Tuesday, July 10, 2012

I can

do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Phillipians 4:13

I faked it, til I felt it.

I can't tell you when I'm at the gym, wondering what am I doing there, how many times I say this.

Today, when my legs felt like they could push no more and I wanted to quit. I tell God, "I can't do this"

I hear His voice in my head "Don't you dare quit, say it again."

I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me

I have struggled for awhile to find the positive side to my recent illness. Slowly, it's coming to light. I really am nothing and can do nothing without Christ.

I thought about that a lot when I was sick and laying in bed... how come I am a believer stuck in this bed and there are tons of bad people out there who don't believe and can at least work and get out of bed.

Like a bad record playing over and over again.

I'm not really sure that I have fully figured it out, but I know for myself that God needed to remind me that I am nothing without Him.

I watched a show yesterday and she talked about how God works through others to bless each of us. I am so blessed.

I may not have the biggest house in the world or have the fanciest of things, but I'm not unhappy. I am really blessed. I think about the hottest days we have ever had here and think how lucky I am because I got to sit in an air conditioned house.

That crosses my mind a lot lately. I have 2 pairs of shoes and in many parts of the world, they don't even have one.

I am very thankful for everything I have. I am very thankful for everything I am given and the people who give it to me.

I go without nothing. God truly takes care of me.

I get this Christian thing wrong a lot, but I am so in love with Jesus.

I talk to him every single night. He waits for me under our tree.

My heart just fills with love and flutters at the very thought of him.

Speaking of things I don't have to go without, I never have to go without him.

I can't relate to God on the scale that I can Jesus. I love God very much and think of Him as my father. I guess that's why He sent Jesus, to relate to us.

I am growing so much, I am learning I don't have to be a doormat, I'm learning that I don't have to be around people and things that make me uncomfortable.

I am learning to say no. I'm learning I can live without the things and people I never thought I could.

I guess I'm growing up.

It's late, I need to sleep. Was up pondering Jesus and how broken I am and how much he loves me anyway.

And how much I deeply love him.





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