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Yesterday was extremely busy. I did nothing last night. I played on puter and did nothing else. This morning, I have scrubbed, dusted and mopped my living room, mopped kitchen. Took a shower. Got to be at the dentist at 2, so I'm gonna just take it easy til then. I'm beat. Have to take some photos tomorrow and it's of babies and I'm skeeeeeeered. LOL I have no um experience with them. So this should be fun and interesting.
Everyone is doing great health wise. Savannah seems to be over her illnesses for now. Christmas break should give her a nice chance to fully be dubbed HEALTHY!!
Dizziness improves almost daily. I still have brief episodes, but seems to be just going away. I have noticed when I'm anxious it is a bit worse, or maybe the same, I just focus on it.
Okay, gonna go take a nap and relax.
Happy Thursday
Love,
Di

Savannahs play and A lesson from my daughter!!

Yesterday was plain awful for me. Nothing went right, everything was wrong over and over. I eventually gave up. Savannah's play was last night and on the way I had just cried and cried all the way there. I tried to remember the last time something good happened and I can't. Sitting in traffic, left us stuck beside the most beautifully decorated church. As I was crying I asked God to please just let something good happen. I needed it. I need good things, I'm tired. We got the play and I enjoyed every single minute of it. Savannah was so cute. She was singing and dancing. Just an absolute beauty. I smiled and laughed the whole entire program. Here's a pic of her stepping up to the microphone saying her line.....her line was.. "I don't care what I get as long as it's not underwear and socks"

The next pic is the lesson I learned for Savannah, as you see in this pic, there's a little blonde boy. He was WAY wild through the program. Last night we were looking at the pics and I said "Ugh, there's that wild boy" and I said "Savannah is that his real hair or is it a wig?" Then I said it looked strange. She looked at me and said "Mommy, that's his real hair and yes he's wild but that's the way God made him" Then she pointed to the boy in sponge bob PJs and said "That's Lee, he has anger issues, but God made him that way too, so it's really okay cause God makes them the way they are" I couldn't believe she said that and had to have her repeat to Kyle because I couldn't believe it. So smart beyond her years and such a sweet girl.

Savannah is officially the smallest girl in all 4 kindergartens, she is in the front row, center. My sweet lil baby girl.

:) wearing the shirt she made

Her first official school play!

Happy Wednesday, it's trash day.
Love,
Di

Happy Saturday :o)

Been busy somewhat lately. LOL sassy at your comment on cleaning. That's all I feel like I ever do. I sweep 2 times a day, sometimes more. With wood floors, 2 dogs and 3 kids, I have a holster for my broom LOL :)
It's tiresome especially when you spend all that time doing it and an hour later you can't even tell. Fun, fun!!
I have absolutely nothing to blog about cause I have been so bored. Anthony has his girlfriend over tonight watching movies. Savannah and Juan are bugging the fire out of them :) I don't think they have had a minutes peace.
Um....Going shopping with momma bright and early in the morning, before the rooster crows. Dizziness is steadily improving. Seems like when I notice an increase in energy, the dizziness is a bit better. Maybe my labrynthitis was amplified by my low iron. Dunno, but it can totally leave at any minute. I got it on Sept 29, so I just hit the 9 week mark.
Okay, have a great evening.
Much love to everyone
Love,
Di

Thursday Mornin'

It's Thursday, in between bouts of feeling bad, I worked my rear off yesterday. I have no laundry today, it is all done and put away, so I have been doing bed clothes this morning. Living room is spotless, dusted and mopped. It is very, very clean. I detailed it more today. Did rugs and such. Had to take a break. I'm still weak and my stomach still doesn't feel right.
Last night Savannah and I matched socks for about an hour, for some reason it was kinda fun. She was extremely silly last night.
Nothing else really going on. Gonna wait for my next burst of energy to find another project.
When you go from being severely anemic, to having some iron, OMG I can't explain to you the difference it makes. I actually want to get up and move!!
Happy Thursday
What will today bring you?
Hopefully no black clouds for me.
Love,
Di

