorade and throw it to hit their puppy cause he was barking and then they saw him pick up a hammer and throw it so hard he cracked the concrete.
What a nice guy. not to mention all the yelling he did at customers. Talk about someone needing anger management. My boys will no longer be allowed over there.
It's too bad cause Grandma S really isn't that bad. I feel bad for her.
The Good Lord took Brett for a reason, I believe that wholeheartedly.
He's better off where he is :(

Saturday, June 24, 2006

Okay

It's saturday and we are still watching Matilda. It's the 5th or 6th time now. I guess since so much rain, theres nothing else to do LOL
But ohhhhhhhhhh My!!
Had a very rough evening with Juan. ACK
it's like my kids take turns.
I felt bad for Juan last night, nothing was working and noting made him feel any better.
He told me inside his chest hurt and I said like pain hurt and he said no it hurts. I asked him "do you miss your dad" and he start sobbing uncontrollably.
I don't know how to rectify that situation. I can't make his dad talk to him.
I let him send letters to where ever i thought he was, there are never any replies and he knows this. Just one phone call. Just one. Juans whole fit wasn't over his dad, he was in a mood all day. But I'm sure that the rejection of that, when he feels so bad already amplifies it.
It lasted about 2 hrs and then after a good hearty cry was over.
Thats the first fit in over 2 years. I don't know if it seemed so bad cause it was bad or if its because it had been so long since one.
He's better this morning, like nothing ever happened.
Praise God. I'm gonna go take my mother to Kohl's then to pool school i go.
Have a happy Saturday

Friday, June 23, 2006

Matilda

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Me and My daughter today, watched this movie.
She loved it.
After the movie, she was trying to do weird stuff with her eyes and I asked her what the heck she was doing.
She said "using my powers to move stuff"
LOL
She also has a red ribbon tied in her hair :)
So sweet!

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Monday, June 19, 2006

PS

I updated my photo blog just now. They are some flowers from our pond
Dianna's Photo Blog

Dragging days

I don't know what is going on, but the days have been dragging on, ever so slowly. Last night i wanted to go to bed so badly, but it was like 7 oclock. Today, slow, slow, slow. Im tired and i Just want to go to sleep and its only 4 oclock.

The kids are hyped up today for some reason. My leg hurts badly still. I didn't even do anything to it.

I walked about a mile today trying to work the kink out but nope still hurts.

Nothing positive to write today LOL
sorry
So I am gonna be off! have a terrific Monday!

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Tap, Tap, Tap

As you guys know I feed the birds, squirrels, ducks, chipmunks etc. Well sometimes if the feeder is empty the squirrel will come to the front door and tap on it a lil. I will go out and then fill it up LOL Well, This morning we were all sleeping and I didn't fill up the feeder last night and it was empty this morning. I hear this tap tap tap on my window and I was like what is that, then I hear Tap tap tap again and i was like ????? I open up the blinds and low and behold a squirrel is on his back feet looking at me. He looked at me, looked at the feeder then back at me. I laugh and get kyle up to see and LOL He taps on the window again LOL So i filled up the feeder! How funny is that? He wants food NOW!
Glorified Rats!

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Happy Wednesday Evening!

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Feeling alot better than when I last wrote. I talked to my dad. He told me it was because of something kyle supposedly said, I didn't do anything, but breathe. But she can't talk to me cause she views me as a threat. That's okay. She can stay holed up in her house and rot and leave me be :)
I am having residual anxiety from the stress, but oh well.
Live and learn. I Have anxiety on a daily basis. So much so, that I am really considering medication. I have made so many giant steps on my own, but I am stuck now at a plateau, not getting better, not getting worse, just comfortable.
I don't want to be comfortable.
If they could bottle up anxiety and use it on prisoners, it would work like gold.
I was outside all day today with the girls, I have a bad headache from all the sunlight.
I put up a tent in my back yard for them to play in. I packed them a picnic basket and they ate out there and made it their house. They had a really good time.
Savannah is filthy, kyle is giving her a bath. Juan is outside. He stays outside all day long, sun up to sun down. He is getting so tan, i gotta snap some pics of him! Anthony is bored out of his mind. The kids in the neighborhood play too much kid stuff for highschoolers he says LOL
Okay this is long so I'm gonna run and get ready to watch LOST
try to get wrapped up in figuring out what the heck is going on on there!

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Saturday, June 03, 2006

I need a picture or something

The blog is looking boring LOL

Kyle and Mark worked on the yard again today. It's looking so good!!!! I promise to have some pics up soon. I usually take pics of everything, but lately have been slacking.

Kyle took the boys to an arena football game. Took my van without telling me and left me no keys. I wanted to do something with Savannah, but nope. She said "Memaw said we have to do girl stuff" I said "What kind of girl stuff" and she said "cleaning bedrooms and cleaning kitchens, thats girl stuff"

That got a LOL from me!

I have my migraine again :o(

Ready for this one to be over, I want my 3 month stretch of no migraine!

Okay, Have a great evening all! It's almost Christmas in July time!

Thursday, June 01, 2006

It's June 1st

Happy June!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:o)

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

I am pooped out

I cleaned all day yesterday and babysat. Will probably clean all day today, of course theres the babysitting thing.
I am pooped. Nothing new going on. Same crap different day.
Have a happy wednesday. No Lost tonight :(

Monday, May 29, 2006

Pooped out

Man it was a busy weekend. That about sums it all up. Kyle was off on Friday and we went shopping, saturday we went to my aunt sues, I cleaned while kyle ripped up carpet. We were there all day and most of the afternoon. We got home about 8 and both were too tired to move. Sunday, we got up, had to go clean my moms, then we spent the afternoon swimming! the first swim of the year! I Love to swim!
Then grocery shopping and home.
Today, Kyle did yardwork and he ripped the yard next to the side walk and we planted some plants, Mark came over and planted us some plants under our over hang. It looks soooooooooo good out front! We are going to get some solar lights to put in there between each plant up the walk way!
I can't get over how truly good it looks out there!
We are going to work on the pond next. It needs some TLC, Weeds pulled and such. Ill try to post a pic of the front yard tomorrow!
Kyle is so worn out the boys are worn out. They were all out there helping!
It was awesome!
Saturday night, my brother and his girlfriend stayed here and we watched weatherman with Nicholas Cage and thinking about the Camel Toe made me giggle all weekend. I had no freaking clue what a Camel Toe was LOL
Have a great rest of the week!

