Sunday Night!!

ZZZZZZZZ Been staying up late playin TT. Nice to be back with all my old friends. I have a cold GRRRRR imagine that!! Got a dentist appt in the morning. Don't wanna go. I'm skeeeeeeeeeered. It's a long one. I Just wanna be done with dentists. Savannah's still got the same cold, it's easing up a tad. Boys have been a lil better. Dogs are dogging...That's about it!! :) Hope everyone is well!!
Miss and love everyones!!
Di

Hi hi

Happy Friday!
Everythings okay for now.
Happy Friday!!
I'll update more this weekend
Love
Dianna

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

OMG NEVER EVER A DULL MOMENT.........
Somehow some weasley person or internet company......God only knows who or what, so far I have gotten 2 on my bank statements have gotten my credit card numbers. I even did a credit report on myself evidentally @@ Account overdrawn, first time I'm thinking okay accident. Okay overdrawn again, Im thinking WTF I don't go anywhere????????????? So I put more money in and OMG Overdraft again. We aren't talking 15, 20 bucks we are talking 100(bank fees for each one) or so an overdraft. So this morning (hungry lets go to store big fat NO) I call OVERDRAFT again??????????????? So I call the bank and OMG So many businesses online that I have no clue what they are are billing 19.95, 39.95...a pop over and over to my card. Some of them I was able to get a hold of and cancel. Some aren't a reputable working number OMGGGGGGGGGG so I have to go into the bank in a few minutes to file an affidavit on these charges, they closed my account and OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG some of this money I won't get back. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR I try to keep this blog PG but FUCK FUCK FUCK
**** Back from bank. I filed affidavit, they are sending it all to their fraud department to track what happened and get "Some" of my money back. Juan has been suspended from school............. and people wonder why I'm depressed. Any questions now as to why?

My Melzie

I think I have blogged about my friend Melzie before....Her monologue is to the right......I have to just blog on her again.... I met her when I was pregnant with Savannah on an AOL message board. She was pregnant with John. We slowly started a friendship that has been strong for over 6 years now. She has come to my house a couple times and we have met....
Today when I am full of tears and crying and just feel like if I left this earth who would notice and who would care... She knows exactly what to say to me, she is my one bright light in so much dark. God sends us what we need at the right times and I'm for certain I'm not sure what I have done to deserve her. Her cards, her funny emails. She is just this gift that I get every single day of my life and frankly I don't know what I would do without her. She prays for me all the time, and to me that is the best gift you can give to someone. I call her my God connection. She is having such a hard time in her life and she has so much faith. I can see it in her sometimes that she wonders why this is happening or why that is happening but she keeps that faith. I can not tell you guys how much I truly, truly love her. She is my best friend on this earth. I wish she lived closer. In almost 7 years I don't even think we have even ever argued. So while things are so bad today and I was crying out of sadness, I get emails from her and my sadness goes straight to love for one of the very best women on this earth.
She like myself doesn't have much to give material wise, but she gives the most of herself. Something I'd rather have. Those who have the least give the most.
I love you my Melzie Welzie.
My BFF
:)

Hmm can things be worse?? You bet!!

Lets see Savannah still sick YES
Juan refusing to go to school, having to be drug in, lots of ruckus, have no clue if he's in school or left like he said he was going to.
Can't go get him cause I have no gas in my car and my brakes are gone.
I don't understand why things aren't easy.
It's not like I expect this life where picket fences are all around and hubby pulls up in a station wagon and all the kids run behind the car chasing it down, dogs barking etc.
My life is dark, a marriage in the toilet, arguing at every turn with everyone, dogs running all over the house, kids running every which way, talking back, hitting, depression. Severe deep depression from almost all of us. Sickness, sick, sick. No one knows what to do to get out of any of this. How do you clean up a complete disaster area? Things are absolutely horrible in our house. Drop by for a visit sometime, you can feel it. I can guarantee you will want to leave soon after. Don't worry, none of us much like it here either. But we are stuck.

Happy Easter

Happy Easter.........Wouldn't you know it, Savannah just finished her antibiotics and is sick again. No I am not joking. Real runny nose, stomach ache............ I can't take anymore. Just can't. It's never ending. Never, ever, ever ending. Going to memaws at 11 then coming home and trying to get her well. She can't miss anymore school. Boys are still in Alabama. I'm exhausted. Not much else to report other than UGH I can't believe she is sick again. When she woke up in the middle of the night whining and crying I thought for sure I was dreaming. GRRRRRRRRR.
Happy Easter
Love,
Di

Saturday

Homeeeeee! HOME!! Been staying at moms, just got home today. Missed my puppies something fierce. Cleaned up my house. Savannah had to go to a birthday party, was a nice gig at strike and spare. Thinking about having her party there. Was very nice. Kids had fun. Um I came home and cleaned more. Gonna dye eggs in a bit and then go to bed.
Happy Saturday
Love,
Di
I'm Back at my Puter!!!!!!! YAY!!

TGIF!!

Owoooo Happy Friday!!!! Got up way too early this morning and sat on the couch this afternoon, poof I was gone. Naps are the best thing on this earth.
Haven't heard anything on Sue at all. No one answers anywhere. So if I find out anything I will pass it on.

Not much else really to report, all is good I guess.

Happy Friday
Love,
Di

WOO HOO Peep Show on Di's blog!!!

Thursday

This blog entry is for the fam...Aunt Sue has had a heart attack, I just found out myself. She's okay, having tests today. She's in Jewish, which one I don't know. Keep her in your prayers.
Love,
Di

What day is it? Wednesday?