Happy Wednesday

I'm bored. I have dinner in the crock pot, have done 5 loads of laundry and put away probably 9 loads of laundry. Swept and mopped living room, prewashed dishes for the dishwasher, fed and watered dogs. There is nothing else to do. I don't feel like Toontowning or pirates.
I do not watch T.V.
I honestly don't know what to do.
Kids are at school.
Hmmmmmm, Maybe I should go mess up the kitchen and then reclean it. There's an idea. NOT! I guess I will take a nap.
Happy wednesday.
It's trash day.
Love,
Di

***Ugh I wrote that this morning and Owoooooo, I got glutened :( I started feeling it around 12 and thought maybe it was my imagination. Then the rash came and ugh the stomach pain. :( It hurts so bad, you wouldn't believe it. Feels like someone dropped a heavy brick in my stomach. I hate it :( I laid down and cried for awhile it hurt so bad. Stupid gluten :( Nothing at all to take for it either. Just have to wait it out. Opie was outside and hurt his front paw :(
Someone please take my cloud. Please.
I gotta lay down, I don't feel well. :(

Does it get any cuter than this?

She is such a sweet, sweet puppy dog. She's snoozing away and I snapped her pic cause she is so adorable!
Not really much to share today. All is okay I suppose.
Happy Tuesday
Love
Di

Any takers for my black cloud???

I'll even deliver it to you. Roof has a leak and it has poured down rain. There is no hole, so who knows what is going on. Maybe gutters backed up? Who knows but a break would be nice.
Nothing really happening today. Just tired. Very tired.
Happy Monday
Love,
Di

2 posts in one day, stop the presses!!

My baby boy is 13 :) He couldn't have the fancy decorated cake LOL cause of gluten, so he had to have an ugly gluten free cake. It didn't taste bad though!
Thanks to the whole family for coming over, Linney it was great to see and hold your beautiful baby :), She's beautiful! Thanks to everyone, I had a wonderful time. Here are some pics of my shy baby boy! Happy 13th :) 2 teenage boys Owooo!!

Was at moms on Thanksgiving

And was browsing through her old pics and stole some off her puter :P Thought I would share. Brought back memories! They are all scanned and have marks on them, but u get the gist.
Here's one of all of us and thats little Matthew LOL Owooooooo they grew up quick


Here is Anthony and his dad shortly before he died

This is Brett and Dougie, exactly 3 weeks before he died. Amazing how quickly he went downhill :(

A way big blast from the past, Me on Grandma Spies porch :)

This is me in the back of my Aunt Sues car in Panama City! Me n Steph were up to no good as usual and I still make that face when I am up to no good >:)What's with the bandana in the hair???? Good Grief!!

Hope you enjoyed, I enjoyed seeing them!!! :)

Woo hoo!! Christmas has come!

I was so excited to get all my decorations out today :) Gonna share what my living room looks like and show you my few favorite decorations. I love all my ornaments, me and the mommys always exchange ornaments every year and I always love the ones they give me of course :)
This broken nutcracker/soldier boy........he has a story. About 7 years ago, I was walking out to the trash after Christmas and I saw him outside of the dumpster laying on the ground. Someone had stepped on him. I was going to walk away, but couldn't leave him there. Sicko I am I know! But I wanted him to be special. So every year since then, I put him on the top of my tree. Broken indeed, but he is my favorite ornament of all. I will always keep and cherish him. I am a geek, I know this already :P



There isn't many on that side Oof!!

My Christmas doggie, in the collar he hates LOL and the kids being bums

Snoopy and his Christmas tree

What would Christmas be withouth Rudolph!

No Air Banding!!

Scrubs has to be the best under rated show in TV, it is sooooo good!! Here is a clip from my favorite episode. LOL They post No air banding signs all over the hospital. Its classic and holy Cow Terks body is Hot! I never noticed it really til I watched that clip up close.
I'm trying to cheer myself up, what a better way than You tube :)

Do the math, do the homework man!!

You ever wonder why Kentucky has the reputation it does? This made me LOL so hard, it really happened.
Was at moms yesterday for Thanksgiving, having a bad day and just was in a funk. Johnny told me to come downstairs that I had to see that. OMG That cheered me straight up, it was hilarious. OOF what an idiot!! Do the math, do the homework!!

Happy turkey Eve

Todays been going okay. I didn't feel good all morning, went and got adjusted, he twisted my head funny to pop my neck and I got dizzy again. Been in bed all day. Was nice.
Tonight, I'm just sad.
Hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving tomorrow.
Love,
Di

So ya had a bad day, ya had a bad day.