Thursday, May 25, 2006

My oldest Baby boy

My other baby boy graduating from Middle School. He'll officially be in high school next year

Anthonys graduation

This was the graduation, mom is probably have post traumatic stress disorder looking at the pic LOL It was 87 outside, humid, hot, inside all those people, lots of people with no place to sit and it was sweltering hot. UGHHHHHHHH it was the most disorganized function I have ever attended!

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My Middle Baby Boy

He Graduated from 5th Grade last night, Such a handsome fella!
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

My baby girl

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There's no place like home

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My Eye!

I was walking in Kroger yesterday and something dripped from the ceiling and got me directly in the eye. I didn't think much about it, but today my eye is all red a lil swollen and itchy. What the hell could fall from the ceiling in Kroger?

I looked around for birds and didn't see any. I haven't a clue what got me.

Not much happening, just babysitting as usual.

Last night couldn't sleep, so many anxiety attacks in such a short time. I was glad for morning.

Hope everyone has a happy Wednesday!

Monday, May 22, 2006

How I feel

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This pic sums it all up!!!!!!!!!!! For years and years, I have been hot. HOT, HOT, HOT.... I hated heat. I would flip out and have anxiety attacks when hot. I don't have a clue what happened. I used to turn on my air in February and March. Now, NOPE,I am frozen all the time. I don't know what happened to make me freezing all the time. Last night, Me , Kyle and Savannah were laying in bed, he was hot and sweating and I was frozen.
I went into the grocery store the other day and it was so cold in there it made my lungs hurt and I wanted nothing more than to get out of there.
Being cold is AWFUL. What the hell was I thinking all those years and why all the sudden, do I not like cold anymore?
You would think I had thyroid problems, but I do not.
I dunno whats going on, but it's so cold in my house and warm outside and I have a space heater on at the end of May.
Crazy stuff
Happy Monday :o)
My Hubby's home :c)

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Proud to be

Laundry free :)
I have kept it up for a week straight almost!
Today I did all the linens and bed spreads :)

I love no laundry!

I have been trying to clean the laundry room and unpack some stuff

My stomach has been achey all day. I did the walking away the pounds with weights and I am not sure if I pulled a muscle or if my stomach just hurts.

Either way I feel a lil puny

Okay, have a great Wednesday, its Lost night, AI night and Ghost Hunters night!

Good TV overload :)

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

The ABCs of Me

The ABCs of Me
Accent: A southern accent but Mild one

Booze: Don't Drink

Chore I Hate: Laundry

Dog or Cat: Doggie

Essential Electronics: Air conditioning, Computer, Cell phone

Favorite Cologne: Can't wear it, gives me a headache

Gold or Silver: Gold

Hometown: Bedford: Louisville KY

Insomnia: Nope

Job Title: Stay at home Mom

Kids: Anthony 14, Juan 11 and Savannah 4

Living Arrangements: Married and living with my family

Most Admirable Traits: Creativity

Numbers: 4 6 7 8 11 15 22

Overnight Hospital Stays: 3 for each of my childrens births

Phobias: Too many too list LOL Ill name 3 spiders, death and flying

Quote: What comes around goes around

Religion: Catholic

Siblings: 1 brother

Time I Wake Up: 7:15

Unusual Talent or Skill: Hmmmm Dunno Good at playing tricks i guess

Vegetable I Love: Cauliflower, broccoli, brussel sprouts, cabbage. I love all of them almost

Worst Habit: pulling my hair up, its an anxiety thing for me to not be able to pull my hair up

X-Rays: alot

Yummy Foods I Make: This is better suited for Kyle, but I made good meatloaf

Zodiac Sign:Leo


Now if you read, go do this on your blog LOL

Monday, May 15, 2006

Monday Monday

Today for being Monday wasn't too awfully bad.
I spent the day cleaning up the house.
The kids watched Nanny McPhee (that movie is too freaking cute)

I went back to babysitting today. It went smoothly. I wanted to sleep in though and couldn't. Not really much else to write.

I had a nice mothers day, the kids are behaving and life is as it should be!

Happy Tuesday!

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Happy Mothers Day

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Hope everyone has a nice peaceful Mothers Day!!!

Enjoy!

Friday, May 12, 2006

Friday!

Finally, it's Friday! Puts a cap on a long week!

I've been doing laundry and getting it put away :)
Trying to Tidy up!

I think we may start painting the Laundry room really soon, so I am trying to get alot of that stuff outta there!

Anyone know if you can have your electricity updated to handle more? I guess I need to get an electrician out here to give me some estimates on some work i wanna have done!

Tomorrow we have a birthday party. UGH At Chuck E. Cheese, bigger UGH, paying money to get into some place 2 of us can't eat. Oh well!

Have a great weekend all!

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Thursday

The week is rapidly coming to a close! Juan had therapy this morning and it took almost all day. The brightness of the outside is makin my head hurt and Its almost the weekend!

Kyle has part 2 interview tomorrow............. Hoping and praying he gets the job. Keeping my fingers crossed!

