My First Backslide.....

Yea, yea, yea. I have heard over and over again this year about people backsliding as a Christian....So...There I go.

Going down the hills quicker than I can try to even claw my way up.

I screwed up majorly and now I'm seeing it. I don't know how to get myself out of this mess.

I'm so tired of people who use others. I'm so naive to think people have changed and well...while change does happen, it hasn't in this case.

I'm so stupid. Absolutely stupid.

I don't know how to fix any of this and I need to be asking God to help me out of this pit I put myself in, instead of blaming Him for putting me back in it.

My job is going well. I'm very busy and very good at what I do. =) I'm exhausted a lot because I work all the time......But, it's all a good thing.

Pray for me and pray for me to be able to close the door I opened yet again....The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results.

I keep hoping that the results are different.

They never are.

You know when people use others....it crushes their spirit. No matter what you use them for. Use them for your own happiness, use them to do something for you, use them to do things you don't want to do, use them as a fill-in when someone else can't be with you.

It's wrong to use people. Sometimes people just want to be wanted. Want someone to call them just because they wanted to hear their voice....


John 10:10....I know it by heart. The thief comes only to kill, steal and destroy.....I came so that we might have life and have it in abundance.

Grumble..I'm an idiot.

Love,

Me