Holy sh*t today was bad. I'm going to bed in exhaustion.
First of all my childhood friend Terri, I just got off the phone with her a bit ago. Momma Pearl passed away. I'm soooo sad over this :( , I stayed all night with her so much and she always was worried about me. Always taking care of me. Making sure I had something to eat. Just genuine good woman. I knew she had been sick, but didn't know she was that sick. Terri was so upset and I just couldn't imagine. Here she tells me in a barely audible voice to "be good to your mother", this coming off the heels of having a big argument with my mom this morning. She said she feels lost and such. Keep their family in your prayers. Momma Pearl was like the rock of that family. :( I'm so sad. Terri said they are making arrangements tomorrow, so Wednesday I am going to go to the visitation. Johnny, mom and dad, those of you who knew her, it will be at Owens on Dixie Hwy.

So me n mom argue this morning, setting the tone for my awful day. Cable guy shows up when I'm in the tub, so I have to run like a bat out of hell to get to the door, slip on the wet floor, totally twist the hell out of my ankle, the same one I hurt the other night going out to eat. So he says it should only take so long. Took a mere 5 or more hours.

So I am coming home from moms, on the highway, start hearing something like a motorcycle behind me going brrrrrrrrrrr and I was like what is that noise. GRRRRRR my tire is freaking flat. So I call Kyle see if he can come get me. He says " I can't leave the cable guy here" Okay, what the hell I am supposed to do, stay on the side of the highway til the freaking cable guy leaves. I tell him "what you want me to walk home?" WTF?? Finally he calls me back says he will come pick me up. My tire is completely blown in 6 different spots. I haven't a clue what I did.

I have a bad cold. I just got over being sick, I keep sneezing, coughing, my throat hurts. My ulcer is acting up from stress. I'm emotionally drained.

I have had such a bad day. Almost start to finish bad. It ends sad. I have just been crying and crying :( Life is sooooooooo stinking short. Momma Pearl died from Emphysema. :(

I can't even weed through all this to try to find some positives out of it. I'm too tired. So I am ending this day early, going to cry myself to sleep and try to make sense of it all tomorrow.

I cannot quit crying and to mom I am sorry about our argument today. I am stressed out in every direction as you know. :( Stress sucks.

Happy Monday :(
Terri and family I am so sorry, more than you know.

It's Sunday, Sunday, Sunday!

I just got done having a tear moment :( Juan was sitting next to me, had his hat on his dad gave him, his hoodie, his shoes.......holding his skateboard, rolling the wheels around. I said "You taking the skateboard to grandmas?" he said "No, just miss my dad" :( Broke my heart.
Sigh :(
I'm glad they had a good time, but I knew when he left it would be hard.
Hopefully they can get together again soon. I think they really, really had a good time.
My whole entire family has a cold, even my mother. Achooooooooo! tis the season!!
Happy Sunday
Love
D

Happy Saturday :P

Happy Saturday :) Nothing going on here, just trying to wake up. Maddie May O is here to spend the day with Savannah. I was trying to clean some, but I'm too tired. Good grief, late nights stink. No matter what though, I'm tired. My iron is still way low, but........ I have been taking it :)
My house really isn't dirty since the boys have been gone. Just needs to be swept, dusted and mopped. I'll do a little at a time I suppose.

Claire bear ugh!!!!! I was laying in the tub relaxing and I hear her going crazy down stairs. Sounded like a hanger, so I'm like okay, she can eat the hanger. I get out of the tub come down stairs, she is laying upside down, feet in the air doing her pooty whistle growl at me. I look at her immediatley and say "What did you do?" She rolls back over and under her back was a whole entire bag of cocoa flavored hershey kisses. Owooooo! We call the vets, they say to give her peroxide and let her run around the yard and vomit. Oh geez. She lived, but OMG my dogs are so insane.
Claire has grown used to us and she's so protective of me as is Opie. Kyle gets very torked cause if he tries to sit near me or even try to touch me, Claire bites him and lays on top of me :P I think it's hilarious. A couple weeks ago she bit him pretty good. Opie doesn't bite, he growls and does it big time if Anthony comes near me. My doggies love their momma :P I'm the bone getter LOL.