The other day LOL Anthony sleepwalks and i guess he woke up and was sort of in a sleepwalking state and then woke up. He got up at 12:30 am LOL and ate breakfast, got in the shower, got ready for school, came downstairs at 1:30 to get his field trip money and year book money from kyle LOL Me n Kyle woke up and looked at each other. Anthony was like its 6:30 I gotta go. Had he not needed money that boy would've went to the bus stop and tried to get on the bus. Thats a scary thought. Anywhoo we made him go back to bed LOL and then he had to re get up and go to school.

Shooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
My glasses are broken and I Can't see. I am pretty much legally blind. Well you guys know Im afraid of spiders LOL twice now I Have seen a fuzz ball on the floor and picked it up and it was a live spider LOL I was so freaked out. Savannah came downstairs yesterday ready to go. to me it looked like she had on black pants. We get to walgreens and i get her out of her carseat the girl has on a shirt and a pair of tights, you can see her panties everything. So I threw a raincoat on her ran in and got what i Needed and back out LOL

I need Bennet and bloom eye centers badly!

Happy Thursday!

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

The picture says it all

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I don't even have to look back, it's been close to my 3 month break from migraine cause it's backkkkkkkkkkk.

Yesterday was plain awful. This month its one of the neurological ones. Monday night I was extremely dizzy and felt funky, then yesterday all day, the pain would come and go and I would get numb and everything was funky on the right side of my body. My scalp hurt, that ear hurt, my eye hurt, my skin hurt. It's annoying.

Today it's still there, not as bad but my fingers are numb etc. Alot of the time, I hate myself, I really, really do. I get so tired of feeling bad. I can't believe it's all from stress. I don't see any end to my stress, so if thats what's causing it, then I better just get used to it.

Okay, I guess I better run. Its almost 9 Savannah is still sleeping, so I am going to lay back down and listen to it storm. Maybe I can get some more zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzs

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Pics of the new Sofa N Loveseat and how I arranged living room

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Dunno if I am gonna keep it this way, but we shall see!!!!

What comes around............Goes around

My brother and I were discussing Karma the other night. I fully believe in Karma. I think the earth has to keep some sort of balance. I do believe at some point what comes around goes around. Whether it's instant gratification, or if it takes years.

2 examples of this happened this weekend. In a mommy loop I am in, we were all sad and depressed because of money. We couldn't afford gas for our cars, some peoples gas were shut off and of course a couple weeks ago, our gas and lights were shut off. We were discussing clothes, how some of us didn't have many summer clothes for our kids and pickins were slim. Savannah is one of the smallest in the group, Then anothers girl has 2 daughters who are smaller than savannah. So I packed up a box of clothes that savannah couldn't wear anymore and stuffed and stuffed and mailed it to her on Friday. Yesterday Kyles mom pulls up and gets out a big box of clothes that someone had given her for Savannah. Savannah didn't have many summer clothes either. I gave and got back. People don't understand why I give so much, it ALWAYS Comes back to me. ALWAYS.

Kinda like You reap what you sow and I'd rather have what I get any day. It shows how the Lord does work in mysterious ways. He really, truly does.

The next thing that happened this weekend. Is I have been saying for a few months, that I didn't have a couch. Yesterday it was me, kyle, angie, the kids and the dog, most of us had to stand or sit on the floor cause theres only 2 chairs. There was another couch, that I had wanted and, it just didn't work out. I was upset, but then something came over me and said "Don't worry about it" and I was fine because I knew and even wrote, something will work out, it always does.............

I was checking my emails yesterday and looked through Cheap Cycle........ They had a couch for sale with a matching Love Seat. They paid 1500 for it a few mos ago, but are moving etc and had to sell it immediatley. I go and look at the pictures. It is the Same couch, that we went to buy in October. Same Color, same pillows etc. I don't know if there were any differences. Even the color was the same. They were selling it for 400 bucks. Exactly what I sold my other couch to my aunt sue for. ( I sold it cause it wouldn't fit in our new house, it was a huge sectional) It has barely been used for 4 mos. I have 200 of it and I call my mom and she lets me borrow the other 200 (thanks mom) and Things worked out exactly like they should. If I am just patient things just work out for me. They always have. So I like being on the side of giving, because it truly, truly comes back in Leaps and Bounds.

Oh My Blogger Friend Jackie, who I LOVE LOVE LOVE knew I was tired and stressed and she sent me a scarf she knitted and the kids some stickers!!!!!!!!! She is such an awesome person and I need to get on the stick and find something special for her cause she's such a sweetie! Thanks Jackie it made my day!!!!!

My aunt Sandy good lucked me and it's working Perfectly! Thanks Auntie Sandy!!!

Everyone come over and sit on my new couch!!!!!!! :o)

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Happy Derby Day!

It's Derby Day here in Louisville KY!!
Usually we go to a Derby party, every year.
This year we are staying home, doing nothing.
By choice of course. I'm so tired, I can barely move. It's 10:24 and I just rolled out of bed. Every weekend for 5 straight months, we haven't been home. Constant go go go. So today we will just sit. I think we may put some burgers on the grill and just sit. My house is clean, so no cleaning, just sitting.
It's going to be hard for me, but I know I can do it!!

Of course since its Derby Day we gotta sing My Old Kentucky Home, so if you drop in and read, sing along

Verse 1:
The sun shines bright in the old Kentucky home
'tis summer, the darkies are gay,
the corn top's ripe and the meadow's in the bloom
while the birds make music all the day.
The young folks roll on the little cabin floor
all merry, all happy, and bright.
By'n by hard times comes a-knocking at the door,
then my old Kentucky home, good night.

Chorus:
Weep no more, my lady,
oh weep no more today.
We will sing on song for the old Kentucky home,
for the old Kentucky home far away.


