Hi everyone!!

Hope everyone is well.
Things have been very tough here lately.
I'm so exhausted it is unreal.
Juan is in the hospital right now. That's all I really want to say about that at this point. I miss him horribly and cry ALOT. When I go to see him and leave as a mother, it tears me up inside. I want to grab him and take him with me. But know right now that is not possible.
After visiting with him this morning I left got to moms and did something I never have in my life. I sat on her couch and within 3 minutes completley and totally fell asleep. I am emotionally drained.
I smiled for the first time in 3 days last night. It felt very, very good. I am rarely ever not smiling.
Today I have a huge migraine. My head hurts so bad. I have to go back to the hospital in a few minutes. I am dreading being out in this heat. It can go away at any time and would not hurt my feelings. We are on alot of days over 100 degrees.
My friend Melzie just had me LOLing so hard it's unreal. I feel guilt that I am laughing when my son is in hospital. But I appreciate the laughter. Such a wonderful woman. For my baby boy a song a hear and think of him. All we do need is a lil patience.


Patience

Shed a tear 'cause I'm missing you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt you're in my heart now
Said woman take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said sugar make it slow
And we'll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
(inhale) Patience...
Ooh, oh, yeah

Sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now, I'll wait dear
Sometimes, I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time
But you know, love, there's one more thing to consider
Said woman take it slow
Things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time
'Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes to make it
We won't fake it, Oh never break it
'Cause I can't take it

...little patience, mm yeah, ooh yeah,
Need a little patience, yeah
Just a little patience, yeah
Some more pati... (ence, yeah)
I've been walking these streets at night
Just trying to get it right (Need some patience, yeah)
It's hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like being stuck in a crowd (Could use some patience, yeah)
And the streets don't change but maybe the name
I ain't got time for the game
'Cause I need you (Patience, yeah)
Yeah, yeah well I need you
Oh, I need you (Take some patience)
Whoa, I need you (Just a little patience is all we need)
Ooh, this ti- me....