What Have I Done?

I woke up from the dream that is my life and I am my own crown of thorns.

What the hell did I do?

What the hell did I throw away?

What the hell am I thinking?

I wish I wasn't so distant from God lately. I need so much help and my heart physically hurts.

Good grief, what did I do?

Sigh,

Love,

Me

God.......Help me.