Ahoy there! Happy Monday!

Haven't updated in a bit, but then again not much has changed. Hope everyone had a fantastic Thanksgiving. I had a wonderful relaxing week! Getting ready to head to the gym in a bit. Happy Monday!

Love,
Di

been goneeeeeeee

i had like 1000 emails a day for comment spam and it was filling up my email box causing me to get tos violations.......so hopefully they are done sending me bingo spam..... it was all on my mall walker post. i deleted a bunch but haven't gotten to the rest.

xo xo
di

its friday

days been going pretty good so far, so yay on that =)

kids will all be gone this weekend, so I will have to find something to do. i could just be lazy n do nothing tho.....but i think id rather get out of this house.

hope everyone has a great weekend

Love,
me

Empathy

Empathy, which literally translates as 'in feeling', is the capability to share another being's emotions and feelings.

Empathy, which literally translates as 'in feeling', is the capability to share another being's emotions and feelings.

Empathy, which literally translates as 'in feeling', is the capability to share another being's emotions and feelings.

Empathy, which literally translates as 'in feeling', is the capability to share another being's emotions and feelings.

Empathy, which literally translates as 'in feeling', is the capability to share another being's emotions and feelings.

Empathy, which literally translates as 'in feeling', is the capability to share another being's emotions and feelings.

I can sit here and write that til the cows come home, but some narcissistic people won't get it.


Empathy try it on for size......


Love,
Dianna

it's monday

argh. the weekend was long. partly because the kids were off school thursday, friday.... anthony was sick, i wasn't feeling good at all. the stuff the dentist did, hurt very badly all weekend, i had a sore throat and a cough. i had no money to do anything and savannah was bored. i felt bad, but did what i could. yesterday we had our movie day at moms and ate ice cream sundaes and watched movies. not much i could do........bills, but they are all paid, thank God.

yesterday, i didn't feel real well was sad. a good friend and i talked in depth last night about alot of things. he made me see alot of things i don't see. was nice to just talk and get good sound advice. i have a lot of good friends. i'm extremely lucky on that front.

hmmm claire chewed up about 20 dum dum suckers and has sticks stuck in her fur, so i'm guessing a bath for her is on the agenda.

kids are all back to school. im cleaning.

=)

happy monday.
Love,
di

It's Tuesday and.......

I don't care anymore.....

Well you can tell ev'ryone I'm a damned disgrace
(Slander)Drag my name all over the place.
I don't care anymore.
You can tell ev'rybody 'bout the state I'm in
You won't catch me crying 'cos I just can't win.
I don't care anymore I don't care anymore

I don't care what you say
I don't play the same games you play.

'Cos I've been talking to the people that you call your friends
And it seems to me there's a means to an end.
They don't care anymore.
And as for me I can sit here and bide my time
I got nothing to lose if I speak my mind.
I don't care anymore I don't care no more

I don't care what you say
We never played by the same rules anyway.

I won't be there anymore
Get out of my way
Let me by
I got better things to do with my time
I don't care anymore I don't care anymore
I don't care anymore I don't care anymore

Well, I don't care now what you say
'Cos ev'ry day I'm feeling fine with myself
And I don't care now what you say
Hey I'll do alright by myself
'Cos I know.

'Cos I remember all the times I tried so hard
And you laughed in my face 'cos you held all the cards.
I don't care anymore.
And I really ain't bothered what you think of me
'Cos all I want of you is just to let me be.
I don't care anymore D'you hear? I don't care no more

I don't care what you say
I never did believe you much anyway.

I won't be there no more
So get out of my way.
Let me by
I got better things to do with my time
I don't care anymore
D'you hear? I don't care anymore
I don't care no more
You listening? I don't care no more
No more
You know I don't care no more
no more no more no more....


=)
Love,
Di

Monday

Ah, it's Monday!!!!! Anthony and Juan are home from school today. Anthony has had a pretty good fever, aching and coughing. Juans achy.
Been going to the gym every day again, gonna try to go again today. My friend was there yesterday and I really needed to see them yesterday and we talked for over an hour. Was extremely nice =)
I didn't have any arguing this weekend. If I thought I was going to be snippy w. anyone I either went to the gym or just laid in bed and talked on the phone. This weekend I just couldn't handle stress or any sort of conflict, so avoidance worked. YAY!!
Kyle was nice enough to bring Savannah to my moms on Halloween so I could trick or treat w her some. Was very nice. She's adorable.
Was alone Saturday night, was kinda scared alone that late at night on Halloween. I had watched Ghost Hunters all evening and some of them, even though I had seen them, scare me.
Spending alot of time alone I'm learning alot about myself. I'm not as bad as I used to think as in worthless. It's people who can't get me to be what they want me to be who have problems with me. Or when I won't do something they want, or if I form my own opinion. I know Karma bites ya in the rear, it has gotten me a few times. But I noticed when I do good things, good things come back to me in ten fold.
I read this bible verse alot. A whole lot, it hangs by my bed. I finally got it.