Verse 2:
They hunt no more for the 'possum and the coon
on meadow, the hill, and the shore.
They sing no more by the glimmer of the moon
on the bench by that old cabin door.
The day goes by like a shadow o'er the heart
with sorrow where all was delight.
The time has come when the darkies have to part
then my old Kentucky home, good night.

Chorus:

Weep no more, my lady,
oh weep no more today.
We will sing on song for the old Kentucky home,
for the old Kentucky home far away.

Verse 3:
The head must bow and the back will have to bend
wherever the darky may go.
A few more days and the trouble all will end
in the field where sugar-canes may grow.
A few more days for to tote the weary load,
no matter, 'twill never be light.
A few more days 'till we totter on the road,
then my old Kentucky home, good night.

Chorus:
Weep no more, my lady,
oh weep no more today.
We will sing on song for the old Kentucky home,
for the old Kentucky home far away.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

People Smeople

I am becoming so intolerant of people it's not even funny.

I had just rejoined Cheapcycle, I was in Freecycle also. Well, My dad had a leather recliner that he gave me, but it would scratch my wooden floor. I decided to Freecycle it. I don't believe in selling stuff that was given to me. So I posted it and a guy emailed me and told me he needed something for his sons room, blah blah and BLAH! Well, I decided to choose him and he came and got it.
He was listing a sofa on Cheapcycle, So I decided to go check it out and see what kind of couch he was listing. Lo and Behold,he was selling the free recliner. That is totally breaking the rules of Freecycle. What a dishonest Jerk.

Nothing suprises me anymore about people. Alot of people ,not all, there are really, really good true and selfless people in this world. But ALOT Of people are like "What can you do for me and what can i get from you" They are takers. What can I take take take take and take from you. I see it all the time. Its a shame. It happens on Freecycle alot, they just want to be the ones to get everything. Everytime I list something, I get the same takers and I wonder if All along they were selling it.

Anywhoo, I have come to realize, Thanks to my Good friend Melody, that I don't have to like certain people, whether it be Freeycle or people in my life. I asked her biblically which is the way to handle things that happen with people. She told me about Jesus getting angry and how people in the bible just Cut people out of their life. So, without feeling Guilt, I am cutting people out of my life. Gonna start with Freecycle guy LOL, Live and learn on that one. Then bigger fish to fry.

Make my life alot more stress free!

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Been a blogger slacker

Man the past few weekends have been so busy, I really can't decide if I am coming or going.
Today i spent the day finishing up My Aunt Sandys house. Although we had fun, it's really sad knowing that shes leaving for good :(
Today was also the last day of uncle Eds. Kyle went for me, but that is done too. No more eddies, no more Sandys. It's kind of sad. I have been taking care of Eddie every weekend for 7 years. I am glad to have my weekends free, but it is still sad.
Hope everyone is having a great Sunday! Enjoy your week
Love
dianna

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Been a lil while

Have had a really stressful crappy week. Our stinking power got shut off. It's a long story but ACK we had no power for about a whole day and then half of a next one. That is something I never ever care to relive again. I am scared of the dark and sleeping in the dark house with no sound, nothing. EEK, never again.

This week was awful. Just plain old awful. Today things have mellowed out a lil more. My house is clean, the laundry is almost completley finished.
Can't ask for much more.

Hope everyone has a great week and weekend!

Monday, April 24, 2006

Manic Monday

Well, it's not really manic. I am just plum wore out. We were at our house during waking hours, probably 3 hrs a day, if even that.
Kyle and I both are so tired. We've been sick, we've been working. I was glad to see Monday come. But, since we weren't home all weekend, the house is a wreck and I am spending time straightening up.
I am too tired to do a whole lot, but I am getting it done. I packed away all savannahs winter clothes in tubs. 5 full tubs, stuffed full of winter clothes. My step sister is a shop a holic and passes all her stuff down to savannah. It's nice, but Oh Lord, could someone wear that much stuff in a season?
I'm so sleepy. I didn't fall asleep til Midnight. I was trying to get stuff together for a garage sale we are having. My step sister has a ton of baby stuff she is getting rid of, my stuff is just stuff. I have it marked so cheap i don't think it can be turned down LOL. I want it all gone!
We are going to try to do it this weekend. Looks like a couple of people are calling for rain on saturday. So we shall see. I hope and pray it doesn't cause my back room is full and the next opportunity would be after Derby. Thats 3 weeks away and I don't wanna wait that long.
I want it all gone!
Okay I gotta run, the girls are playing outside and i have to crawl up the stairs to check on them. I am just now getting feeling in my feet after being on them all weekend :)

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Saturdayyyyyyyyyyy

Saturday, saturday, saturday, saturday, LOL i was doing a lil sir Elton!
I am finally over another migraine. This one was rough. It started Wed. I usually get weepy or mad and i got weepy and mad shoooooo double combo. Thursday i woke up and my head hurt so bad, i couldn't even move. I think i took 4 baths on thursday. Nothing at all worked. I had to babysit so basically just walked around, if i sat it hurt, if i laid down it hurt.
UGH

Yesterday it was still there a little, but when they go away i get really funky feeling. I told kyle it felt like i had fish in my head LOL he didn't understand that, but my head felt swimmy. I can't explain it at all but kinda like swimmy LOL
makes no sense i know. My vision gets funky, my ears hurt, i feel fonky. Today it is almost gone and the weird stuff like numbness and such is all going away, so thats a plus.

The rain has finally gone. our sump pump kicks on twice an hour, it never has done it like that before weird. Weird. and rainy weird.

Okay i gotta run, i have a full day ahead.
Take care all
Happy Sat n Sunday

Friday, April 21, 2006

Rain Rain Rain

All it's done for days is severe storm and rain.
I'm tired of rainnnnnnnnnnn

Nothing much going on. Had a headache all day yesterday!
Gas is too high to go anywhere

Still cleaning LOL

its been raining alot that is for sure!
Dunno what we are going to do this weekend.
Hope everyone has a great one!!

