Wednesday, January 11, 2012

It's Wednesday

Just got out of bed, passing time til I meet some people at the gym. So, I thought I'd bloggety blog.

I'm still in quite a mess. My weekend was horrible. One of the worst I have had in quite awhile. I still am not sure what to do about that mess.

I've changed a lot lately. In instances where I thought I was weak, I'm not. Situations and people I'd never thought I could live with out, I know I can. Changing like that and then applying it are two different things.

I know what I want out of life and I know where I sit currently I'm not going to get it. Therapy is helping me so much. Maybe it's because I'm applying what he says in most areas.

I was talking to a friend the other day and he says "Dianna, you can't open and know what is behind one door, unless you close the others."

This statement has stuck in my head since he said it. It's true. I'm just always afraid what's behind the new doors will be worse than what's behind the doors I already have.

I guess I just live life with too much fear. Right now too much anger and resentment at people.

So........I don't know what to do, but I'm closer than I was yesterday and tomorrow I'll be closer than I was today.

That's my hope and for the first time in a long time I have it!!

Things are going to be okay!



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