“Love is patient; love is kind
and envies no one.
Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
never selfish, not quick to take offense.
There is nothing love cannot face;
there is no limit to its faith,
its hope, and endurance.
In a word, there are three things
that last forever: faith, hope, and love;
but the greatest of them all is love.”

If those things are not present in a relationship or you can't apply that in some way to your relationship, then there is no love.

Happy Monday
Love,
Dianna

Nobody's home

Well I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, whats wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go, to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you've left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go, to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's falling from grace.
She's all over the place!
Yeah!! (yeah)


She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go, to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside.oh oh
She's lost inside, lost inside.oh oh
Ohhh...

A little something

For all the mean people in my life =)

"Beginning today, treat everyone you meet as if they were going to be dead by midnight. Extend to them all the care, kindness and understanding you can muster, and do it with no thought of any reward. Your life will never be the same again."- Og Mandino

"If we cannot be clever, we can always be kind."- Alfred Fripp

"Constant kindness can accomplish much. As the sun makes ice melt, kindness causes misunderstanding, mistrust, and hostility to evaporate."- Albert Schweitzer

"The only way to tell the truth is to speak with kindness. Only the words of a loving man can be heard."- Henry David Thoreau

"There is one word which may serve as a rule of practice for all one's life - reciprocity."- Confucius

I Started out to vent. The last week, I have dealt with quite a few very selfish individuals. They only care about themselves and then punish others if they go against what they want. If their needs can't be met etc. etc. I used to cry, but now I consider the source of these people. Don't talk to me, ignore me and please do me a favor and wash your hands of ME and I'll reciprocate. Punishing me, ignoring me etc, I left it behind in grade school.

Get a life and get a clue people and try nice on every once in awhile.

Hmph

Happy Tuesday. I need to be doing 1,000 things because my week is so crammed full but I have no get up and go. It got up and went ..... Just gotta find it. Loving the fall weather, but hating the rain. Seems like the sun is a rarity lately.

Okay, if I'm restricting my comments to the weather I am in fact BORED LOL, that i think gave me my get up and go to get up and get some stuff done.

Happy Tuesday

xo xo

Dianna

It's Wednesday YAY!

I'm a bit tired cause I stayed up later than normal but all is good.

Get to get out of the house today YAY! Keep my mind from thinking. Got alot on my mind. Tired of playing petty stupid games (mental) with people. Well, they play them and I then have to adjust to them. But.........Some good news... with every game I'm a lil more done than the last time, so all is good. As my mom called it, death by attrition I think it was.....It's happening.
I'm not in high school anymore, so the game thing is lame.
Entertaining somewhat but lame.
LOL I grew up with the best mental gamer ever LOL!

People like that play the games to compensate for things that they lack in themselves. Therefore it's some sort of sick gratification in hurting another. Whether they are jealous in some way, or they just want to keep the person from being something better than they are . My friend Chris told me a few mos ago......."If you didn't have someone constantly trying to keep a cap on you, the world would be the limit for you. Take the cap off and let yourself reach what you are. I believe in you."

I didn't get that for awhile, but now I do. Sometimes when i want to take a pic or something, I say "You know I'm not good enough", "What does it matter, I'll never amount to anything" "those aren't very good" But those are things others have said. I guess the cap that Chris talked about.......their words hold me back. Funny thing is I never hear the people who encourage me. Those are the ones I need to start listening too. It's just easier to believe the nay sayers. But then again that's a problem with themselves and really what good can ever come by constantly criticizing others. It may make you temporarily feel good but over all..........Epic Fail.

The Wizard of Oz sums it all up the best........

"A heart is not judged by how much you love; but by how much you are loved by others. "

And I have alot of people and then some that think the world of me =) and love me.

Happy Wednesday!
It's trash day!

=P
Love,
Me

It's Tuesday!

YAY! Kiddies go back to school tomorrow! Been kinda nice havin them around. Went to sleep yesterday a lil after 7..........was so bored and so lonely. One of my good friends has been texting me and calling me alot when I say I'm lonely, so that's really good. He's a big sweetheart and it's nice he always checks on me.
I still feel lonely lol but it does help. Hanging out with baby E helps in that dept. alot too. It gets me out of the house.

I gotta go to moms this morning and then I'm heading to the gym. I love working out and seeing my friends over there. Really good people. I think the gym is one of my favorite places on this earth. Weird thing to say, but I love it there.