I'm still half asleep. Kyle was not in a good mood this morning and all that yelling and arguing at 7 am when I am still asleep. Not good. Sets the whole tone for the day. Juan didn't get out of bed, I hear banging so loud on his door, I bet the neighbors heard it. I was like WTF. Then ugh everyone in the house complaining, fighting and I just sit in a chair thinking ????????? By the end of the day we will have had 6 inches of rain. Everythings flooded. I am so sick of rain. I need sunshine. Boys leave tomorrow. Um not much else to say. Nothing at all going on.
It's trash day.
Happy Wednesday.
Be happy, anger is overrated.
Love,
Di

Yo, it's Tuesday!!

Owooooooo!! It's raining ........... story of my life lately. I'm so sick of rain and mud and muck. I want sunshine. Big, big sunshine and warm weather. I'm tired of mopping my floors everytime dogs go in and out.
Savannah comes home yesterday in absolute hysterics. Sobbing and sobbing.... I get her calm and ask her what's wrong and she starts saying "Alissa is leaving, shes moving" So cry, cry, cry over this girl moving. I felt so bad for her. We get to the bus stop there and Alissa is there and Savannah said "I thought you were moving" and gave her a huge hug. Come to find out they are going out of town for the Easter weekend. LOL
Fast fwd.... Juan was outside yesterday. Wouldn't go and get some boys shirt for him so the kid threatens to kick his, Chris and Patrick's butts. Fast fwd the kid comes after them with a baseball bat and a knife. Why can't it be like Leave it to Beaver days where they duke it out with fists? Why the bat and the knives? Never a dull moment. We think it's worked out. But still going to drop him off and pick him up. Boys are going to Alabama this weekend.
Um, that's about it really.
Rain, rain go away!!!!!!!
Happy Tuesday
Love,
Di

Sunday

Not much going on. Party thing earlier. Came home..........stuff stressful stuff........ fast fwd to me..... drained. Fed up with people. Fed up with moody people. Fed up with everything. Just about ready to walk away.....I try to figure out why people act the way they do. I can't. Today drained me... You non anxious people have no clue how draining anxiety is. Consider yourself lucky. You know one thing I can't figure out about people? Why is it that people can really say nasty hateful things behind someones back, but yet act all sweet and nice to them. If you are going to say something behind someones back at least have the audacity to say it to their face. I never say anything about anyone that I can't say directly to them.
Oh a funny in all my blah, I forgot to tell you guys about my dentist appt thing. They are so funny. They wanted me to go with silver cause it was stronger and what nots but for cosmetic reasons I insisted that they go with the porcelain. They strongly advised against it but ....listened to my requests. When they finished they were making the sign of the cross over and over and he was fixing to bless me with the dental squirter. I about peed my pants from laughing so hard. Had he actually done it, I would have rolled. Funny stuff!! They are fantastic people.
Okay, I'm going to go to bed..........I would say going to try to figure out people but I think that's a moot point.
Sunday.
Love,
Di

Happy Saturday :)

I tried to update earlier, but it wouldnt let me. Brat!!
Happy Saturday!!!
Love
Di

Home

From dentist. Didn't take but 30 min. if even that. Worried all week and it was over in a blink of an eye. Wasted worry. My forte'. They had to go way above the gumline and did a number on my gums and after the Cabocaine wears off, I am going to feel it. He told me I would. I can take nothing for the pain either. Can't wait for that. Okay...That's about it.
Happy Friday
Love,
Di

Thursday

Not much going on. Been busy. Living room, spotless, kitchen spotless. Worked on laundry. Went outside and picked up some sticks and straightened up out there. Tomorrow is my dentist appt. I prided myself on doing so good on the other ones and I should know I'm scared about tomorrows. I have to go. I just ugh. I'll live I'm sure. Just nerves. Savannah's back to school today. I miss her. I enjoyed having her home. She truly melts my heart. She has read me a plethera of books this week. I love it. Going to go to bed early tonight. Bask in my clean house. Working on Savannah's/my room LOL right now. Fun fun. Sheets changed and bed made. Doing the floor in a few. Just needed a break. Oh!!!!! I got my blood work back my iron is..............11.9!!!!!!! Perfectly normal!! My iron stores are still low, but they are higher than last time and are building. So :) YAY!
That made my day. See mom I HAVE Been taking my iron!!
Happy Thursday
LOve
Di

Wednesday

Happy Wednesday. Feeling somewhat better about things today. Dizzy today which scares me to death about going to dentist on Friday. Life would be so much easier with no dizzy. :( Savannah's home from school today. Feeling somewhat better, but her ear is still hurting her. Juan went to school, but missed his bus. This is exactly what happened at the beginning of the year, I can't handle another bout of that. I can't do it. That's about it.
It's Wednesday.
Trash day.
LOve,
Di

Savannah Sleeps

She has been sick for over a week now and just falls asleep anywhere! Her Dr appt went good, she has an ear infection of course and sinus infection. More antibiotics. Here are some ways she has slept this week LOL

Good morning? NO

Savannah up all night screaming with ear pain- Of course
Juan calling from school, throat hurt and stomach hurt- Of course
Trying to keep my eyes open with tooth picks to figure out how to get him and take her to Dr at same time......
Her appt at 11:20 she has screamed and screamed and screamed.
I have a cold on top of it. We all just got over flu.
I can't even be depressed cause it's just unreal.
Happy tuesday.

An update to my BLAH post

Well, I went to dentist and since I got there early it's 100% patchable. No root canals, none of that stuffs. That made me happy. I'm still down. Sorry for my depressiveness. Just everything coming at me at once and I can't deal well. I will get over it soon enough. Just need some time and a break from bad things. The dentist was a start. Very nice. Had me a pillow ready when I got back there because of my dizziness :) Very compassionate for a sad girl LOL.