A trip to Cavehill

Haven't been to Cave Hill Cemetery for about a year. Well, driving around I spotted 2 new graves. I was mesmerized at how beautiful they are, but also had to walk away after taking a couple of pictures because they are so sad. The love those families felt and having children myself........ God. The first picture is of a girl named Samantha. Right in front of her monument they have a bench that is eye level with the girl on the swing. Her scarf draped around her neck. God love her heart is all I can say. Beautiful, beautiful momument, put together with such love.....


Her tiny precious feet.


The next monument was of a girl named Brittany. She was 17. She was killed in a car accident and was a missionary. Devoted to helping children. A picture of her was on her grave and you look up and to your right, a life sized replica of her. Absolutely beautiful and taking care of children. Totally heartbreaking.



To collect myself, I walked over to a bench. It overlooked a grave....Sitting right next to the bench was the guys puppy dog. His ball in tow.........The dog would always watch over him. :(

A new found appreciation today for life......Totally overwhelmed by love....A good lesson learned today. Such beauty built on such pain..
Happy Sunday
Love,
Di

Happy Sunday!!

Going out today :) YAY! and YAY! and YAY!!!!! :)
Didn't sleep really well last night. But it's okay, been oversleeping. My camera is in tow for todays adventures. It was SUPPOSED to be sunny mind you, but of course it rained. I'm going downtown for a mini tour LOL and then maybe to cave hill for some pics. I dunno where I will end up. But glad to be going out!
Anywhoooo I am off, if i take any good pics or anything interesting happens I'll post.
love,
Di

Howdy!!

You guys have got to check out my photo blog. 2 of the cutest dogs ever on there :) love love love them!! My photo blog I don't think I could ever live without a dog. So sweet. Been a long day. Cooked out at moms, visited with Johnny and angie some. Took guitar hero over there and lol everyone was playing. The boys are staying all night over there. Juans hollering at me to send him the skateboarding pics i took of him, for his Myspace of course.

Happy Saturday Ya'll!!
Love,
Di

Dentist again

I should change my middle name to dentist. Had to go again this morning to have more work done on my tooth. Could not have gone any better at all. Went to the same dentist as I took Juan too. Extremely nice. Dog lovers LOL which is important ya know. It's all one family. I was not scared in the least. Nothing at all went wrong. I'm very sore in my jaws though. Having TMJ and arthritis on the right side and having to hold my jaws open for so long, really caused me some pain. I came home and laid in bed and slept. Not nearly as bad upon waking. So I'm glad.
American Idol is okay.......Love the cute lil 16 year old. Love love love him. The boy. Can't rem. his name but he's cute as a button.
Um.....LOST on tonight. 300 days or abouts til Christmas. For a Klondike bar......I would um....I dunno since I can't have them anyways!
Have a happy Thursday.
It's not trash day.
Love,
Di

Ugh what day is it?

Wednesday maybe? Juan had a dentist appt today to finish fixing his tooth. Was long, his toofs LOL was complicated, fragile, ugh just a mess. They almost had to send him to a specialist but got it worked out. They were finally able to get this metal reenforcement thing around it, so they could drill and such and fill it and it wouldn't fall apart. The metal thing really,really hurt him quite a bit. He had 100 Bluuued LOL When Anthony was little he told my mom once, something was bleeding or I can't remember exactly, she could probably tell you better than I, but he said he had 100 blood but said it bluuuuued LOL. I tried to take a nap, but can't. Stomach is killing me from the meds. I need to pick up some more acidophilus. It helps. Um...... lets see...Nothing else I suppose.
My toofs still has that medicine taste and it's starting to make me sick. takes like minty yuck. Have it finished on St. Patty's day!! YAY!!
Happy Wednesday.
It's trash day
Love,
Di

Hi hi!

Hi. What's been goin on? Hmm well my tooth is 100% better. I have come a LONG, LONG way in taking medicine. I am taking them and not fretting over it. Those who know me......know my big fear of medicine. So YAY!! Um... Savannah still is having stomach troubles. Not sure if it's nerves or what. Saturday night she threw up again, Sunday night, threw up..... Dunno what's going on.
Juan goes to the dentist in the morning to finish off his tooth. Then I gotta go. Gonna let mine rest a couple weeks before I go back.
Not really sure what else to say LOL. When my life isn't crazy, it's boring!! I settle for boring. LOVE boring :) bring it on!!
Happy whatever day it is, Tuesday.
Love,
Di

