A simple pill, how hard or scary can a pill be?
First one i took and had a panic attack for about an hour. I was terrified.
For some reason, I do better at pill taking in the day and not at night.
Let me set the scenario, I have to take this pill, no if ands or butts. I cut it in half and take it. Anxiety sets in immediatley. I start freaking out, I can't find the benadryl anywhere and if I have an allergic reaction where the hell is the benadryl. So i fussed at Kyle out of fear and he went and bought me some benadryl. I was so scared, instantly my face turned red, i was shaking, feeling dizzy. UGH.
I hate anxiety. I had a sudden envy for people who could just pop pills and not give 2 craps what they are putting into their body.
A pill has enough power to give me anxiety. sadly funny.
I took it this morning. its been almost an hour. After an hour, i start to realize I won't immediatley die or pass out, then Ill be okay. Till tonight.
I have never taken drugs, never been drunk.........I am chicken little i suppose.
I wish i could get over my fear of pills, maybe i could take something for anxiety. It took severe reflux and esophageal erosion to get me to take prilosec. I take that now with no problems.
I have fears of peanut butter some days. Allergy fears of course. I am so sick of anxiety. I hate it. Some days I wish to be someone else.
I have to go to the specialist this afternoon, wish me luck. Gonna ask him for some smaller pills. I gottta take my camera to my dad. Hes borrowing it. The camera is my life. I am going to be a photographer one day. Mark my words! I take pics of everything. I guess because there were moments when Brett was sick and dying, we had great moments in his last few months. I wish now i had had a camera to take pics to remember. As time fades so do the memories. That will never happen again because i take pics of EVERYTHING!
Have a great day all. I have about mastered typing with a cast. I use my index finger as the space bar finger! thats what i call multi tasking ;)
4 comments:
I'm sorry it's so hard for you. I wish you luck and strength.
Lois Lane
Diana,
I wonder if there's a pill for that?
Sorry, I just had to say it. I really do feel for you. You are typing rather well with your cast today.
Let me know how the trip to the specialist goes.
Oh girl..I am sitting here nodding my head it agreement..I get scared eating food while alone sometimes..I fear that I will choke on it,which can cause a panic attack...
I didn't realize that you don't take pills for your anxiety ( or do you?). If you don't, there are good meds on the market that can help you out greatly. I hope that you get the help you need...and that you get to feeling better soon!
Love ya,
Sarah
I have to take so many pills a day its sad...and there are times when I freak out to...if I don't take the right ones at the right times it could cause this or so on and so on...I carry benedryl around with me everywhere lol I also have the childs version and cream...all in my purse...I also carry bug spray cause West Nile is bad here...I am right there with you on anxiety lol
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