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Our Easter

We had a great Easter, Dyed eggs the night before, Got up went to church. Went to kyles moms, my moms and then my uncle eddies. Also stopped in to see my dad. Heres pics of of egg dyeing and Easter morning!
The first one, I was putting eggs in front of the camera, making savannah an egg body and she was none too pleased :)
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Easter Morning
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Monday, April 17, 2006

Been awhile

Since i have blogged.
Nothing to blog about.
My entries are almost the same every day.
What did I do today? I bet you can answer before you read any further
I cleaned this crap hole AGAIN.
I babysat.
I cried.

Joy Joy Joy, my life is 3 sentences or less
It's unappreciated very much by my family. They take me for granted, daily.

I am frustrated.
I am sad.

I'm tired of no one in this house knowing to pick up something. This morning i got out of bed, after anthony, after kyle and after juan. Savannah and i were the only ones in bed. I get up and they ALL left the trash filled to the brim, overflowing everywhere. It was on the floor where opie nosed through it. They leave it. Why???????????????
Cause good old Dianna will come behind them and pick up every bit of their stinking mess.
UGH
Gotta go more laundry to do, more dishes to do, someone will be hungry or thirsty and I am the only one who knows how to do any of it.
I probably wont blog for a few days, the entries really never change, so if you wanna know what I did all week, just read this one over n over again. It won't change.
Have a good week.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

I need to be cleaning on Thursday

But, I don't wanna. I live with slobs and none of them make any effort to clean up anything. They know I will do it. Im tired of cleaning this place. If I don't clean 10 min of every hour it falls to pieces.

It's hot again today. 82. I usually run the air in February and even earlier. But I refuse to give L G and E any more of my money than I have to. It's going to have to be pretty dern hot before I turn my air on. I will suck it up. I couldn't believe Kyle actually had to turn the air on the other day. He's never caved first. Our gas bill is soooooooooooo high and since we don't have to use heat, why not just not give them any money. If I had a bike that could hold 6 kids, Id probably take it instead of driving.

Any one out there in Louisville with a concrete drill bit?? I want my flag pole hung and I could tell kyle about 20 times a day and it still won't get hung. So if anyone out there has a bit and can come hang my pole, I BEGGGGGGG YOU LOL :P just as long as you aren't psycho!! LOL

Okay, i gotta go and CLEANNNNNN In the heat LOL But Im not gonna turn that air on!!!

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

I think its Tuesday

Im pretty sure it is anyway cause AI comes on LOL
Having an okay day. I'm in an anxiety cycle. I have panic attacks and free floating anxiety as I have written, but it gets bad in cycles. Usually once with in 6 mos. Its nice to pin point, but I hate when it comes. I really just don't feel well and anxiety on top of it all. Sigh.

My back hurts where dr cook injured it. When it gets warm it flares up. GRRRR I just hope it fully goes away with time.

I got my living room and kitchen spotless again!! The backroom thats a different story. I just haven't been able to get up to clean it.

Well, thats enough of my whinin today. I hope AI is good, i read their song lists and i was shocked at the songs they all chose!

Happy Tuesday

Monday, April 10, 2006

Make way for Noddy

HONK HONK HONK is what I hear at 2:30 am and hear my daughter laughing. UGHHHHHHHH I am worn out. Not only was she up at 2:30 watching TV she stayed up til after 3:30 watching Noddy and Pengu and other things. SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I had to get up early to go to the Dr. I had the dracula nurse from hell to draw my blood work. She did a terrible job, I am very bruised and she was meannnnnnnnn.
After I had my bloodwork done she told me to go sit in the hall and wait for my results. Well I stood, I didn't wanna sit, Ihad been sitting for 3 hrs waiting. She comes out and yells at me "Sit down, til the dr gets out here" I told her "I Don't wanna sit" a few minutes pass by and she storms at me telling me to sit again. @@ shooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I didn't sit LOL.

She didn't even wear gloves when she drew my blood. She did the alcohol wipes and then took her fingers and felt my arm with no gloves, what if she had been boodie pickin or nose pickin and she is touching my arm. @@

My iron is low yet again. That suprises me because.....................
I need to take my iron every day. Ican't remember it every day. I am gonna make a big mental note!

The weather is nice, the kids are all outside and i am inside trying to stay awake. Tonight TV has to go on roseanne or something, no more Noddy, Honk Honk Honk!

have a great Monday Monday!! La la la la la la

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Savannahs Birthday

Yesterday outside of it being Savannahs birthday, was pretty much WEIRD from the get go. I won't even say bad, even though mostly from my perspective it was. Everything, that could've gone wrong, pretty much did. The only fun part of the day for me was getting to sit down with Mike, linda, kyle, johnny and angie and Laughing. That part of it was fun. Mike N Linda are 2 people that can make you laugh and laugh and laugh til you pee your pants. Very very funny. I needed a good laugh after all the insanity.

I am becoming quite an observer of snide comments, I was on the receiving end of quite a few snide comments yesterday. I do realize them. That's okay, if it makes you feel better to rub stuff in, you go right ahead, it doesn't bother me a bit :c)

It's funny to watch people TRY to say something to bug me.......I guess they don't realize what I have been through in my life and I think its funny watching them make comments to me, to try to hurt me. They can't. But its fun watching them try.

Yesterday was so weird, Oh my just weird. Tense moments all around LOL I thought we were gonna have a couple brawls!! I was trying to keep the peace in every direction. It was crazy, absolutely crazy.

So in a nutshell, the week started with the bouncy fiasco, then a cake fiasco, then Im on the crap list fiasco, then the rain and the cold weather LOL, it was nuts, all around nuts.