Bad night, bad morning

Last night I was at the bowling alley and was eating something and I bit into something extremely hard. Can't remember if it was the I was eating or what cause I was busy talking. All I remember next is a shooting pain go up the side of my head and I was like What the hell was that?
So, we bowl, have some fun, time goes on, my tooth is throbbing....but I'm distracted. Go to my cousins house and it really starts nagging more.
I get home last night and have some stress come up and I get pretty mad and clench my jaw very hard and at that point I felt a crack and was like OMG.
I start crying. Try to go to sleep. The pain wakes me up every hour on the hour. I cried probably most of the night. Wake up this morning, tried to look up dentists on the internet and could not even think I was in so much pain.
I call my mom crying and crying and God bless her heart, she went through the yellow pages and found me the most angelic dentist ever. I don't even remember how I got dressed or much about this morning.
The dentist because of my stupid disease and weak ass teeth has to do something to the effect of a root canal. Same thing Juan has to have done on his cause of the dreaded disease. I'm soooooooooooooooooo irritated with Celiacs. He told me that on all my back teeth that i use for chewing I should have them all reenforced with crowns. He's not sure if increasing my calcium will repair the weakness already done to my teeth. 1700 a tooth I vote NO, not right now. My front teeth are in excellent health and do not take the brunt force of the chewing so they are fine. Just the back ones. Wisdom teeth I'm just going to have pulled.
I am on very strong antibiotics because of my nerve exposure and food etc etc. Infection stuffs. I hate pills and medicines.
I'm extremely tired. My eyes hurt from the amount of crying I have done in the past 12 hrs. My tooth still has a dull ache in it. But the good news is, it didn't split all the way up. I was actually begging him to pull it, it hurt so bad. He said if we pull it you lose the 1800 bucks you just spent behind it. I was like Scratch that. After he numbed me I sung a different tune.
Relief.
Okay, keep me in your prayers. Mom and dad have been updated by phone, so I'm heading to bed and will say special prayers for a very patient and kind dentist. Also thank God for sending him my way.
Love,
Di

hi hi

been trying several times to make an update... not working. Geek blogger!

I updated my photo blogger with ice storm pics.

Not much else going on.

Happy Day!
Love,
di

Holy Crap

Holy Crap, There is supposedly a student with a gun or a man dressed like a student with a gun inside Anthonys school. They are on lockdown, I can not get him. Savannahs school sits right behind Anthonys, she is on a bus stuck in a Kroger parking lot they won't let me have her. The news says all is safe for now, but yet they just called in reenforcement........ I am shaking and shaking. I'm sure both kids are scared to death. They aren't letting parents up there because of the way the roads are and it's not safe. I hear helicopters buzzing and buzzing over my roof, you can hear sirens and UGH I just want my kids.
You guys have no clue how bad I'm shaking. All these crazy psycho shootings.

I'll update. The news is updating quite a bit too. www.wave3.com
Also on CNN national news

Keep them in your prayers and UGH I should've gotten Anthony minutes for his phone. At least I could text him or something. UGH

***********So the news comes on and says not to alarm anyone but a group of 7-10 police officers ran into the school with the weapons drawn. WTF Not to alarm anyone with a child in the freaking school?????????? It's an ex student they said. UGH the kids are in the classrooms, lights off, on the floor huddled together. Savannah has been shipped downtown to a school til this is over then they will bring her in town for pick up. UGH UGH UGH

**********Another semi update to the one above, A text from a kid coming out of the school said that police have caught 2 with guns.....something maybe was going to go down???????? I don't know how true that is, you know how a group of kids get together and rumors fly, but supposedly kid reliable. UGH News update on now brb

Okay this from the news, they had a press conference at the church for the parents. There was an ex student who was now going to a behavioral school.........He was in the school, he did have a gun, but they can not find him. They do not think he's in the school now, but can't find him. UGH But he was there with the intentions to settle a beef he had with someone. UGH Kudos to the girl who told.

The 2 who were caught evidentally were the 2 he was talking to in the cafeteria. Here's a link to the story confirming the brat was in the school with a gun. My head hurts and thanks to everyone who has kept me sane and calm this morning. Very hard to do. I just want my kids HOME
Police confirm Gun

If anyone is interested

I updated my photo blog, i still have a ton more stuff to add but could only finish 18 today. There are a ton more coming!!! But here are a few that I added on there

Di's photo

Tuesday

It's Tuesday, what can I say? I'm in a very foul mood. I'm tired and have been doing nothing but sleeping. Seems the more I sleep the more tired I become. Depression, flu????? Who knows. Savannah and Juan are both home sick still. I'm figuring about 5 more days til Savannahs ears get infected from this cold. Juan is running a fever and achey and stomach problems.
My favorite guy, Joel Olsteen is coming to Louisville. I am sooooooooooo excited about this. He is a TV preacher I had never in my life heard of. Well, one night in the middle of the night, I woke up out of a deep sleep. I heard him and usually when I hear TV preachers I get up and turn them over. Everything out of his mouth was like he was speaking directly to me. It happened again and again, always in the middle of the night, I would always wake up and he was like my own delivery system of hearing anything to give me hope that things will get better. I am going to GO!! I love him!!! He is so different from regular preachers and gives such hope and his smile is enough to brighten anyones day.
:) That is my happiness for today. Gonna have to be enough to sustain cause I'm just not happy today LOL.
Watched Christmas movies yesterday in bed.
I looked into taking an oil painting class.
Called a woman about teaching me some photography tips.
Now just gonna sit here and probably go lay back in bed and stare at the ceiling.

