This week stinks

Sigh. I have had a few really annoying illnesses this past couple of weeks and I'm sad, frustrated and angry.

Chronic illness isn't any fun and it's really hard to get people to understand what you are going through.

It's funny because this morning I am struggling with dizziness again and I am pouring over my behavior as to what I have done now for God to punish me.

It's not a punishment, things just are.

I think about the thug next door, who is a seedy, evil spawn......Why isn't he dizzy? Mean people around me, why aren't they dizzy?

It all boils down to the "Why Me's?"

I have to keep telling myself that I am not being punished. God knew what He was getting when He chose me. This will pass.

I don't know what I can do to make things better. An air filter?? I tried that before, but the filters were almost as much as the air filter. I take allergy meds.......Maybe I should take them in the morning and the night?

I just want to be healthy. Have a healthy head and respiratory system....No inhalers, no pills. Have a healthy stomach, anything I put in my mouth makes me sick.

My appointment at the ENT is at 2 to have the epley manuever done. It doesn't take long, but the fear it produces while someone is holding your head down.......I just don't want to do it. I have to.

Fear stinks.

Have a great Wednesday.

Love,

Me

2 of my window critters =D

I need to catch the birdies, but I have gotten lucky catching these 2 so far =)

Love,

Me

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

I claim that verse on my life. The thing I want more than anything in this world is Love. God is making sure I know what it is.

Every single part of that verse He deals with me on sometime or another.

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Right now God is taking me through a couple more. The lucky 2 I get to deal with this season are self-seeking and easily angered.

I at one time wouldn't of pegged me for self-seeking, but I am being shown a lot of areas where I am very self-seeking. I watched JM about the very same thing and I watched the same episode a couple, few times.

I will go back and watch it a few more until I "get" it.

I love her "what about me?" segment she does and God has made sure that the right people are in my life to practice with. Oh boy did He ever!

I love how God keeps your eyes closed to things, until He wants you to deal with them, then it's like BLAM!

Oh and the easily angered..........Good grief.

Thank God for His never ending grace and forgiveness because my mouth alone would've been enough to get me nice and smited this month.

I am so grateful that I am forgiven. JM says that God already knows what comes out of your mouth before you said it. He knew what He was getting when He chose me.

He already knew =D

For that I am thankful.

I'm a work in progress and will be til the day I leave this earth.

The verses I have needed over the past couple of weeks and knew them without looking them up...I had to look the numbers up, but knew the verses =D (Go me!)

God disciplines those He loves Hebrews 12:6

You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye. Matthew 7:5

Don't repay evil for evil. Don't retaliate with insults when people insult you. Instead, pay them back with a blessing. That is what God has called you to do, and he will bless you for it. 1 Peter 3:9

These have been HARDDDDDDDDDDD For me, but I KNEW Them =)

I think I'm finally moving up from a baby Christian to a child =) LOL

Love,

Me

I've kinda

lost my blogging rhythm as of late. Haven't been getting on the computer too much =)

My window still has busy things going by it =). My skink and yes I laid claims to the skink, well he stopped to sunbathe right outside my window!! I was so excited to see him for an extended period of time.

My yard is coming to life again and it's so nice! I don't think much more could make me happier unless I found a way to mow the grass myself, so I wouldn't have to fret over it every single week.

I have a bunch of black eyed susans coming up that my boyfriend planted last year and I think I'm most excited about seeing those again. Those are really one of my favorites. I remember driving down the highway once and saw them on the side of the road and I had to come home and research til I found out what they were!

My big night blooming jasmine is stressing me out a bit because she's so big and I have no idea what to do with her this winter. I would love it, if I could plant her in the ground and not have to worry about bringing her back in. My house is so small and she is a huge beastly thing.

I guess I'll love her again when she smells good.

Not much else to write cept spring is springing.

Love,

Me 8)