Okay guys and gals Have a wonderful Saturday :) Early bedtime tonight YEE HAW!!
LOve,
D

Happy Friday

Been a busy, busy week. I'm tired. I officially have a head cold and sneezing and coughing. I'm also tired. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
Boys are having a blast!
They will be home tomorrow, I'm sure they will be sad.
Okay, not much more to update.
Have a wonderful weekend.
Happy Friday
Love,
D

Owoooooo!

Somehow all my pics mysteriously disappeared, when I did recovery, I found a bunch of old pics. This one below is me in the 80s OOf! It has water damage from when the house burned down, but Owooooooo!!! What is with that freaking hair? You ever wonder what you were thinking?

Not much going on, was a busy day today. I'm soooooo sleepy. Had a dizzy spell tonight. They are getting alot better, but I realized tonight that 1 stinking virus has taken 1/4 of my year. Bastard. I'm to the frustration point with it. Not dizzy every day, but it comes every 3 days or so, not all day but enough to tork me off.
Boys are doing excellent and having a wonderful time. Their Uncle comes in tomorrow and I am sure they will have a blast. He's a pretty funny guy. Little Juan isn't even homesick which suprises me.

Shocker!

Mom went to the Extreme Home Makeover by herself and got to take "Move that bus"
LOL she said she was with old ladies, made me LOL

Happy Wednesday, it's trash day!

Love,
D~Argh........Ahoy matey!

It's Tuesday, I have a massive headache.

I'm stressed. Plain and simple I'm stressed. I'm shaking stressed. Let's move on.........

Last night Juan got to meet his dad. We went and met up at Steak N Shake. I think we laughed the whole entire time. Was alot of fun. Little Juan was nervous, but I think he really, really liked his dad. We caught up on old times and filled in some stuff on the years. Had fun. I think he may think we are all nuts now LOL, we were pretty silly. They are meeting up with him today and spending the rest of the week with him. Thursday at some point I want to try to see him being his birthday and all. Also will share some pics later.

Speaking of pics, we have moved the couch out of the living room to make way for Christmas stuff. Well, Opie and Claire have fought over the love seat over and over. They growl and bite, everything over this stupid love seat. Yesterday they found a comfortable medium LOL pic below.....Also a couple of pics I found, Savannah took. :) You can't see her very well cause she is leaning to click the camera and then one of me she took. Maybe she will follow in my footsteps :)
Here's my puppies learning to share

Here's me n Vannah and just me Vannah snapping



Happy Tuesday, I'm going to go be stressed.
Have a nice day
Love,
D

Monday

What does this Monday bring? Lots of things. Today or Tomorrow, my son is basically meeting his father for the first time ever. We left right when Juan was 2 and he will be 13 on Thursday. So in reality, they are meeting for the first time. He is nervous and scared, as is big Juan I am sure. I'm a little nervous, not as bad as I thought I would be. I'm more nervous for my son, with his anxiety attacks and such, I know being away from home for that long is going to be hard on him, but he needs this. I am going to take some pics of them and I will be sure to post and will keep you all updated as things unfold. It's very exciting in some ways. I hope it will be a special time for the both of them and I'm very happy.
Big Juan has been in Iraq for awhile and I'm sure that puts a new perspective on how things really are and what's important. So I hope they have fun.

The Kyle and I argument died way down. We both have been walking on eggshells to avoid any kind of repeat of Friday. He apologized profusely and I accepted the apology , but I am still extremely angry and hurt at the things that were said. When my brain is quiet, face it which isn't often, they ring in my head like a tape recorder going over and over. I want it to stop because I don't want to ever believe those things about myself. All weekend I was emotionally drained. I was tired, went to bed early, slept late. I got my house all cleaned up, took every bit of energy I had.

I got all my test results back, no heavy metals............Cept Bon Jovi!! HE lives on inside everyone!! :P My B12 and Folic acid were perfect butttttt my iron stores were very, very depleted. So he increased my iron yet again. Owoooooooo STOP THAT!!
Friday I mopped the floor and seriously felt like I was going to pass out, today I was able to get up, clean mop 4 rooms with no dizziness. I am still drained though, both emotionally and physically. I have no strength left mentally and I'm not sure I have ever in my life felt that way. I don't know what to do, what to say, what to feel. I really don't know anything right now. Just that I'm tired.

Happy Monday, I will keep all updated
Love,
D