Happy Tuesday to all!
Love,
Di

Monday Monday!!!

It's 10 am Monday morning and I JUST got out of bed. Savannah is still asleep. Juan had a fever last night and felt awful. I started singing Another one bites the dust.
Yesterday I was in bed almost whole day. Nothing to do. I'm so bored my eyes are crossed. Anthony has gotten VERY into Worlds of Warcraft and made some friends on there and is playing that pretty much non stop. For now it's okay. Juan sits on his bar stool playing Guitar hero. Yesterday they played mud football all day.
My cousin Lindsay took alot of time to write me the sweetest most love filled email yesterday. :o) I have read it twice now and really taking everything you said into consideration and it meant more than you could ever know that you love me that much, you put all that time into that email. Was extremely special and it helped more than you could ever know. I'm gonna get back to you on some of that. You are truly a gem :)
My house is pretty much clean, so I guess I am going to either spend the day in bed again or find something else to clean.
Have a happy Monday everyone!!
Love,
Di

Sunday

Happy Sunday!!! Been in bed hmmmm most of the day. Not sick or anything. Just nothing else to do. I have nothing really to blog about. Savannah is still sick. Now Juan is getting it.
I have a bunch of photos to finish editing but with my eyes hurting so bad sitting staring closely at pics isn't easy on the eyes. So, I think tomorrow I will finish them all up.
It warmed up alot today, probably have tornados again. That's the way it's been going.
Not much else to report.

Have a happy Sunday.
Love,
Di

I should have known

Sitting here in my house.......In my chair at the computer. I'm video gamed out, I'm tired. I sit and I do alot of soul searching. Wonder why it is, how I am the way I am. I suffer from depression, post traumatic stress disorder, piggy backed with anxiety. That is my official "diagnosis" If you will.
But I search deep within and realize it's so much more. I'm plagued with guilt. Guilt from so much..........But mostly I think from Brett dying. After he died, I changed. Changed drastically. Who wouldn't? But after that my life just seemed to go wrong. Everything wrong. But, what you don't know is I constantly tell myself that I deserve this. I deserve this bad stuff.
When Brett got sick.....there was a good couple months or so where his leg hurt. We laughed at him, teased him.........When he got to where he was taking more than 5 aspirin at a time and the pain wasn't going away.....I suddenly knew something wasn't right. I waited til Thursday to pick up my check and took him to the Dr.
Fast forward til now......I'm scrubbing my hands every hour, disinfecting stuff. Afraid of getting sick.

The realization hits me........I blame myself for him dying, because I should have known. I SHOULD Have known!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a wealth of knowledge now on diseases, cancer, what have you. Because I won't make the same mistake again.
But, deep inside I believe I deserve every bad thing coming my way because I could've taken him to the Dr. earlier. Instead we teased him. Real life kicks in and says Di you were only a kid.........but then my brain says, I should've known.

On the day Brett died, I didn't want to go in the room to see him. My mom kept saying "you need to go, you need to go, you will regret it for the rest of your life if you don't"

I regret going in most of all. Being left alone with his body. When I close my eyes I see his face, how the life was sucked out of him and you could tell that his spirit wasn't there anymore. Just a shell and his soul had moved on. I wish I would have never of gone.

Secretly deep inside, I wish that I would have never met him. Never. Sometimes I hate him. All the chemo, all the protocals, the surgery, the dying. All changed my life and changed me into someone I hate. Someone I can't run from. Stuck with myself and I can't hide. I fear medicine because I saw what medicine did to him. That whole situation screwed me up so badly.

I want to like myself. I want to forgive myself, but I don't know how. I want to believe that I am worthy of good things, worthy of a good life. Instead all I can do is see how much time I have truly wasted and how much of a failure I am.

Reality...........It sucks....

Sick of Sick

UGH Savannah progressively got worse over night. Fever went higher she feels awful. She told me this morning she feels dizzy and OMG I freaked. It took me 4 mos to get over that last dizzy virus. UGH. Since she started school it's non stop sickness. Over and over sickness. I'm worn out and just angry. I'm feeling better some. Savannah told me her arms aren't working and she can't move. Flu, I was pretty sure when I had it cause I felt so achey.
UGH someone else please take our sick cloud, I don't want it anymore.

I just want school out so I can at least have a 2 week period where we aren't sick

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Happy day

Love,
di

Woo Hoo, it's Friday

Really it's not a Woo Hoo, cause I don't really care ha ha!! Got to bed really, really late. Savannah is sick. She is home today. Has the flu. I guess she has what I had. She said her arms hurt really bad and her head is hurting way bad, her exact words. Here is she watching Sponge Bob with an ice pack on her head.