Not much else of nothing going on. Thinking alot about things in the past. Things I wish I would've done differently. People I wish I would've never told goodbye. People I wish I would've never said hello to.......Things I wish I would've just done. How much time I have wasted on things and people that really aren't worth anything. How much time I have spent crying over people and things that aren't worth it. I guess reflection of sorts. But its healthy and helping me move forward. Which is never the wrong direction. I thought I would have alot more regrets, but I don't. I do have some. Some big ones..........My mistakes. I learn.

Aside from having my kids, if I was allowed one do over....Would be June 6th(not of this year) =) Best time I have ever had in my life.....Unforgettable =)
You want me to queen fo you? lol!

Happy Day
Love,
Dianna

Happy October!!!!!!!!

Having a very good week! YAY!!
I'm starting to come to know myself and starting to deal with alot of stuff.
I have decided to put myself first =)
I'm trying to figure out how people work and basically have decided to adapt a give what you get attitude. So I'll give exactly what I get =)
Makes things easier for me.

I'm tired of giving and getting nothing but crap.
(this excludes all my close family and friends cause they are the best ever)

I'm in such a good mood. De fleaing the dogs, cleaning, getting stuff together for moms neighborhood yardsale......It's a fantastic day.

Happy October.

YAY!

Heading off to the gym. Meeting a friend there I have worked out with in the past. The sinus infection is fading, thank the Lord and I'm getting more energy!!
=)
Happy Friday!
Love,
Me

For once

I'm not unhappy. This past week something changed in me. I'm not sure what. I just find myself very happy. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my house. I love sitting on the swing reading, I love my quiet bedroom, I just love it here. I love the no fighting I love the kids being happy. Kyle said this morning when he picked Savannah up that he hadn't heard Juan that happy in years.
Everything is slowly working out.

=) I'm just loving it!

I snuck off to the store, bought me some more gluten free brownies, baking them now, hiding any trace I ever made them at all and I'm going to hide them and eat one a day =) YAY!

Okay, have a fantastic day. I know I will

Love,
Dianna

Howdy on a Tuesday

Been cleaning ALL Day gag. Just finished, took a long hot shower and sitting down to relax before I have to go and pick up the boys. I packed up alot of stuff that didn't mean anything anymore, washed blankets and covers, washed windows..... I really did alot.
I even cleaned out my email box lol! Deleted emails I was saving for one reason or another. I just needed to throw them out and clean out my life, my house etc etc.
What a better way than to just to get rid of it! =)
Feels good to get alot accomplished. Trying to figure out what I wanna do for dinner. Bad part is, I don't wanna create dishes. I just got everything done. So I need think on this one.
My mom had a big August Birthday party the other day. I absolutley love her neighbors. I can't tell you all enough how wonderful this group of people is. It's like an extended family.
I was feeling low because my birthday was awful. Even if it wasn't my birthday on that day, it would've been a bad day. So I was down. In walks Quint with a huge pan of Gluten free brownies and cookies and a HUGE vase of flowers and a card just for me. I really was touched and it took alot not to cry.
I didn't expect it. It was wonderful.
We are planning an all adult party soon YAY!! =) This Sunday is another get together. I just have the best time around them, laughing and talking. Just the nicest bunch of people you ever did meet.
The world needs more of them.
Have had the radio on allllllll day long. I'm so happy today and I love life so much today. Just one of those fantastic days that is so good I don't want it to end.

=)
Happy Tuesday Everyone.
Love,
Dianna

Been awhile

A long, long while.
Not much been happening lately. Having a real struggle finding out who and what I want to be in life.
The summer went by fast.
I'm changing alot.
Last fall, I was so happy and full of hope
One year later I just find myself beaten down and full of nothing.
Completely and utterly lost.

The boys are going to Journey tomorrow with my brother.

I'm going to go clean.

Hope all is well.

I post more on facebook than I do here, let me know if you have a facebook.

Love,
Me.

Been Awhile

Since I have updated. I guess the more things change, the more things stay the same....

Happy Wednesday!!

YAY!! =)
Woke up in a fantastic mood.
Slept awesome!! A good friend of mine called at 2 am (i think) unless it was a dream. I remember talking about a subject, I should check my phone to see if it was a dream of if they did indeed call. I must've been sleeping heavily either way!! Hope I was well behaved and didn't sleep talk. That would be bad!!
Everything is going great here!! Working out every day. I have such a good time at the gym. Juans hooked up w hot guy to work out yesterday, he is getting built!! Melzie I'll show you some pics later. He's really getting buff!!
So, I'm gonna work out before I get Savannah that way I can goof off without worrying about daycare hours.
Then I guess it's off to moms for swimming =)
YAY!!!
Okay, have a wonderful day everyone
It's indeed a good one here =)
Love
me

Happy Tuesday =)

Having a wonderful day =)
Hope all you are too......... off to the gym =)

Enjoy your day!!