My baby girl is 4 :) She was happy as could be!

Kyle is at my dads picking us up a recliner. We really haven't any place to sit. Just one chair we fight over, the other is Opies. We don't have the extra money for a couch right now, So my dad gave us a recliner. I had to get it cause I'm on the crap list and it would probably be on the curb if I didn't come get it today. Shoooooooooooooo Momma I am on the list again ;) LOL you know how that goes.

I can't wait to recline YAYYYYY :) we are very very blessed and I will count them even though days are rough.

I will hold my tongue and make no snide comments, because I see how tacky it makes people look

I will go clean my dads basement tonight, for him, because I love him.

I will take my shower and get to bed

And I will call Mike N Linda and ask them to have me N Kyle over for a pre Derby bash, with marshmallows and fire :) HINT HINT HINT LOL

We picked the boys up from there today and they had all the chairs around their firepit, the nerve of them not inviting us LOL :P

Have a great Sunday all!!!

Friday, April 07, 2006

wahh we had a tornado tonight

I am still sick and scared, it was actually on the ground by my freaking house :((((( i feel so violated and LOL and a :( that was some scary business. It went through all of south louisville and was behind a highschool a couple blocks up from me. Im tired, Im sick to my stomach and I am ready for spring to be over now. Hope all my louisville people are safe and sound tonight!
Tomorrow is savannahs birthday, dodging tornados today I got nothing finished. I need a shower but its still storming out :( Ugh my nerves are shot!
Have a great night

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Busy Busy Busy

I have been so busy and things have been super hectic. The dishwasher was temporarily broke and then the bouncy crisis and spring break! First off let me let you know I updated our remodling blog click there and it will take you there. I have a couple more rooms left to do.
Yesterday I took all the kiddies and ventured to downtown louisville. We went to waterfront park. The kids played on the playgrounds. We visited the river. Ate lunch in the park. Then went to the Louisville slugger museum to see the big bat and such. Then went to the childrens museum.. I was beat. I took 5 kids with me. Then today ZOO YAY!! I have been bugging n bugging my aunt curl to go. So today we went! We had a great time and My cuz Linney came also! It was nice going there but Holy COW It was crowded!!! After that i went and took care of my uncle eddie then I went and cleaned my moms and came home. I am pooped! I have included a bunch of pics from both days below. I took a ton but only am gonna bore you with a few LOL :) Have a great Wednesday!

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Above is Savannah at the African Savannah LOL
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This is the Lorakeets on my son Juan. They kept pecking him and pecking him and grabbing his ears LOL, they would chew on his jacket and pull his hair. They wouldn't leave him alone so I had to get the handler to get them off so we could Leave LMAO
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AWWW My family :)

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Time Change Day

I Just got out of bed and its almost 10:30, I am already behind before I even wake up LOL!!

We are due some mega bad thunderstorms, prayyyyyyyyy they stay away!!

I have a basement now but still, I can live without tornados.

I gotta go clean my mommas today and cut her hair. We spent the morning and afternoon shopping, no kids :) It was soooooooooooo nice!!

I am bored and needed something to do, so I started making korker bows :) I made my first last night!! Pic is gonna be after the post! It needs some tweaking and I experimented with ribbon and I like the thicker textured ribbon, opposed to the thin stuff its just too shaggy!! I am going to start experimenting with all sorts of bows :) YAY!!

I haven't updated the house blog, I am going to try to do that this morning too :)

Okay heres my first bows!
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Saturday, April 01, 2006

The Lonely Boys

Both my boys are having trouble. Juan is having some fits again. Pretty bad ones here lately. He's back in therapy. Anthony is on a waiting list.

They both ask me why certain people don't want to see them. For Juan it's his dad, he wants to know why he writes them letters and he never calls or wants to see him. I don't know the answer to this, but I take alot of the wrath for it. Alot of his problems stem from rejection. It's hard to know your dad doesn't want you and you don't have a clue why.

Anthony, his dads side of the family, basically fell off the face of the earth. He asks why so and so doesn't see him, or how come so and so doesnt come over. They think I have all these answers. As time goes on, I just get angrier and angrier at the people who hurt my kids. They did nothing, NOTHING to deserve not being worthy of someones time.

The whole lot of them will have excuses or say they were too busy or this and that. Thats fine. When anthonys dad died everyone wanted to see him. Maybe out of guilt for the way they had done his dad when he was alive. Over the years, they disappeared. They pop up everyonce in awhile at a store and a select few call, well wait, they don't even call anymore. When they get to feeling guilty, usually around August when brett died. They'll call him. That will satisfy their guilt for another year or so. Maybe rush in at christmas to give them some gifts, but then rush out the door to go to others families who are more important.

That's okay, Ill be there to pick up the pieces. I've been picking up the pieces for damn near 15 years. But Im about done with the people doing it. One thing I know about me, when I am done, I am done. I'm almost there.

These people don't get the wrath of it. I do. With Juan theres alot of wrath, alot of hate and alot of anger. Anthony theres sadness, Anger and just sad.


Have a great Saturday all.

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Tomorrows Friday!

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This is my baby girl today! it was so beautiful outside, she played out there ALLLLLLLLL day long!! it was nice!! Kenna played out there all morning then came in and slept 1-5 that was nice too :)
I updated my Before N after blog today with the kitchen, so check that out when you get a chance!
Kyle has Juan at his therapy appt. I got savannah in gave her N maddie haircuts, then hopped in the shower and scrubbed savannah and now just sitting here relaxing!
OMG Lost was so freaking AWESOME!! I can't believe there wasn't a body in the grave, however I was thinking to myself, I'd dig up the grave to see if anyone is in there LOL!
Okay the plane survivors have all attached earlobes, the others all have the funky eyes. Beaty sort of! It was gooooooooood. I figured he was an other, when he went away and then all the hatch opened back up.
Since I know my hubby stopped reading at the point above because he hates spoilers I can say Locke this and Locke that and he will skip over and i can tell you I watched Walk the Line today. Jack and Kate LMAO have to throw him off so he doesnt know i watched it. It was a good movie. I love Reese. It was a lil slow for me, Locke,kate, jack LOL but It was purty good

Okay I gotta run and hmm play scrabble maybe!
Have a wonderful friday!!