Hmm, LOST was okay last night, I am just so confused as to what is going on. With the long breaks and what nots, I just can't figure out exactly what is happening. It's a terrific show. If you like being confused or LOST no pun intended LOL i highly recommend it. Scrubbed Juans room today, top to bottom. OMG it was a disaster area and took forever.
My puppy dog is asleep with the cutest look ever on his face. I snapped a pic of course.

I love, LOVE, LOVE my dogs. Opie is my baby.
Okay, I'm off to do some more laundry and what ever it is I do around here.
Hope everyone has a terrific weekend.
Love,
Di

Howdy!

Well, I officially have had the flu the past few days. Achey, tired, fever. Achey, tired, fever. Rinse, repeat. We got lots of snow and ice. Umm....... Nothing else really going on. Tried to take Savannah some flowers and a balloon to school they said no way. For her birthday we can't even take treats. Hmph. Grinches. I just woke up from a long nap.
It's Valentines Day. Hmph.
Boys are doing good. Anthony's on the mend from Alex. Juan is just Juan.
I'm doing okay other than being sick. I literally took the bathroom apart and cleaned it today. Took the shower curtain down, washed it. It's spotless.
Deleted most of my toons from Toon town. Cept for my favorite ones and my big ones.
I just don't know what I want to do. I have so many emotions in my head and they are all over the place. It's like I need to sort them all and have no place to put them. I'm not even sure if I know where they go.
Just reached my fill on alot of things and I give up. I give up.
Not sad. Just tired.
Tomorrow I will try to be more clever in my blogging. My creativity is in the sink where i cleaned. I'll fish it out later.
Owooooooo!
Happy Day
Love,
Di

Morning routine

is going to kill me. I'm convinced. Savannah does NOT like to get out of bed. It is such a struggle to get her out of bed and race to the bus stop every single morning. I am soooooooooo worn out of this. Worn out in general. Last night, I went to bed to watch American Idol. Slept through some of it. Came downstairs to send out a couple things. Went back up and out. Slept til 7:30 this morning. I was beat. Owoooooooo! Not too much else going on really. Anthony is finally realizing that Alex has another boyfriend. Juan has been behaving for the most part. Savannahs doing well other than she won't get out of bed. Just mopped the living room floor and decided to blog while I'm waiting on it to dry.
Dell man will be here in a bit to fix other puter. Since we have gotten it, it's been giving error after error. Real pain in the butt. Okay........ I'm off. Gonna go find something to do. Have given up video games for awhile and I work on my stuff then I find myself with nothing to do. Hmmm gotta work on that.

Happy Thursday LOST night :)

Welcome to the Heartbreak Hotel

Oh Wow on everything. You all who read my blog regularly and my family who knows me in real life knows that NOTHING ever goes right for me. I don't care what it is. If I had to walk to the mailbox to get something, I would probably trip over a 100 year old totem pole and wind up with 20 million stitches. My whole life is like that.

Today I am TIRED. LG and E came out for the gas leak, there were quite a few, they stuck red stuff all around saying DO NOT USE DANGER etc. After the nice carbon monoxide run in, the gas was an added bonus. Either way it's all fixed. I no longer smell it. The guy came in yesterday and he could tell I was drained, I had a headache and I said "Sir, do you know what it's like to tell people for days you smell gas and no one believe you or think you are just paranoid" he said "Maam if a woman calls, we usually hurry out cause they are rarely ever wrong" Funny thing the last guy who came (different guy) said the same thing. His buzz detector was going way off. He took me down and showed me a bunch of stuff. I told him this is greek to me. He told me if I needed help anymore explaining to call him. Either way I guess he explained good enough, it was fixed and smell is gone YAY!!!!! The lins on the gas thing were old and hadn't been upgraded so Kyles cousin fixed it and upgraded them.

Heartbreak UGH Alex and Anthony broke up. He is sooooooo sad and she is treating him so badly. Playing headgames with him, telling him he's a jerk and that he really didnt love her. All that is just an excuse for her having another boyfriend. She needs to quit telling him that stuff because if anyone was wrong it was her. If she liked someone else, she should just tell him and cut if off. Not tell him he was a jerk and a bad boyfriend when all he did was kiss her ass. Too bad for her she doesnt realize what goes around comes around. She will learn soon enough but if she doesn't quit telling him he's a jerk, I'm going to get involved. Anthony thinks I am so mean cause i made him quit talking to her. He was groveling and I'm sorry I personally would never lower myself to grovel and beg anyone to love me. It's her loss, she will see that.

Savannahs been sick.........I'm not sleeping tonight. Got a few other things going on today. Tonight I just went and sat in a dark room with my Ipod and bawled my eyes out. Phew. I think I needed it.

Things could turn around and go smooth at any moment and I would love it.

My Song lyric of choice for today...................

