Really enjoying my summer. I can't remember the last time I was so happy. I'm out of the house all day, in the pool almost every day.
It's nice. I'm around people I love and people that are fun =)
Have been thinking lately about things I want and things I want to do with my life. God has put some dreams on my heart and pushing me a little bit to go after them.
I can't have the dreams I want, where I'm at right now.
I know wonderful things are on the other side of change, but I don't change much.
One thing God is doing is revealing what liars some people in my life are. I was so blind to that before, and He really has shown me. I wasn't shocked, just blind to it.
Now I laugh at the lies they tell.
I don't need/want people like that in my life.
I deserve so much better than I allow myself to have. I'm smart, I'm beautiful, funny, creative and have a really good heart.
I heard the other day someone who is supposed to love me called me a bitch. Of course not to my face. It would take courage to do that. Of course they get sympathy for everyone thinking they have to put up with such a tyrant.
I processed this for a few minutes and people only say that who don't know me. I think about the frustration in my life, think of the lies and garbage and being shoved behind everyone else. I think of the way I'm not appreciated for who I am and I think anyone, who puts up with what I do and doesn't kick a few of these people to the curb....isn't a bitch. She's a frustrated woman who's filled with anger and hurt. She couldn't be a bitch if all these people are still in her life.
One step closer today.
I'm worth it.