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Hey all Happy Tuesday!

It's American Idol night!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Not much to say, it was a rainy old boring day!
I posted anthonys room before n afters! heres a link!
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Monday, March 27, 2006

Okay, a Before N After

I created a Blogger of all the projects we have done, attempted to do and so on and so on. I'll probably do a room a day, starting in order. Savannahs room by far was the worst and the first room we started on. So here's the link to go and check out her room before and then after :)
We broke Asses

Sunday, March 26, 2006

The HOTTEST guy on TV for me :c)

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For those few (LOL) who do not watch Lost, this is Sawyer! He is sooo freaking hot! I think it's his dimples. I dunno but shoooooooo weeeeee!

I'm stressed today and needed something good to look at!

I gave my mom Season 1 of Lost to watch last weekend and she finished the whole season. It's incredibly hard to stop once you start! They've had alot of breaks this season so it hasn't been too hard to get caught up! This for certain is the best show I have ever watched outside of a reality show (American Idol for me).

So mysterious!!

Kyle bought me some Soy Delicious icecream. It's So good! i am eating it now while I wait for them all to get dressed and what nots! it's taking them forever and I have a ton of stuff to do today.

I took Juan to Pediatric Acute Care yesterday. All I can say is UGH, all the kids running around, coughing on everything, vomiting or what have you. I think I used hand sanitizer every few seconds cause it was so grody.

They tested Juan for strep which was suprisingly negative considering his throat. Then they stuck a thing up his nose to test for the flu and it was negative. His ear was infected though. Today he still has a fever of 102. I hate sickness. He had the thermometer and then when he laid it down Savannah came over and popped it in her mouth. Germ spreading in action. I Just hope she gets sick before her birthday party :(

Have a wonderful Sunday to all!

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Funny IF you live in Louisville LOL

I got this in an email today. It's the New Louisville Barbie, it of course is a joke


St Matthews Barbie
This princess Barbie is sold only at The Mall St Matthews. She comes with
an assortment of Prada Handbags, a Lexus SUV, a longhaired foreign dog
named Honey and a cookie cutter house. Available with or without tummy tuck
and face lift. Workaholic Ken sold only in conjunction with "augmented" version.

Lyndon Barbie
This modern day homemaker Barbie is available with Ford Windstar Minivan
and matching gym outfit. She has no full time occupation or secondary
education. Traffic jamming cell phone sold separately.

Middletown Barbie
This is an upgrade to the St Matthews Barbie. Accessories include the SUV
with an extra large gas tank .

Portland Barbie
This recently paroled Barbie comes with a 9mm handgun, a Ray Lewis knife,
a Chevy with dark tinted windows and a Meth Lab Kit. This model is only
available after dark and must be paid for in cash (preferably small,
untraceable bills). Unless you are a cop, then we don't know what you are
talking about.

Anchorage Barbie
This yuppie Barbie comes with your choice of BMW convertible or Hummer H2.
Included are her own Starbucks cup, credit card and country club
membership. Also available for this set are Shallow Ken and Private School
Skipper. You won't be able to afford any of them.

Okolona Barbie
This pale model comes dressed in her own Wrangler jeans two sizes too
small, a NASCAR shirt and tweety bird tattoo on her shoulder. She has a
six-pack of Bud light and a Hank Williams, Jr. CD set. She can spit over 5
feet and kick mullet-haired Ken's butt when she is drunk. Purchase her
pickup truck separately and get a confederate flag bumper sticker absolutely free.

Glenmary Barbie
This collagen injected, rhino plastic Barbie wears a leopard print outfit
and drinks cosmopolitans while entertaining friends. Percocet prescription
available.

Fairdale Barbie
This tobacco-chewing, brassy-haired Barbie has a pair of her own
high-heeled sandals with one broken heel from the time she chased
beer-gutted Ken out of Okolona Barbie's house. Her ensemble includes
low-rise acid washed jeans, fake fingernails, and a see through halter-top.
Also available with a mobile home.

The Highlands Barbie
This doll is made of actual tofu. She has long straight brown hair, arch
less feet, hairy armpits, no makeup and Birkenstocks with white socks. She
prefers that you call her "Willow." She does not want or need a Ken doll,
but if you purchase two Main Street Barbies and the optional Subaru wagon,
you get a rainbow flag bumper sticker for free.

Newburg Barbie
This Barbie now comes with a stroller and infant doll. Optional accessories
include a GED and bus pass. Gangsta Ken and his '79 Caddy were available,
but are now very difficult to find since the addition of the infant.

Shively Barbie
Not much different from Fairdale Barbie - instead of the trailer, she
comes with bingo chips and a rosary. We don't know where Ken is 'cause he's
always hunting.

Main Street Barbie/Ken
This versatile doll can be easily converted from Barbie to Ken by simply
adding or subtracting the multiple "snap-on" parts.

It's Saturday Morning

I got up, went back to bed. Then got up again. I bet you are wondering how I cope with such an exciting life.

It's pretty hard let me tell ya!

I really had planned on waking up and cleaning, doing the kind of cleaning thats rough.

But Nope,I don't wanna. I haven't a clue what's on our agenda today. Payday isn't for another week, so probably not much LOL.