Without love I wouldn't believe
In anything that lives and breathes
Without love I'd have no anger
I wouldn't believe in the right to stand here
Without love I wouldn't believe
I couldn't believe in you
And I wouldn't believe in me
Without love

I believe in love
I believe in love
I believe in love

Happy Sleepy Monday

Had a very busy weekend. Heat is fixed, but it's leaking gas. No one will listen to me, so if house blows up, blame everyone who didn't listen. Just finished dusting and mopping living room, laudry is going, kitchen is fairly straight. I'm thinking of climbing back in bed and snoozing.
Was gone pretty much all day yesterday. Up late.

That's about it. Savannahs getting better.

Life is good
(for the most part ha ha)

Happy Monday

2 posts in one day...... Owooooo!!

As if things aren't bad enough...........Kyle and I argued all afternoon, then Anthony and I argued all afternoon.......Savannah comes downstairs screaming. I say what's wrong, she says I'm cold, I recognize the scream of course, it happens again and again. UGH Her ear is infected. So in the morning, I will haul my cold ass out of bed and take her to the dr in the freezing rain and sleet. I am so stressed and can't understand why I can not just a get a break. Constant, constant stress. I have a headache said the girl.

Grumpy Thursday

I'm soooooooooooooo mad. I'm tired of being cold. My house is freezing. I swear there's ice in the toilet downstairs. I can't move I'm so cold. I have sat here and cried all morning because I'm tired of cold. My lungs hurt, my body actually aches from the freezing.
Heater man NOT coming tomorrow. I can't even get into the details of it because I'm PISSED off beyond belief. You actually have to make a phone call to the guy to get him to come out. Who knew????????? Guess the heat getting fixed will be in line with the phone getting fixed. Phones been broke for a month now. Imagine that.
We have a winter storm warning for tonight, guess I'll sit here watch my breath and freeze. UGH UGH UGH

Being cold is the absolute pits. Everyone gets out of the house all day but me. I may go to the mall or something today.

:( Frozen di

Owoooooooo!

Oh My Gosh is all I can say to how cold I am. I couldn't get out of bed this morning to take Savannah to school cause we are so cold. Thermostat says 50, my body says 20. So I am taking her in late. She was shivering she was so cold. I need a shower cause my hair is BLUCH cause Kyle decided it would be funny to dump lotiony stuff in it. I'm way pissed cause it looks like I ate chicken and used my hair as a napkin. I could surely be a T bird in Grease. So until the thermostat reaches 60 I will not shower. Owooooooo, I have the blinds open persuading the sunshine to come in.
The tornado, bad storm stuff last night, what the hell is with that in January?
Things that make you go hmmmmmmmmm
I never watch TV so didn't even pay attn to what was coming. Turn on American Idol to tornado warnings. Crazy stuff.
Okay, gonna pluck the layers of blankets off Savannah one by one and get her dressed and off to school. Pray for warm weather. Heater guy should be coming soon. Going to have a whole new one put in. How long that takes is beyond me.
Happy Wednesday. PS Savannah keeps singing Hang a horseshoe over the door. I have one over my front door. Thinking only thing it has brought me is bad luck. Maybe I'll get a toilet seat to hang over the door. Maybe better luck!

Happy Monday

Getting a good start on Monday. Putting laundry away. Heater man is here. Grrrrrrrr heater man just left. The gas valve shorted out and melted basically. Usually when that happens, the control panel shorts out also. He said it looks okay for now, but can not check it til he takes the valve off. Okay so what's the problem. The valve is 400 bucks.........if he takes it off and the control panel which may be bad needs to be replaced, an additional 400 dollars. A whole new furnace can be installed for 1200 dollars. I'm not a gambling girl. I don't know what to do. Dadddyyyyyyyyyyy, HELP!! LOL I'll be calling you to ask your opinion. Sheesh. So no heat still til Friday at the earliest.
What seemed like a good start is only getting worse.
Owoooooooooo!!
Happy Monday!

My Saturday Post LOL not evening!

Happy Saturday!! Not here of course!! Last night was on the puter, felt wheezy from my cold and started smelling something strange. I was like.......what's that smell? Well, I feel cold, cold air......brrrrrr. The vents I walk over and cold air. Of course the heat is broken! Noooooooooooooooooooo! Ugh, how in the hell can we get our ducks in a row if everything keeps breaking and what nots. GRRRRR
So then I'm cooking and Kyle tries to start our nice weekend argument and I start getting pissed off. I hate weekends. HATE HATE HATE weekends. Anthony and Kyle are fighting. I just want to sit with my bag of Dove chocolates and shovel them in. But, my stomach hurts so that's a no deal.
Monday, Monday hurry up. I'm cold, sick and stressed. Karen we probably won't be getting together this weekend. I have a bad, bad chest cold and coughing and coughing and had a fever last night. Don't want to share any of my germs.

Happy Wednesday!!

