Friday, April 01, 2005

April 1st, afternoon

Well I have been gone most of the day. It was nice to get out, but I really didn't go anywhere i needed to go. Juan found the magician hats at Factory card outlet, it was a true blessing. I really really needed them!! I didn't get enough, so i have to go back and get more. I bought 10 sigh. There are about 14 boys and about 13 girls. too many to keep up with. About 75 people in all should come, we invited 90 something but people don't RSVP, i have had to call most of them. I am starving today, seems like i just keep eating, my stomach hurts but i keep on eating. I am tired. I wanted to go to the mall today but it was too big of a project for me to take on with anxiety today. People who can just walk in a mall and enjoy it, just don't know what its like to not be able to go in there. I wanna go but its too far to the exits. I hate this. I really really do. I have a goal to get to the big mall in the East end with the Disney store. But i just can't go. Too much freeway driving and too much crowds and its too overwhelming. Too much noise, not knowing the layout :( I really really need to look into getting medicated. I really really do. Granted, i am not housebound like before, but I still can't do alof of the things that i want to do. I am sad over the pope being so close to death. what got me the most was him wanting to read to him a reading from the hours, the third hour. It makes me sad because he probably read that for comfort, he is probably sad, he was wanting to know what jesus did in his last hours. It just breaks my heart. Poor man. God bless him.
I dunno what we are doing tonight. My guess would be going to the store since i am eating carmel corn for dinner, Is it carmel or caramel, dern english and all its different meanings. Knew new, sea see, tea tee, i could go on and on and on but I wont. Well, savannah is awake and extremely cranky so i guess thats my cue to exit stage left.

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