Anthony has a cold, Juan has a cold, I feel like I am getting a cold too. Kyle never gets sick. Hes fine and at his moms pulling some bushes today.

Okay, Ill take my boringness and leave you now LOL Have a great Saturday!!!!!

Friday, March 24, 2006

I did it I did it!

Thanks to Hubby he spotted me in the right direction and after an hours long work I got all my links of blogs I visit over to the right :C)
I at least deserve a Gold Star or something!! LOL

LOL this was too funny!

Impatient Men GRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I am so annoyed right now. Men, Not all, but most are sooooo freaking impatient and haven't a clue what women go through. I babysit as you all know. I was out of soda, so I decided to run to Circle K with all the kids to buy a 2 liter and get some cups of ice.

I had a 1 year old, 2 4 year olds and my 3 year old. I was trying to hold stuff, hold the baby and keep the other 3 out of the candy and what nots.

A guy is trying to go behind me. I let Kenna down and try it that way, for her to walk. He lets out this HUGE sigh and then goes all the way back down the aisle into the next one and gives me a dirty look. GRR

Then another guy is there at the ice machine, i am trying to fill my cup and keep the kids. He is behind me pacing, acting like I am taking forever, at this point i was pissed off.

I grab kennas hand and she trips over the rug, i go to pick her up, my purse falls, My keys fall and all kinds of crap falls out of my purse. 6 men in that store and not one of them help me. I go back to the ice counter, put my ice down, my chips down, the 2 liter down, still trying to keep the kids out of the stuff and the jewelry crap they have. Go pick up my purse and all my stuff. Kenna runs off and i go get her.

I go back and retrieve my stuff and go to pay. The nasty guy from the aisle is behind me blowing his breath again. Giving me dirty looks. I get rang up and the lady gives me my total. I never buy scratch off lottery tickets. Ever, but decided to take my time, picking a couple. Oh and then a Powerball ticket.

She gives me my total, I look back at him and smile the biggest smile and he is looking madder than a hornet. My total, 12.89 Ohhhhhh wait wait I say I have the change in the bottom of my purse. Savannah is in front of him grabbing everything she can, he is getting soooooo mad. I took exactly 4 minutes to pay LOL and thats ALONG Time for those type stores. Jerk man from Ice machine was back there.

I left and had all the kids hands, the bags my purse etc. Madison tried to get the door and couldn't get it and i couldn't get it. The cashier stopped and came out from behind the counter and opened the door for me.

She must have kids!

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Wednesday

Been a nice quiet day!!!!!!!!! My friend Angel had a Dr. Appt out this way and came by to see me. I had missed her alot and was so glad to see her. She didn't get to stay long because she had an ultrasound appt, but it was good to see her for a bit!!
Thanks for coming over Me Angel!

I realy haven't done much today. Didn't really clean, didn't really do anything. Kyle came home for lunch and we ate LOL and then i laid down and tried to take a nap. Didn't work much because i can't sleep during the day.

American Idol results tonight, I do believe bucky will be going home!

Happy Wednesday!!

Monday, March 20, 2006

bluchy monday

today was just Long, LONGGGGGGGGGG! Juan had a dr appt for his therapist at 10:30, we get there at 10:15, an hour passes, then 2 hours pass and then finally we go back. I was so frazzled and just not happy at all about a 2 hr wait time. Said she had another patient. Bad scheduling i suppose. Headache for me.

I got home and had to call his Insurance company so they can add the new therapist to their list. Well............ Now keep in mind he hasn't seen his dad is 10 years about. They tell me cause of the privacy laws, I can't add or change anything to his insurance. His dad has to do it all. I was like........HELLO his dad hasn't seen him, he just has to keep the insurance on him. Nope they say, they can't help me. Okay first of all I haven't a clue where the man is. Second of all, i take care of all the stuff. Evidentally not anymore. So thats headache number 2.

I just wanna go to bed. The therapist today told me,I can see it in your face how stressed you are. Think of it this way "if you had one week to live, is this how you'd spend your life" Well UH NO. I mean what am i supposed to do???????????? I get no sleep, i never see my husband, I constantly have to clean house or fool with kids, I don't have any resources to just pick up and take a break. So UGH. I do realize I need to take care of myself, but ummmmmmmmm thats hard to do. This morning I went to go brush my hair and i realized, i don't even look in the mirror anymore. I usually just use my compact and put my hair up in a pony tail. Thats purty bad. But who cares, who sees my hair anyway, ijust sit in this house with all these freaking kids all day. I think I'll start searching for a job that won't make me have anxiety attacks and something I like so I can get away from babysitting. I truly hate it.

Have a great tuesday its American Idol night tomorrow!

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Happy Sunday

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Isn't that the cutest picture ever?? A friend sent it to me and Since it's sunday I decided to share it :)

Today has been a very, very lazy day.

Kyle painted off n on and watched basketball and i basically slumped around,debating on if i wanted to clean or not. I did a little but decided i am sure it will be messy tomorrow!

Hope everyone is having a wonderful wonderful Sunday :)

Have a good monday too!

Saturday, March 18, 2006

My momma

came to visit me today :) it was nice to have her spending the day with us. We went to Cracker Barrell, it made me and Juan both sick though :( BLUCH, then we went to Big Lots and got some easter decorations :) I LOVEEEEEEEE Decorating for holidays. I asked my mom why she didn't want to decorate, she said Cause she has to take it all down. I think its fun decorating and just get a tub to put it in, each holiday usually fits in one tub with the exception of Christmas, but just throw it in the tub and under the stairs!! I think Tomorrow I will make a new blog with home improvement pics that we have done. We aren't finished by any means, but I can show you what we have done.

My sun room I love :) I could live out there!!

Okay early bed time tonight. My lil vannah plays outside all the time now. Come on spring. Shell be 4 in less than a month :( So bitter sweet.