I'm sooo tired today Owooo!! Yesterday I spent the whole entire day in Toon Town. My kitty cat Miss Sally is maxing law. I have made a bunch of good friends over in Toon town and me and Melissa got our 14,400 Jury notices. What does that mean? Means you spend the whole day in the DA office getting them LOL.......So Me, Mel, Melissa and Susan literally spent about 7 hours of the day on the phone or Skype as we call it, while we ran them. We laughed so much. I had to leave to get Savannah so when I got back they said they would do my last DA office with me. Oh boy, they griefed me to death. We were all laughing so hard. I should've been done after 1 with an invasion, but they made me miss it on purpose so we had to do another one. I think we were all laughing so hard we were crying. Took us 2 hrs for 400 measley Jury Notices. I think that is one of the best days I have had in so long with all the laughing. Truly a wonderful day :o) Here are some pics. My laugh meter is supposed to be full and I almost went sad LMBO :) a total blast with wonderful, wonderful friends.

Saturday

Been a week almost since I have updated. Sorry about that. Haven't been busy much,just drained and so far behind on everything. Today I pretty much slept til 1 oclock. I needed it too. Last week got together with Karen, Tommy, Sue and all that gang, had dinner and played games and talked. We laughed alot. Was alot of fun. Supposed to do it again this week. So Karen if you are trying to call, the phone is yet broken again. Call my cell if you wanna get a hold of me.
I guess I will call to have them come fix it, but I am not a phone person. Hate talking on it. Can talk on the headset on puter alot, but can't stand the phone.
It's way too cold to walk outside. Been scrubbing the living room, organizing it.
Kyle's in the basement and doesn't really come up. Anthonys hooked on WoW and been playing that all day on the computer papaw got them for Christmas.
Savannahs running between me and Kyle upstairs, downstairs.
I'm lonely and tired and pretty depressed.
That's about it for Saturday.
Hope everyone has a good one and to the family members who are in the weight thing, I need your weights, they were due in last week, so I can figure them for yas!!

Checking in

I'm beat today. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. As most of you know who read my blog or I should say who have read my blog for the 2 years I have been posting, I suffer from SAD. Seasonal Affective Disorder. This month is the worst for me. I have hit my lowest low of depression and starting February it starts decreasing as the days get longer. Alot of people in my anxiety group suffer from it. Depression isn't any fun. Not by any means.
So I have been stressed. Kyle things aren't going really well at all. We aren't fighting per se', just basically ignoring each other. Which is probably for the best given the current situation. Kyle and Anthony aren't getting along. Juan has good days and bad days. Last night I was all nestled in my bed. It was close to 2 am I know. He was sleeping over at his friends. Phone rings I'm thinking okay, he probably had anxiety attack and wants to come home. WRONG...........They have a dog and it freaking attacked him of all places on his face. He has this gaping hole on the inside of his mouth, it went all the way through to the other side. Bruised and swollen all over the side of his face. Teeth marks and bite marks by his eye and nose. The mother who dropped him off didn't even come in the house or anything. So we gotta go find out if the dog had shots and what have you. He's in alot of pain and looks awful but is okay. Freaking stupid dog. At 2am when you get that call and you are waiting for them to be driven home seems like it took hours. He was pretty shaken up, said the dog wouldnt let go of his lip and was pulling and you can see the perfect tear down the inside of his mouth where he had it and was pulling. So bruised and swollen, was bleeding alot. Keep him in your thoughts and prayers.
Gonna try to keep busy today. Keep my mind as clear as it can be.
Happy Sunday.

First day back to school!!!

We all had a stomach virus. Savannah had hers Saturday night late, sunday and then yesterday was really tired and cranky. Today back to school and remember my clean counters? She went out to fix her a snack and usually hops on the counter to get her a plate or a bowl and turn a movie on. LMBO she didn't make it far at all. Zonked straight out. That sums up the first day back to school!!

Weirdness

I'm weird about certain things. In the kitchen, I hate to even walk in there if its' a mess. I think it's part of my ADHD with stuff being out of place. I think everything has a home and if it's not there....I flip out. Those of you who do fly lady know about hot spots. I have several. Hot spots are the same spots in your home wehre you deposit your junk. Mail, keys, phones. By my back door is one.... I can't stand it. The fridge is one, on top. I can't take it. I hate stuff on top of the fridge. Here are some pics of my kitchen weirdness. Things put in their home and nice and tidy. Clear counters. :) It clears my mind and I sleep better knowing everything is clear. I'm weird. Very, very weird.


Below, I always like labels facing to where you can see them.


Nice and clear........Ahhhhhhhhhh!! :) Looking at the kool aid there drives me a little crazy. Both because I hate koolaid and it's just sitting there out of place in the old kitchen. Kitchen is still outdated quite a bit.

I promised Auntie Sandy I would post recital pics

I plum forgot. Here they are.
They had it at a church this year since the school was too small and the big recital is at a huge auditorium. This was just a Christmas program. They danced to Holly Jolly Christmas. The girls with Savannh are of course Maddie May and then her best friend from school Sydney. The whole program was LONG but she was adorable.

