Thursday, March 26, 2009

Grrrr Grrr Grrrrrrrr

You know sometimes I wonder why when it rains, it pours. I can't quite figure out the logic behind that but it is true.
I'm angry this morning.
Okay....... Lets see where to begin....
First off, Asshat and I as you know recently split households up. Savannah was going to dance and we rearranged her custody and asshat said when dance was over we would arrange it back........ Dance wasn't over, but ....... she had to quit and asshat won't fix it back..
Okay, the dance issue...Savannah told me something happened at dance. Something involving an older boy.......She was crying, upset, didn't want to go back.... We then spent time with detectives, etc......
My asshat ex husband doesn't believe her. The lady told me she needs therapy,because she won't tell them what happened and she needs alot of time and someone she can trust to talk to. Savannah still insists something happened. But asshat says this morning he can't afford it and he doesnt think she needs it cause she is "normal" This is the idiot who still wanted to force her into going to dance.... Pretty sad, not taking something like that seriously. He said "Lets take her back and see how she acts around him" Okay..... Real smart asshat... Then he tries to say she said it cause I hate dance.... I have no clue where he got the idea I hated dance. I used to take her every Saturday and watch her, I loved it and I loved going.. I only stopped going because his mother was paying for it all and everytime we got in the car an arguement started, so I figured since his mom was covering the bill of it all, he's the one that should take her. I said I hated dance ONCE and once only. I actually thought she was very good at it and was proud of her... but you know, he's got to have a story to tell his family... They know NOTHING about what happened in our household. He only tells them I played computer.... LOL boy would their hair curl if they knew everything that went on. Bet he didn't tell them about the time he burst into my room at 4:30 in the morning screaming at me to take a picture of his winky for his website........ I bet they never heard about any of what he said that night.. I'm so freaking pissed off......It's unfreaking real.
Then again i forget this is the asshat who held my son up against the wall by his neck choking him a few time, til savannahs screaming stop it made him stop....... an asshat is an asshat.... Also the same asshat who shoved me down the hall way and screamed at me til I was curled up in a fetal position begging him to stop.... why would he believe anything happened to savannah??
It it walks like an asshat and talks like an asshat.........
So then Savannah comes over on Tuesday, I was sooooooo glad to see her. What does she say? I didnt want to come over here, daddy said i can call him every minute.... so she screams to call him. I sit down to play with her, she screams and screams to call him because "GASP" I don't have anyone to play with here and can't take her out to texas roadhouse like asshat does. Asshats girlfriend has kids, so he has them come over to play or takes them to his mothers and sisters for free entertainment.... Okay so we play a bit, make dinner, do some gardening, go walking and we get home she gets in the tub. I sit down for 5 seconds and she starts screaming because I sit down.... So I give up and just go to bed. Then I pick her up yesterday I had plans to sit down with her , eat dinner, watch American Idol with her, etc.......... What does asshat do?? Sends her a text about the cats playing etc after he told her her cheering makes them win....... So we had made cookies, we ate dinner together. I told her Maddie couldnt come over, I wanted to just spend time with her and when people are around, she's not with me..........So she screams at me she wants to call daddy..........She calls him and starts screaming to him that OMG I didn't let her watch the cats play on TV i was making her watch something else. WTF does he have to interfere with my time with her.... so I turn the game on where she starts screaming like a rabid pit bull at the TV (gee wonder who does that) I mean screaming loud (gee wonder who does that) ... I try to have her do kid things and noooo she wants no part, she has to help the cats win... @@ So finally I get her to play princess monopoly with me, where Claire decided she wanted to play too... she stretched out all over the board... and we finally some how got through a game... She wanted to call asshat again and tell on claire, but I told her no, no calling. So then we play Yahtzee for a bit, she's finally getting back to a normal kid and laughing and playing and having fun... then the cats lose and she gets upset..... I just wanted to crawl in a hole because she is changing into a child that I don't know. He's playing headgames with her just to get me back cause I didn't love him... Who could ever love an asshat? Not to mention had he not abused my boys, maybe we'd still be together.... He needs to make a mental note, that calling wifes other children, retarded and stupid and then choking them against a wall are bad things to do. But it was my fault, so make me pay by playing head games with a 6 year old. Then arguing that she doesn't need counseling because in his world, no body does bad things to children...it's all hunky and dory and I wouldn't be suprised if he tried to take her to the recital and be around the boy again. Because why?? Asshats don't have brains.
Im very angry at him. Moreso angry than anyone I have been at in my life. I think he's a horrible person and seeing what he did to my kids. Anthony said the other day "Kyle took me off his facebook"... i said anthony did you expect any different... He said no he never did like me anyways. So ........ Good job father of the year asshat...
GRRRRRRRRRRRRR

5 comments:

Mandy said...

Ugh Di I'm so sorry. Is he providing Savannah with any insurance? Maybe call around to some churches and explain the situation and see if you can just take the counseling in your hands, and maybe find some assistance, or free counseling. I'd also talk to Whoever is in charge of the case. See what they recommend. If free/reduced counseling isn't an option, maybe you can take him to court and have a court order for him to pay? Bless her heart, she needs it! Mega hugs girlfriend!

Mindy said...

Yeah, I agree with Mandy about church counseling. Oh, Di, I am so sorry. I am in a little of the same situation, not quite as bad, but, I know one thing. Your daughter absolutely NEEDS to be believed. 100% needs it. I am praying for her and for you and for the whole situation.

Gloria said...

Too bad that beautiful little girl now feels like she has to take care of a frigin basketball team too. Their loss should not be on her shoulders. She already feels she has to take care of daddy, because "he's soooo sad when she leaves." (give me a break) She should just be allowed to be a little girl. I'm pissed about the boys, I was told he was "trying to provide a good home for the boys. . . OH .. Oh and and don't know where the boys would be without him." Answer: Better off - that's for sure. My heart aches for that little girl and those boys - badly. Enough said on that situation.

Melzie said...

heartbreaking di I wish I had something good to say but I don't :( loves to you xoxo

Carie said...

if you call around there are different organizations that will help the children with free counseling...also talk to the judge or whoever it is handling the divorce, your daughter went through something that she needs to talk about, and by him constantly saying its nothing its gonna make her shut down even more, what an asshat!!! I am so sorry for everything he has put you and the boys through, and I am beyond sorry that he is playing such crappy games with your babies mind...if you need any help with any of it just let me know