My cousin LIndsay and her new baby girl

My Family

I love my sweet, sweet Family!! On Christmas, I got up and left the room Hmmmmm bad idea. I come back in and everyone is laughing very hard. I can't figure it out. My uncle said my camera was turned on they were trying to fix it. So, I just looked at my Christmas pics and I found a bunch I thought I would share with the world!! The first one is of my dear Aunt Mary Lee, you can see me in the background walking into the room wondering what was going on LOL :) The pics were too pretty to just keep to myself.

Here are my wonderful Aunt and Uncle Sandy and Jerry :)


Then theres Mark

My lovely Lovely Mother!!

Stress Owooooooo

Over Christmas break, my oldest son, who has never, ever been a liar. Has turned into a huge, huge liar. This makes me so very sad. He has been grounded from the phone for his grades. He got a girlfriend, his grades fell drastically. For all of his life, if his grades are bad, we take away the thing that is eating up most of his time and preventing him from doing homework. This year it was the phone. We have caught him sneaking around calling Alex. Okay, normal stuff. So I told him the other day, he could call her and talk the day after Christmas. I said for an hour. I mean that's enough time. They haven't talked. 3 to 4 hrs later, he is still on the phone. Okay, it's after Christmas, I let that one slide. The next day I hear him in his room on the phone with someone. Alex, but he lies says he was not talking to her. I take the phone. The other day, I told him he could talk for 10 minutes to tell her something. 1 hr later I go up and he is STILL on the phone with her. So I ground him for an additional 2 weeks from the phone, and he's not allowed to myspace her or IM her for lying. We are all asleep come downstairs, computer was on. He says, he wasn't online. AOL has this billing thing where it shows your whole account activity. I know exactly when he's been on. He told me that thing lies. Not him. So we want to go to Kohls last night. He doesn't want to go. I give him strict instructions of no phone and no computer. No conversing with Alex, til all this dies over. I even emailed with her and she promised she wouldn't sneak. I took the phones with me because that is too tempting. I get home Juan on puter Alex IMs him says Anthony got on and talked to Jessica, those 2 aren't very smart. I wouldn't of even checked activity, because I would like to think I can trust him. So I check activity and he logged in a few times on Juans acct and talked to her. I showed him the statement, the proof, the times we were gone he still says "That thing lies" So they aren't going to be able to talk for a very long time now. If they would just of obeyed my rules and not been disrespectful they could've seen each other this week, talked on the phone next week. But no, rules had to be broken and then lied to over and over. Blantant lack of disrespect. He needs to learn that in the real world, you have rules you have to follow and if you break those rules you have consequences. Tough lesson to learn, but we all have to learn it.
ARGH teenagers.

Owooooo

I promise a new post tomorrow!! nothing really going on. Savannah back into brady bunch, asked for a hooker again . That girls a hot freaking mess. So anywhoo I promise an update tomorrow, we are all still alive!!
Love,
Di

Christmas Morning

My son Juan is always eating. The kids are opening presents, Juan is stuffing his face

Savannah with her fishin pole

The dogs this morning were hilarious. Anytime someone would open a gift they would run over to them, give them a paw or lick them in the face. It was so funny. They wanted to be a part of the action and were!! Here is Opie giving Juan his paw as he is picking up a gift LOL

Vannah thanking Anthony for her My Little Pony

Savannah opening a gift Hmmmmmm can't see her
Anthony with a sweatshirt he just opened

I opened up gingerbread flavored peeps and this is what came my way

Claire and her toy walking around in the chaos

Anthony opening his stocking, watching Juan opening some gifts and Opie giving me his paw @@ Good grief

Early training for Savannah. I'm still unbeatable

Wanted in on the gingerbread Peep action.

Savannah got an easel and I showed her how to play win lose or draw LMBO mine is Run for the Roses LOL

She went ALOT slower than I did, she wanted to take 5 or more minutes a pic. Vs 30 seconds Owooo!! LOL I had to tell her the point was to draw and guess quickly. Hers was a girl with a sun burn!! LOL Too cute


And we start on Juan eating and end on Juan eating. Will post more pics later. We have alot of stuff to do today. Merry Christmas!!

Pic bombardment, be ready!!

Christmas Eve at Moms

Savannah bein cute :)

Below are my boys :)

Juan Juan

My bro aka Uncle Donny LOL with Savannah


A good pic of Uncle Johnny chillin on the porch. We are laughing at the fact that we got mom and Mark good on a Dee's Nuts joke

My moms smelly old hound dog. Daisy

:)

Happy Christmas Eve!

Howdy everyone! Happy Christmas Eve!!
Today we spend the afternoon at moms!!
Can't wait!
Hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas eve and may you be blessed!!

Saturday

I slept in, got up, played a bit of Toontown, thought it was going to be a nice relaxing day. Nope. Kyle decided it would be a good day to argue. I tried not to argue, I really, really did. It's 3 days before Christmas. I'm tired. I'm stressed. I didn't need anymore issues.
Merry Christmas Di, you got issues for Christmas.
Ho Ho Ho

Just what I always wanted!!

I just wanna be left alone.

Happy Saturday

Di

Barely awake on Friday

Yesterday went so good, then last night.....I go crawl in bed, Savannahs restless and cranky. I get up and she said she itches, turn on the light and ugh, Hives and swelling. I freaked of course, cause I have the tendancy to do that. Ran downstairs called pharmacist which in turn told me to call Dr. She's allergic to the Ominicef. That's frustrating on 2 counts. The first is that's a really good antibiotic and she's running out of options for meds treating her ear infections. The second is OMG it freaked me out.
We got zero sleep. Fell asleep about 3 a.m woke up at 4:30 with her tossing and turning in every direction itching and scratching. About 5:30 I finally drifted off for 3 hrs. This morning I feel like a zombie and I have a ton of stuff to do.
UGH, If you guys could've seen her rash and how swollen it was. I'm no good in emergencies on my own kids. Other peoples, I can handle. Not my own.
Keep her in your prayers because I don't know what they are going to do for her now.
:(
Love,
Di

Happy Thursday!

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:P LMBO!!
Hope everyone is well this close to Christmas. Savannahs been very sick. Her ear again very, very bad off. Screaming in pain. Close to rupturing. Not sure if it did or not. She's on extremely strong antibiotics right now. I have a nice cold. YEE HAW!! I am sooooooooooo stuffed up and got the sniffles. Owooooo!! I do not like it Sam I am, I do not like sniffles, but I do love ham. I'm ready to be well. I am terrified it will go into dizziness again, but I am equipped with antivert. I read on the internet that you can very rarely get labrynthitis again. So lets hope so!!

Ummmmm......Last night I was up very late. I couldn't sleep. I didn't want to go to sleep because I was feeling okay and I was afraid if I went to sleep that I would wake up feeling horrible and I was scared. I woke up today and wow, what can I say but it's been a very fulfilling day. Much better than I could of ever expected.

Thank God for friends. :) Special, special ones.

Happy Thursday

Sunday rolls into Monday

It's after midnight. I'm tired. We all are sick. Headcolds, coughing. Savannah has ran a fever all day. She's achey and tired. Cranky. Fever has been high. Sigh. So keep us all in prayers that it goes away quickly.
I'll post pics in the morning of her recital.
My sweet baby girl.

Saturday

Ugh, I'm stressed, it's Saturday morning. Savannah has a recital, I have to fight and fight with her to fix her hair. That's part of the reason we cut it. She literally has screamed for 30 min cause I had to braid her hair. Kicking, screaming. Grrr!!
Anthony and I who never argue, got into a huge fight last night. He was supposed to go to the movies with his girlfriend, is grounded from the phone. I gave him 5 minutes to IM her and ask her what's up. 10 minutes goes by and the power goes out and he starts freaking out saying that she is going to be mad at him and he has to hurry and apologize to her cause she will be mad at him. So the power comes back on, I give him a few more minutes and tell him times up. I gave him 20 minutes and in that time they didn't discuss the movie. Not my fault. So we get in a huge fight and I tell him that he shouldn't worry that much about her being mad at him. I mean good grief, he can't help some of this stuff. Anyways, it got ugly. I was in a very bad mood.
Kyle and I are tiffing back and forth. Not the magnitude that it was, but still back and forth bickering. Alot of it is me. I'm extremely angry still at the things that were said to me.
Savannah and I are sharing a twin bed. She kicks and kicks me. I went to bed last night before 10, that's a new record.
Dizziness is still coming and going. We all have head colds from the drastic weather change.
Oh a cute thing. Last night, Savannah and I were crawling into bed and she was only wearing underwear. I said "Savannah, you need to get on a shirt, if you wear no shirt to sleep, you will wake up with a chest cold" she thought for a minute, dug in her drawers, got a shirt out, put it on. She then reopened her drawers and said "I guess I better put some pants on, so I don't get a leg cold too"
Ha ha!! So flipping cute.
I'll share pics of her recital when we return home.
Happy Saturday. Be safe on the slick roads!

This is going to make no sense to you normal folks!!

I woke up from the strangest dream.........Oh Good grief, good luck to any interpreters out there. I dreamed we lived down at the old house in Butchertown, I was in a car being chased and there was a traffic cop at the corner there by Bakers Square.........It was the Pope and he was trying to assassinate me. I was so scared. He didn't have on his papal robe, but he had on the beanie and a hunting vest. He kept shooting at me and missing. So I run onto the back patio and I couldn't get the gate unlatched and limos and such were flying around me. I got in, mom is cooking steaks, I tell her they are trying to kill me. Mark runs upstairs and gets dressed in the funkiest hunting attire and goes to the roof. Meanwhile mom tells me she got us reservations at Embassy Suites and we should be safe there. So I am running all over the place, trying to find car to get to Embassy Suites.
What the heck kind of dream was that??????
I mean of all people the Pope???? In his beanie?????
Oh man...steak was good though.
Happy Thursday.
Good grief.